Discussion Anyone else despise taking care of their body?

[Done_with_the_world]

I have been so sick of trying to take care of my dumb body for as long as I can remember.

I get angry at my stomach whenever it rumbles and wish I could ignore eating. I hate the sensation of eating. I feel so gross and disgusting when I feel full and feel a lot better when I don't eat for a while. The feeling of having food move through my body is so gross to me.

Recently my body has also been just so sluggish and tired recently, and I can't concentrate. I'm so angry at myself for not being able to stay focused. I wish the stupid fatigue would go away. I went to the doctor but it will take a while for results to come in. I hav to do blood work, to see what it is. I hope it's not prediabetes, since Halloween has come and gone. I'm getting annoyed because I really want to do my housework, and also my homework. But I'm too tired to do it. I'm getting severely angry at the mess.

I have just grown so tired of living, and the process of me being alive. Wondering if anyone else can relate.

 

[Adûnâi]

Absolutely! Eating, shitting and and sleeping are vile. I hate how most people love talking about food - and I'm not even anorexic. I might consider liking life if existence were possible on the proverbial "spiritual realm".

...Still, it can be bearable if I'm utterly absorbed in some activity, forgetting that I have a body altogether!

 

[MentalFuneral]

I feel the opposite way honestly. I feel incredibly guilty about the thought of killing my body and it makes it difficult for me to CTB. I wish I could donate it, to someone who would live a real life with it.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. Taking care of my body is just so exhausting. A reason as to why I personally like the idea of death is because there will be no me meaning that I don't have to ever take care of my body or do anything ever again

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do enjoy food but I hate how needy our bodies are. Plus, if you reject those needs, or over indulge in them, how much you get punished for it. I really sympathise with you just feeling exhausted of living. I wake up tired, work to sustain a life I don't even want to live. Sleep and then, do it all again. That's dumb right? Surely, anyone could see that's a stupid thing to do.

 

[davidtorez]

I do enjoy food but I hate how needy our bodies are. Plus, if you reject those needs, or over indulge in them, how much you get punished for it. I really sympathise with you just feeling exhausted of living. I wake up tired, work to sustain a life I don't even want to live. Sleep and then, do it all again. That's dumb right? Surely, anyone could see that's a stupid thing to do.

That's me too. It's absolutely pointless and should not be called a life or living , it's called existing for the sake of existing, no more than farm animals really

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Since i am the incorrect sex, yes. Dont see why i'd take care of something i despise.

I do the bare minimum for it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I always see it as a burden to exist personally, it's such a futile, torturous burden that just causes me to suffer and I'm always so tired of it, simply being conscious is so painful to me, I'd never wish to experience anything no matter what but rather I just wish for nothingness. I wish to never suffer ever again, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed and it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know I never would have chosen any of this, human existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me.