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summa_tyme2224
Summertime sadness
- Jun 4, 2024
- 5
I feel like I'm drowning in life. In every sense of the word. I take one step forward and ten steps back. I'm not depressed. So much has happened it's just too much. I feel trapped in my life by my chronic illness which has been caused by a line of narcissistic abuse.
I feel like I've turned into a narcissist. I hate the people who did this to me. The amount of rage I have towards them is not healthy.
One of them is my father who I cannot cut out of my life bc I'm too fucking sick to be financially independent.
I hate this shit. I hate with every fiber of my being every single person who has contributed to this.
I used to be a happy life loving person. Positive and the person who could help others. Now I can't even help myself.
I feel like I've lost my soul. I feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle everyday.
I try so god damn fucking hard to improve my life and just when things are improving something else happens.
I can't take it.
It's not fair.
I'm so tired of feeling like this.
I feel like I've turned into a narcissist. I hate the people who did this to me. The amount of rage I have towards them is not healthy.
One of them is my father who I cannot cut out of my life bc I'm too fucking sick to be financially independent.
I hate this shit. I hate with every fiber of my being every single person who has contributed to this.
I used to be a happy life loving person. Positive and the person who could help others. Now I can't even help myself.
I feel like I've lost my soul. I feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle everyday.
I try so god damn fucking hard to improve my life and just when things are improving something else happens.
I can't take it.
It's not fair.
I'm so tired of feeling like this.