Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
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Does anyone else just sit in bed and drink? or mix prescription pills with alcohol?

This is all that I do when I am feeling really really low. I also mix prescription drugs and take mini overdoses (not to CTB but to interact with the alcohol)
It just numbs the crap that goes on in my head and helps me escape from the pain and trauma of life.

I drank all weekend and have very little memory of what happened apart from films playing. One moment it was Friday afternoon and then suddenly it is Monday evening but I've spent it passed out in bed or drinking.

Drinking always makes me feel low afterwards so that's why I keep drinking and then hiding the bottles in my drawers or under my bed. It's just a never ending cycle. It feels like this is the only way of coping with not CTBing right now.
 
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BitterlyAlive

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Sometimes I mix alcohol, benadryl, and antidepressants. :/ It's a compulsion I guess.

I drank a lot a few days ago and that entire day/the day after are a huge blur. Better than having to deal with myself, ya know?

**shoot, looking back I guess i was feeling impulsively suicidal when I was actually aware of what was going on this weekend. My memory really sucks.
 
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Does anyone else just sit in bed and drink? or mix prescription pills with alcohol?

This is all that I do when I am feeling really really low. I also mix prescription drugs and take mini overdoses (not to CTB but to interact with the alcohol)
It just numbs the crap that goes on in my head and helps me escape from the pain and trauma of life.

I drank all weekend and have very little memory of what happened apart from films playing. One moment it was Friday afternoon and then suddenly it is Monday evening but I've spent it passed out in bed or drinking.

Drinking always makes me feel low afterwards so that's why I keep drinking and then hiding the bottles in my drawers or under my bed. It's just a never ending cycle. It feels like this is the only way of coping with not CTBing right now.
I feel you I drink every other day sometimes 2 days in a row even 3 but rarely so mostly every other day and I am also on benzos but when I drink I skip the benzo because the alcohol will calm my anxiety and also I am less likely to throw up. At this point I am pretty sure I am physically addicted although mildly but it´s hard to know benzos I also use benzos that also act on the GABA receptors in the brain so it´s hard to tell the difference in smaller withdrawals.

Also drinking only make my existence a a little more bareable and I think it´s a shame there isn´t more apathetic people who have seen the South Park episode Ass Burgers it´s so extremely accurate about how it is to be apathetic and they even include the drinking part where existence gets better.

Btw what pills do you mix with alcohol?
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
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I feel you I drink every other day sometimes 2 days in a row even 3 but rarely so mostly every other day and I am also on benzos but when I drink I skip the benzo because the alcohol will calm my anxiety and also I am less likely to throw up. At this point I am pretty sure I am physically addicted although mildly but it´s hard to know benzos I also use benzos that also act on the GABA receptors in the brain so it´s hard to tell the difference in smaller withdrawals.

Also drinking only make my existence a a little more bareable and I think it´s a shame there isn´t more apathetic people who have seen the South Park episode Ass Burgers it´s so extremely accurate about how it is to be apathetic and they even include the drinking part where existence gets better.

Btw what pills do you mix with alcohol?
I mix benzos and paracetamol, ibuprofen, codeine, and then my usual prescription tablets like allergy tablets that make you drowsy. I know these can fuck with your liver but I couldn't really care if I'm going to go anyway.
 
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Klee

Klee

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Apr 19, 2020
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I take a bottle of wine to bed at night, most nights.
 
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Deleted member 17331

The swan sang with a broken neck
Apr 21, 2020
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Yes, I like to do this to fall and sleep for a couple of days straight.
Sometimes, I mix several medications, but I try to do it less often, my kidneys are screwed...

Oh, I like to mix them with whiskey. Once I mixed it with lithium, the effect was good, but I woke up with terrible pain…
 
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Aonewayticketplease

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Jun 3, 2019
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Vodka is my bedmate.

As I type this there are 2 empty bottles on the bed. Fear not, you are normal.
 
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