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ChildOfLove

ChildOfLove

When your sky dims, I will be there. Waiting.
May 9, 2024
43
Today is my glorious, long awaited day. It is around 8am (GMT+2) right now. Just took my first dose of meto.

My protocol is quite simple as I sadly have no benzos:
- 12am: begin fasting
- 8am: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 11am: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 2pm: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 2:40pm: SN drink

I will try to update you guys as much as I can. Wish me good luck with the nausea.
Goodbye wonderful community. I am glad I have been a part of it.
Over and out.

–ChildOfLove / Aiko
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Member
May 10, 2025
43
good luck 🍀 and a smooth transition ❤️
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
106
I hope everything goes as planned, and if it doesn't, you'll always find solace in this community. Wishing you a peaceful exit.🫂
 
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hopeless302

hopeless302

Student
Sep 11, 2022
115
I'm sorry for all the pain you've been through.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,019
I wish you a peaceful journey.
 
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Bimbosqualo

Member
Mar 19, 2025
20
Ciao dolce guerriera. Vorrei dirti tante cose ma non sono capace a esprimermi a parole. Ti sono vicina❤️
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
350
Hope it's peaceful! Wishing the best for you <3
 
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overload

overload

nella tortura più disumana
Feb 16, 2025
18
ciao sono alsndr_sntn di tg. qualunque cosa accada, spero che la sofferenza finisca. ti sono vicino anch'io. non farò lo stesso errore che ho fatto con placo

buona fortuna❤️
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,701
I hope all goes well with you and you achieve rest and peace, if you change your mind we'll be here.
 
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justaperfectday

Member
Oct 26, 2023
12
Today is my glorious, long awaited day. It is around 8am (GMT+2) right now. Just took my first dose of meto.

My protocol is quite simple as I sadly have no benzos:
- 12am: begin fasting
- 8am: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 11am: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 2pm: 2 x 5g metoclopramide tablets (Maalox nausea)
- 2:40pm: SN drink

I will try to update you guys as much as I can. Wish me good luck with the nausea.
Goodbye wonderful community. I am glad I have been a part of it.
Over and out.

–ChildOfLove / Aiko
Sweet dreams.
 
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ChildOfLove

ChildOfLove

When your sky dims, I will be there. Waiting.
May 9, 2024
43
Second dose of meto taken just now
 
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FishRain3469

Student
Mar 12, 2025
130
Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. ♥
 
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catfriend

catfriend

meow!
Apr 3, 2025
157
best of luck. :)

how're you feeling?
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,569
Good luck! I hope you find peace!
 
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Defatigatis

Defatigatis

Sincerely exhausted
Aug 16, 2022
14
Sending you lots of love and i wish that the process won't be so uncomfortable, you deserve hapinness.


May you find the relief you seek, kind person <3
 
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3ngel

3ngel

princess
Nov 26, 2024
67
are you feeling calm or anxious? keep us updated tho ^_^
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
176
Qualunque cosa tu decida di fare, io sono qui. Ti auguro una transizione sicura e spero tu possa trovare pace. ❤️
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Warlock
Nov 25, 2024
790
I'm sorry for your pain and where you find yourself, since your recovery posts of not too long ago. I hope that you find peace within and wish you all the best, sending love whichever way your journey leads. How are you feeling after the meto?
 
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ChildOfLove

ChildOfLove

When your sky dims, I will be there. Waiting.
May 9, 2024
43
Update: I took a nap, I'm feeling really sleepy, not sure if it's cause I haven't eaten in a long time but other than that I don't even feel anxious

Thank you all for your kind wishes

Edit:
Guys it's a blob

IMG 20250515 134500
 
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overload

overload

nella tortura più disumana
Feb 16, 2025
18
sembra un cuscino.
hai preso l'ultimo meto?

have you taken your last meto?
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
310
All the best, hope your journey is peaceful and gentle
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,571
I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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SmilingNoMore

SmilingNoMore

Warlock
Nov 25, 2024
790
Whichever way you decide, love and peace to you, Aiko. We are here if you need us, you are not alone.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,267
Whatever happened, I hope you have found some peace in your heart now. We have all suffered, in our own ways, so much and a little peace and quiet would be such a wonderful thing to have.

If you are still with us, please do come back. Deciding not to go through with it, or having something go wrong and not give you the result you were wanting, is nothing to be ashamed of. We are ALWAYS here for you.🫂🫂🫂
 
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anonymous2025

anonymous2025

On my way out.
Apr 9, 2025
151
I hope you find peace, thank you for sharing your experience, will definitely help a lot of people.
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
1,991
nothing but peace nothing but love 💕
 
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kotonearisato

kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
81
Hope you're resting well now, OP.
 
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