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Quarky00

Quarky00

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Thanx for all your replies :hug:

It's such a massive support . Mostly the affirmation that "things are wrong" (lol) . It really gives me strength to think things through , act , speak out . I feel like I go and fight the system with 20 people behind me . Thank you , thank you , thank you :heart:

Penicillin incident -- went back and threw small change at the receptionist while filing complaints. That's how I pay. Told them: "you abused me for 30m , I'll abuse you for 2h" . She said "when you buy milk you have to pay before you leave store". Told her my health is not a product <--- That's how they view us :angry:

Still need to hack psychiatric hospitalization (everything delayed due to pain/stomach), need to plan, can't leave stuff at safe house and go (etc). Too tired but at least not in [physical] pain. Well, currently -- I'm sure something will crop up tomorrow (my luck;)

Did I say THANK YOU ? :hug:

This description puts me in mind of a medieval hanging cage.
That's how it feels. Only you are "free to go" of course ... Perfect metaphor for humanity 2020.

Maybe earplugs would help with the noise.
Plextor X5 + earplugs ;) In use ...
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Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

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Yes! U know we got ur back!!

They're lucky we don't know where u r, or they would b harassed by a bunch of sad, angry, hurt, traumatized, depressed, manic depressed, drugged, paranoia schizophrenic, bipolar, tripolar, suicidal, homicidal people!!:blarg::blarg::blarg:
 
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they would b harassed by a bunch of sad, angry, hurt, traumatized, depressed, manic depressed, drugged, paranoia schizophrenic, bipolar, tripolar, suicidal, homicidal people!!:blarg::blarg::blarg:
:pfff: The deranged are coming! "tripolar" lol

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Things are bad -_- :aw:
Manager said no changes in house soon , I'm bit shocked , really want to die , I don't mind the physical conditions but Russian TV and no space driving me crazy . There's no where to go . No where to sit quietly for an hour . I cannot take it anymore . The TV is killing me . I really want to do my SN . (I stop myself)
 
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You really do need somewhere to be alone for a while. It's too easy to take that for granted until you lose it. It'd drive me mad on top of everything else.
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:pfff: The deranged are coming! "tripolar" lol

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Things are bad -_- :aw:
Manager said no changes in house soon , I'm bit shocked , really want to die , I don't mind the physical conditions but Russian TV and no space driving me crazy . There's no where to go . No where to sit quietly for an hour . I cannot take it anymore . The TV is killing me . I really want to do my SN . (I stop myself)
Is there not a local park type place you can go to for some peace or does that mess up your shelter. I wish I could help. (((hugs))))
 
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Is there not a local park type place you can go to for some peace or does that mess up your shelter. I wish I could help. (((hugs))))
There is and I'd love to but raining and chilly .. Thank you :hug: (oh we're free to go)

You really do need somewhere to be alone for a while. It's too easy to take that for granted until you lose it.
Exactly .

Even children or college roommates (sharing bedroom) have an hour of peace here and there. My roommate is in bed all day , TV starts at 9am and until 3am. It's crazy .
 
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Yes! U know we got ur back!!

They're lucky we don't know where u r, or they would b harassed by a bunch of sad, angry, hurt, traumatized, depressed, manic depressed, drugged, paranoia schizophrenic, bipolar, tripolar, suicidal, homicidal people!!:blarg::blarg::blarg:
LOL what a site to behold. We'd never get organised though. The whole thing would become derailed within minutes. But imagine how they'd deal with such a mob. :hihi:
 
Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

Just waiting....
Jan 21, 2020
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LOL what a site to behold. We'd never get organised though. The whole thing would become derailed within minutes. But imagine how they'd deal with such a mob. :hihi:
Lmbo! Right! Can u imagine? They could never handle this bunch! :blarg: :pfff:
:pfff: The deranged are coming! "tripolar" lol

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Things are bad -_- :aw:
Manager said no changes in house soon , I'm bit shocked , really want to die , I don't mind the physical conditions but Russian TV and no space driving me crazy . There's no where to go . No where to sit quietly for an hour . I cannot take it anymore . The TV is killing me . I really want to do my SN . (I stop myself)
I can't understand y the manager won't tell him to turn the DAMM TV DOWN!! It's not like this is a FREE spot!! This is so RIDICULOUS!!

