Eden2k-Update:Taken SN

[Eden2k]

Thank you so much for taking the time to update us Eden.

A question if I may. Do you think you'd of ctb if you weren't found despite the extreme vomiting?

I really do think I would have ctb if I wasn't found. The only reason I was found was probably due to trying to not fall over, which caused me to bang into stuff, causing shit to fall to the floor, disturbing others in the hotel room next door.

 

[Eden2k]

I really do think I would have ctb if I wasn't found. The only reason I was found was probably due to trying to not fall over, which caused me to bang into stuff, causing shit to fall to the floor, disturbing others in the hotel room next door.

Knowing my luck I'll probably be billed for damage caused.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I really do think I would have ctb if I wasn't found. The only reason I was found was probably due to trying to not fall over, which caused me to bang into stuff, causing shit to fall to the floor, disturbing others in the hotel room next door.

A stupid question, why didn't you do it at home?

 

[Eden2k]

A stupid question, why didn't you do it at home?

It doesn't feel like home and hotel I booked into holds some fond memories.

 

[Trashcan]

I really do think I would have ctb if I wasn't found. The only reason I was found was probably due to trying to not fall over, which caused me to bang into stuff, causing shit to fall to the floor, disturbing others in the hotel room next door.

Fuck I was going to ctb in a hotel, but now I'm having second thoughts. Anyway, thanks for keeping us updated. And that kitty in your profile picture is so stinking cute.

 

[Jodes]

In an ideal world, but don't see the point when there are others things that will do the job, easier to get hold off in a short space of time and don't cost the earth.

We don't want you suffering more

 

[Retched]

I'm glad you are ok for the time being. And I admire your resolve.

 

[AveryConure]

Last time I was involuntarily admitted, they tried to have me sectioned on a section 3, which is a stay against your will for a period of up to 6-months, after which time, it can be extended for another 6-months and so on.

Jesus! The longest I ever had to be in a hospital was like 2 weeks, and apparently if I didn't behave one time in one of them I could've been stuck in it for like a month, but I can't imagine being in one of those places for 6 months unless I absolutely had nowhere else to go.

But then again, this is in the US, where usually they just put you away for 3 days and then not give a fuck about what you do to yourself afterwards unless you're severely autistic or something.

 

[Wannadie]

Jesus! The longest I ever had to be in a hospital was like 2 weeks, and apparently if I didn't behave one time in one of them I could've been stuck in it for like a month, but I can't imagine being in one of those places for 6 months unless I absolutely had nowhere else to go.

But then again, this is in the US, where usually they just put you away for 3 days and then not give a fuck about what you do to yourself afterwards unless you're severely autistic or something.

I'm in The Netherlands and I've been inpatient for 22 months now eventhough originally it would have been two.. Avoid psych wards at all costs (and I'm not autistic haha)

 

[Crest33]

Why do people prefer hotel rooms? Chances of being found there are rather large. Personally I think the chances of ctb are larger in a forrest or some nature that isn't visited frequently. And if you vomit outside you don't make such of a mess.

 

[NoOneKnows]

wishing you speedy recovery and hope those abusive arrogant tyrants in psych ward will not keep you for much longer. Hugs

 

[Thoughtforms]

Why do people prefer hotel rooms? Chances of being found there are rather large. Personally I think the chances of ctb are larger in a forrest or some nature that isn't visited frequently. And if you vomit outside you don't make such of a mess.

For me, I live in a major city. We don't really have anywhere like that.
I was going to at home but I don't live alone. Hotel is my only viable option.

A part of me also worries if I change my mind last minute / something goes wrong and need medical help.

 

[Crest33]

For me, I live in a major city. We don't really have anywhere like that.
I was going to at home but I don't live alone. Hotel is my only viable option.

A part of me also worries if I change my mind last minute / something goes wrong and need medical help.

I'm not sure I want medical help in case of emergency. Dying after suffering is probably the option then. I want to hold myself to change my mind. But this personal preference.

And the city must be very large if there is no way to get out of it and search somewhere quit. But this is also personal preference.

