darkecology
New Member
- Oct 8, 2024
- 1
I've been in and out of a psych hospital all year due to multiple failed attempts.
After searching for ages, I managed to source SN and had plans to follow through when granted home leave. I stupidly brought the SN into hospital with me - they didn't search me at the time. A random room search was done a few days later and it was found and confiscated. I refused to tell them what it is.
I feel so hopeless and desperate at this point, and still plan to ctb on leave from the hospital by jumping/hanging. I feel so chaotic and worry I won't be successful if I do something impulsive and just injure myself. I need a solid plan. I just can't live in this painful cycle anymore. Any advice/opinions welcome.
After searching for ages, I managed to source SN and had plans to follow through when granted home leave. I stupidly brought the SN into hospital with me - they didn't search me at the time. A random room search was done a few days later and it was found and confiscated. I refused to tell them what it is.
I feel so hopeless and desperate at this point, and still plan to ctb on leave from the hospital by jumping/hanging. I feel so chaotic and worry I won't be successful if I do something impulsive and just injure myself. I need a solid plan. I just can't live in this painful cycle anymore. Any advice/opinions welcome.
