Venting Dreams is the only time I can feel happy

[ImpairedLowlife]

Not only the sense of happiness, but any strong positive emotions exist only in dreams for me at this point. And waking up after experiencing such emotions again sucks.
I pretty much forgot how it feels to be truly happy, amazed, excited, enthusiastic while being awake.
Life is but an endless mediocrity, emptiness, disappointments and despair and there is no end to it.
I don't believe I will ever experience happiness ever again while being awake even if all my wishes come true. I'm just broken beyond repair.

 

[braintorture]

Same shit buddy. The only peace I get is when im asleep! That's why I'd like to sleep forever.

 

[Hime]

Interesting how this is the first post I see when I check SaSu today, I had really happy dreams about my childhood tonight and woke up depressed that it was over. It's always such a gut wrenching feeling waking up to reality, not being able to fall back asleep in an endless loop of happy dreams