 

[Thoughtforms]

Yes I live in central London. There's no where but lots of hotels. :)

 

[Trashcan]

Jesus! The longest I ever had to be in a hospital was like 2 weeks, and apparently if I didn't behave one time in one of them I could've been stuck in it for like a month, but I can't imagine being in one of those places for 6 months unless I absolutely had nowhere else to go.

But then again, this is in the US, where usually they just put you away for 3 days and then not give a fuck about what you do to yourself afterwards unless you're severely autistic or something.

I think it also depends on your age. When I was in the hospital as a minor, they were more than happy to keep me longer than necessary. I once went there at 18. They were keen to get us out after the 72 hour hold was up.

Why do people prefer hotel rooms? Chances of being found there are rather large. Personally I think the chances of ctb are larger in a forrest or some nature that isn't visited frequently. And if you vomit outside you don't make such of a mess.

Because isolated areas aren't an option for everyone. Good for you if you know one, but not everyone knows an isolated area they could go to.

 

[Moony21]

Yes I live in central London. There's no where but lots of hotels. :)

In january I am going to london :)

 

[Final Escape]

This has been my only opportunity to post. Got my phone back early today.
God I don't know where to start!
Took amount of SN recommendated (15g) didn't take anti-nausea meds because everything was rushed.
Ordered SN on Thursday from eBay. Didn't expect it to arrive so soon. The following day. Hadn't booked hotel as I was waiting to get paid the following week. Then I could book hotel as planned.
Went into my overdraft instead. Measured out how much SN I needed. Hid the rest.
Booked a room at a hotel not too far from me. Did this at reception. Went to my room, I was exhausted, but had a shower first, then lied down and fell asleep. Woke up late Friday evening. Dark outside.
Emptied SN into a glass of water. Gulped down glass of water with SN. Layed back down. I felt drowsy at first, but I felt this way prior to taking anything and hadn't slept since Wednesday.
Started feeling sick. Couldn't keep myself from vomiting. Thought this was normal though.
Passed out for a while. Woke up on my side with vomit all over myself and the bed.
Every time I tried to sit up, I felt like I was goung to pass out. I wasn't concerned at this point. Just annoyed that I hadn't died yet. Looked at myself in the bedside mirror. Fuck me!!! I knew something wasn't right. My complexion had changed colour and my lips also. Tried to get off the bed to get some water. That's when it went black. Next thing I know I'm being taken out of an ambulance and rushed into resus at a hospital.
Apparently hotel staff had let themselves into my room due to reports from another customer next door, who said that they heard things crashing to the floor in my room. When I was found I was on the floor. Out cold.
I kept gong in and out of consciousness. Put on oxygen and started on iv of sone sort. I told them in the ambulance about the SN, when I came round briefly. Don't remember this. It all still feels like a dream to be honest. I'm been on a heart monitor since I arrived at the hospital. The oxygen mask was annoying the hell out of me. Refused to speak to the mental health team when they came to see me this morning. The woman that came to speak to me had the nerve to say "why didn't you contact us before it came to this, we are here to help you." Told her to fuck right off. Too little to late morone. Told the doctor that it wasn't intentional. If I'm discharged tomorrow, I will be taking more SN. Go to hotel out of area.

Damn, I was wondering what happened. I figured you had succeeded. Glad you are ok, that's so crazy what happened. Sucks that it didn't work this time. I guess you will know what not to do next time to succeed.

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

If my bed was any closer to the nurses station, I'd be laying on their desk.

Sorry, I know it's not funny but this made me laugh as the times I've ended up in A&E I've been right next to the nurses station also. They seem to believe that a thin curtain somehow prevents people from hearing themselves being talked about.

 

[Kingkelly]

How are you now?

It doesn't feel like home and hotel I booked into holds some fond memories.

 

[Lara Francis]

How are you doing Eden.
I have been thinking of you x

 

[Fucking loving it]

Thinking of you ♡

 

[samsays89]

You're really brave for sharing your experiences about a relatively new method.

I'm actually really worried about you. If you try again and fail there may be no away to avoid involuntary commitment for a long amount of time. That can be very difficult for some people. Also if you do the exact same thing again without planning that's just more pain.

