Venting ever thought of this?

[Saga]

we are all suffering emotionally,emotional support groups cant do shit about what we feel...they might help a little bit but at the same time its only temporary and we're back from where it all started...its tiring isnt it?being alive when you know within that you werent really meant for this world to live in?..isnt it tiring?waking up everyday knowing youre still alive?...isnt it tiring that we look for methods to ctb?i know i am...i tried living but its just not for me,i tried to do as much as i could from OD,Hanging,Cutting,Starvation,Alcohol Poisoning but f@#$ im still here.. but i want something solid to cut this life line...i am so tired...its so tiring to live...we all have these thoughts but why cant i do it properly...?why cant you?...arent you sorry for being alive?i am...i am sorry for being born..its so tiring...all i could do is complain but nothing really works..sometimes i wish that i wont awaken anymore...I joined this forum coz i know in here i wont be judged...i wont be seen as a drama queen or anything like that.. its so depressing to have depression...its so depressing that even if i tried to understand life,i just cant.

 

[Pupuce]

So far I've technically tried helium, cutting, partial hanging and Sodium nitrite poisoning. You can guess how it went. Survival instinct kicked in for helium, cutting was too painful for me, partial hanging seems to be quite a good method but I've yet to do it properly, and SN is awfully salty. I reckon paracetamol overdose would work quite easily, but would be excruciating potentially for weeks until the end, so it's a last resort method. There is a lot of reason why one would fail his attempts, it's not something to feel guilty of. You don't have to feel responsible for your birth/existence either, it wasn't your doing nor your will.

 

[Saga]

So far I've technically tried helium, cutting, partial hanging and Sodium nitrite poisoning. You can guess how it went. Survival instinct kicked in for helium, cutting was too painful for me, partial hanging seems to be quite a good method but I've yet to do it properly, and SN is awfully salty. I reckon paracetamol overdose would work quite easily, but would be excruciating potentially for weeks until the end, so it's a last resort method. There is a lot of reason why one would fail his attempts, it's not something to feel guilty of. You don't have to feel responsible for your birth/existence either, it wasn't your doing nor your will.

thanks...but paracetamol?youll have excuriating stomach pain,lots of vomiting worst part is acid vomit....thats where i overdosed...its traumatizing

 

[Pupuce]

thanks...but paracetamol?youll have excuriating stomach pain,lots of vomiting worst part is acid vomit....thats where i overdosed...its traumatizing

I've read that it could completely destroy your liver and give you hepatitis. It ranged the time of death from 2 weeks up to six months.

 

[Saga]

I've read that it could completely destroy your liver and give you hepatitis. It ranged the time of death from 2 weeks up to six months.

well...im not sure about my condition right now regarding that but well paracetamol might be strong in your country but not in mine...are you going to wait that long?

 

[Pupuce]

well...im not sure about my condition right now regarding that but well paracetamol might be strong in your country but not in mine...are you going to wait that long?

I don't know if I'll ever resort to that method honestly.

 

[Saga]

I don't know if I'll ever resort to that method honestly.

there are other methods...but with paracetamol im really not going to take that again

 

[Dead beat dad]

we are all suffering emotionally,emotional support groups cant do shit about what we feel...they might help a little bit but at the same time its only temporary and we're back from where it all started...its tiring isnt it?being alive when you know within that you werent really meant for this world to live in?..isnt it tiring?waking up everyday knowing youre still alive?...isnt it tiring that we look for methods to ctb?i know i am...i tried living but its just not for me,i tried to do as much as i could from OD,Hanging,Cutting,Starvation,Alcohol Poisoning but f@#$ im still here.. but i want something solid to cut this life line...i am so tired...its so tiring to live...we all have these thoughts but why cant i do it properly...?why cant you?...arent you sorry for being alive?i am...i am sorry for being born..its so tiring...all i could do is complain but nothing really works..sometimes i wish that i wont awaken anymore...I joined this forum coz i know in here i wont be judged...i wont be seen as a drama queen or anything like that.. its so depressing to have depression...its so depressing that even if i tried to understand life,i just cant.

