Even when good things happen in my life, I still want to die.

[Defenestration]

And you?

 

[PanaxMan]

And you?

If a miracle happens to me, I'll take it. I really don't know how long it'll last though

 

[Defenestration]

If a miracle happens to me, I'll take it. I really don't know how long it'll last though

The good times will make me forget the pain of life for a few hours...but afterwards the desire for CTB returns very quickly

 

[PanaxMan]

The good times will make me forget the pain of life for a few hours...but afterwards the desire for CTB returns very quickly

Facts

 

[LonelyForest]

I feel you. Even after things go as I wish, I still want to die in the end. It's like there's a dark cloud of death over my head. I think I've reached a point in my life where even happiness doesn't bring me true joy. Death is the only thing on my mind.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i feel you there. even when I'm doing good, deep down i still feel like shit. my head is foggy, i can't focus, and all it takes is one small minute thing to send me tumbling back down

 

[hurts2b]

Good things don't really happen to me.

 

[Al1ce]

Yes, this sounds familiar... I can find some good things, but they hardly happen to me by themselves. But none of them are able to change me so much that I change my desires.

 

[Defenestration]

I feel you. Even after things go as I wish, I still want to die in the end. It's like there's a dark cloud of death over my head. I think I've reached a point in my life where even happiness doesn't bring me true joy. Death is the only thing on my mind.

Yes, an obsession...for the past two or three years, if you asked me my biggest dream, it would be to die in my sleep...that hasn't changed and it won't change...

 

[100elephants]

Yeah i feel this i had a pretty good week this week, saw a few friends and got out of the house more than usual. The whole time i was just like "this is nice but i still want to kill myself" . Not even sure what the point of like trying to better my life is because I'll probably still want to kill myself after any sort of goal or accomplishment

 

[Defenestration]

Ouais, je comprends. J'ai passé une plutôt bonne semaine, j'ai vu quelques amis et je suis sorti plus que d'habitude. Mais pendant tout ce temps, je me disais : « C'est bien, mais j'ai toujours envie de me suicider. » Je ne sais même pas à quoi bon essayer d'améliorer ma vie, parce que j'aurai probablement toujours envie de me suicider, quel que soit mon objectif ou ma réussite.

Exactly same

 

[Defenestration]

I know I'll eventually fall back into the problems of my life...and that even if I have to enjoy the present moment...I'll be overwhelmed by the harshness of life...