SN does require a little more planning than some people think. I really hope you'll be careful and I wish you the best. Sometimes a rash decision now makes any future decisions harder.

Again hoping for the best for you.

 

[Eden2k]

How are you now?

Euphoric

 

[OkTotti]

Euphoric

does this mean you're glad that you're alive? and didn't CTB

 

[Eden2k]

How are you doing Eden.
I have been thinking of you x

Hi Lara

I'm okay, whatever okay is. I didn't get sectioned (horray) admitted voluntarily. Kept my head down, as advised and was discharged yesterday. I think that was down to all the questions I was constantly asking the staff at the hospital such as, "why are you all always sat down on your back-sides in the office?" "Why do you never ask the patients if they are okay?" Why to some of you walk around with an air of superiority?" "What experience and qualifications do you have that allows you to do this job? which is doing nothing basically." "Have you ever thought of a career change?"
Also atbnight they would do the bed checks, which meant flashing a torch in your face. By the third hour, I had my torch on my phone waiting for them to pull back the curtain. See how they like a bright light shone in their faces. They didn't do that again.
I'm really am not a horrible, childish person, but they infuriate me that much, even a good girl can go bad lol

 

[Eden2k]

does this mean you're glad that you're alive? and didn't CTB

Slightly manic at the minute, which isn't the worst feeling in the world. As long as I don't act on impulse in the next few days. Have doc appointment on Monday, where I will ask for some anti-sickness meds. Shouldn't be a problem, as I suffer from severe nausea and vomiting from time to time. This is documented. And also get a prescription for anti-acid meds, which I have been prescribed before due to having acid reflux.

Ps- where there is a will there in a way.

 

[Eden2k]

You're really brave for sharing your experiences about a relatively new method.

I'm actually really worried about you. If you try again and fail there may be no away to avoid involuntary commitment for a long amount of time. That can be very difficult for some people. Also if you do the exact same thing again without planning that's just more pain.

SN does require a little more planning than some people think. I really hope you'll be careful and I wish you the best. Sometimes a rash decision now makes any future decisions harder.

Again hoping for the best for you.

Hi Sam

I acted on impulse. Didn't have all the stuff I needed. I will soon.

 

[TiredHorse]

Also atbnight they would do the bed checks, which meant flashing a torch in your face. By the third hour, I had my torch on my phone waiting for them to pull back the curtain. See how they like a bright light shone in their faces. They didn't do that again. I'm really am not a horrible, childish person, but they infuriate me that much, even a good girl can go bad lol

You may at times be an evil child, but you're a brilliant evil child. I don't think I would have had the presence of mind to flashblind them in return, but I wish I would have! Very well done.

More seriously, that's very good news that you weren't sectioned. I hope the manic-ness lasts long enough for you to get some rest and gather your strength.

 

[Eowyn]

I really wish I'd thought of blinding the nursing staff with my torch too! That is a pretty sure fire way of getting them to leave you alone. They are such jerks and will never understand.

Glad you are out and good luck with getting the rest of your supplies. And thank you for documenting your experience, for the rest of us it's definitely given me plenty to consider.x

 

[Lara Francis]

Hi Lara

I'm okay, whatever okay is. I didn't get sectioned (horray) admitted voluntarily. Kept my head down, as advised and was discharged yesterday. I think that was down to all the questions I was constantly asking the staff at the hospital such as, "why are you all always sat down on your back-sides in the office?" "Why do you never ask the patients if they are okay?" Why to some of you walk around with an air of superiority?" "What experience and qualifications do you have that allows you to do this job? which is doing nothing basically." "Have you ever thought of a career change?"
Also atbnight they would do the bed checks, which meant flashing a torch in your face. By the third hour, I had my torch on my phone waiting for them to pull back the curtain. See how they like a bright light shone in their faces. They didn't do that again.
I'm really am not a horrible, childish person, but they infuriate me that much, even a good girl can go bad lol

Your sense of humour and sarcastic comments remind me of myself.
I am so glad you were not sectioned.you seem to have the Meds you need in hand and yes where there is a will there is definitely a way.
Nice to hear from you and I hope your appointment on Monday goes well.
Just try to be calm and smile saying you feel much better.
Love to you x