You mention tiredness or a derivative about half a dozen times in your post. Brother I feel your pain.
Life is exhausting. Managing depression and mental illness is exhausting. Put those two together and you've got chronic exhaustion.
I don't have anything useful to add save for the fact I feel your pain.
Good luck brother, I hope you can find what you're looking for.
DBD

 

[Saga]

You mention tiredness or a derivative about half a dozen times in your post. Brother I feel your pain.
Life is exhausting. Managing depression and mental illness is exhausting. Put those two together and you've got chronic exhaustion.
I don't have anything useful to add save for the fact I feel your pain.
Good luck brother, I hope you can find what you're looking for.
DBD

thanks i am really tired too...and well im a sister hahah but i still get to laugh...though its once in a while most of the time everything is just too tiring

 

[Dead beat dad]

thanks i am really tired too...and well im a sister hahah but i still get to laugh...though its once in a while most of the time everything is just too tiring

Apologies sister

 

[Saga]

Apologies sister

no worries my fault coz of my name

 

[justanotherday]

we are all suffering emotionally,emotional support groups cant do shit about what we feel...they might help a little bit but at the same time its only temporary and we're back from where it all started...its tiring isnt it?being alive when you know within that you werent really meant for this world to live in?..isnt it tiring?waking up everyday knowing youre still alive?...isnt it tiring that we look for methods to ctb?i know i am...i tried living but its just not for me,i tried to do as much as i could from OD,Hanging,Cutting,Starvation,Alcohol Poisoning but f@#$ im still here.. but i want something solid to cut this life line...i am so tired...its so tiring to live...we all have these thoughts but why cant i do it properly...?why cant you?...arent you sorry for being alive?i am...i am sorry for being born..its so tiring...all i could do is complain but nothing really works..sometimes i wish that i wont awaken anymore...I joined this forum coz i know in here i wont be judged...i wont be seen as a drama queen or anything like that.. its so depressing to have depression...its so depressing that even if i tried to understand life,i just cant.

I can relate... for sure!

 

[Read123456788]

we are all suffering emotionally,emotional support groups cant do shit about what we feel...they might help a little bit but at the same time its only temporary and we're back from where it all started...its tiring isnt it?being alive when you know within that you werent really meant for this world to live in?..isnt it tiring?waking up everyday knowing youre still alive?...isnt it tiring that we look for methods to ctb?i know i am...i tried living but its just not for me,i tried to do as much as i could from OD,Hanging,Cutting,Starvation,Alcohol Poisoning but f@#$ im still here.. but i want something solid to cut this life line...i am so tired...its so tiring to live...we all have these thoughts but why cant i do it properly...?why cant you?...arent you sorry for being alive?i am...i am sorry for being born..its so tiring...all i could do is complain but nothing really works..sometimes i wish that i wont awaken anymore...I joined this forum coz i know in here i wont be judged...i wont be seen as a drama queen or anything like that.. its so depressing to have depression...its so depressing that even if i tried to understand life,i just cant.

You are so right !! I am tired of everything and anything now.

 

[mesohappy]

we are all suffering emotionally,emotional support groups cant do shit about what we feel...they might help a little bit but at the same time its only temporary and we're back from where it all started...its tiring isnt it?being alive when you know within that you werent really meant for this world to live in?..isnt it tiring?waking up everyday knowing youre still alive?...isnt it tiring that we look for methods to ctb?i know i am...i tried living but its just not for me,i tried to do as much as i could from OD,Hanging,Cutting,Starvation,Alcohol Poisoning but f@#$ im still here.. but i want something solid to cut this life line...i am so tired...its so tiring to live...we all have these thoughts but why cant i do it properly...?why cant you?...arent you sorry for being alive?i am...i am sorry for being born..its so tiring...all i could do is complain but nothing really works..sometimes i wish that i wont awaken anymore...I joined this forum coz i know in here i wont be judged...i wont be seen as a drama queen or anything like that.. its so depressing to have depression...its so depressing that even if i tried to understand life,i just cant.

Youre going through a hard time,mama...Go to sleep and rest..Think about it tomorrow.

 

[Flume]

Fighting this world is tiring yes, so tiring that being born at all was a waste of time. All of it can just burn in hell I'm done with this shit.