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A Borderline is speaking. Listen and Learn.
Feb 10, 2026
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I thought I would finally be at least content with my life when I met her. We fell in love, and for weeks she made it seem like she really felt serious about our relationship.

Imagine waking up to your partner suddenly saying that she doesnt feel the same way after all, and that she just "wants to be friends" :)

I have BPD, and I get severely attached to someone. Unless I split its really hard for me to detach and let go. Right now Im very unstable but I haven't split on her, at least not yet. It hurts. Hope is a burden. It never gets better, it doesnt. I want to kms so bad right now, but it isnt easy to die, is it? I dont have a firearm, and I dont have any access to hard drugs to overdose on. All I can do is fuck up my thighs to somewhat help the feeling of wanting to die, but it wont be enough.

Im just so tired of living. Genuinely exhausted. Not being dramatic or anything. I'm genuinely just done. But there's nothing I can do but live right now, unless an opportunity presents itself to me to do otherwise.
 
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raybd

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Dec 4, 2019
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Dying isn't easy... sure... but killing is. Ask the orange blob in the big white building over there.
 
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