This is y I love NY!...that TV woulda caught a "STRAY" BULLET!!:devil::hmph::angry::ohh:
 
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nitrogen

nitrogen

Schrödinger's cat
Nov 5, 2019
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@Quarky00 Time to plot getting rid of the TV.

Here's a creative idea from me:
I recall seeing a type of sticker (now against traffic law to use) that people put on their car rear window glass to force the car behind to not use the high beam headlights. The more intense the light, the clearer the scary face appears. The ghost face is designed to be invisible when not exposed to strong light. Like this:
Screen Shot 2020 03 06 at 91743 AM

You can probably buy a sticker like this from eBay. Stick it on the TV screen. Whenever your roomie turns on the TV, he'll see a scary ghost face.

Here's the beautiful part: you might also be able to get rid of the roommate - he gets a direct transfer from the shelter to an asylum. One stone two birds.

I had an inconsiderate roommate in college. She had this routine of getting up super early and speak to her fish which woke me up all the time. I tried convincing her to zip her mouth in the morning but she didn't listen. I ended up sprinkling some salt in the fish tank and killed her fish. It worked. She never found out how her fish died.
@Lostandfound7 and @Lostnotfound . Your usernames kinda match. :pfff:
 
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Lostandfound7

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@Quarky00 Time to plot getting rid of the TV.

Here's a creative idea from me:
I recall seeing a type of sticker (now against traffic law to use) that people put on their car rear window glass to force the car behind to not use the high beam headlights. The more intense the light, the clearer the scary face appears. The ghost face is designed to be invisible when not exposed to strong light. Like this:
View attachment 29127

You can probably buy a sticker like this from eBay. Stick it on the TV screen. Whenever your roomie turns on the TV, he'll see a scary ghost face.

Here's the beautiful part: you might also be able to get rid of the roommate - he gets a direct transfer from the shelter to an asylum. One stone two birds.

I had an inconsiderate roommate in college. She had this routine of getting up super early and speak to her fish which woke me up all the time. I tried convincing her to zip her mouth in the morning but she didn't listen. I ended up sprinkling some salt in the fish tank and killed her fish. It worked. She never found out how her fish died.
@Lostandfound7 and @Lostnotfound . Your usernames kinda match. :pfff:
Salt or SN? :blarg:
@Quarky00
@Lostandfound7 and @Lostnotfound . Your usernames kinda match. :pfff:
I know! I even get confused at times. :haha:
 
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Whenever your roomie turns on the TV, he'll see a scary ghost face.
Here's the beautiful part: you might also be able to get rid of the roommate - he gets a direct transfer from the shelter to an asylum. One stone two birds.
:pfff:

Oh it's will turn out much darker . Roommate just came back from psychiatric hospitalization lol . With that ghost they will get a "direct transfer" to ground floor , on their own volition (and velocity) ..

I ended up sprinkling some salt
"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day ; kill the man -- problem solved"
I always go to the root cause lol
 
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"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day ; kill the man -- problem solved"

"Build someone a fire and they're warm for the night; set someone on fire and they're warm for the rest of their life!!"

N.B.: This is (dark) humor; don't try this at home; etc~ XD
 
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jgm63

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:pfff:

Oh it's will turn out much darker . Roommate just came back from psychiatric hospitalization lol . With that ghost they will get a "direct transfer" to ground floor , on their own volition (and velocity) ..


"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day ; kill the man -- problem solved"
I always go to the root cause lol
New plan....
1) Offer to become "house chef" for everyone....
2) Menu for the week :

Mon : <blah>
Tue : <blah>
Wed : <blah>
Thu : SN burgers ( just say you're not feeling hungry that day )
Fri : <blah>
Sat : <blah>
Sun : <blah>

You may notice one day stands out somewhat....
3) However, you are free from blame, since you published the menu, so they knew what they were getting....

Problem -> Solution
 
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nitrogen

nitrogen

Schrödinger's cat
Nov 5, 2019
339
Salt or SN? :blarg:
Just plain old boring table salt. I didn't know about SN back then. PS, why bother to use the luxury SN on a fish? It's not like I wanted to cure it and then eat it like fish jerky.

@Quarky00 Hey here's another idea from me:

Collect the cockroaches from the microwave. Insert them into the TV. Make sure you feed the roaches some water so they become better conductors to mess up the electric circuits in the TV. This trick might not work if they cannibalize each other first.

When the hell do I ever run out of creative juice, right? The juice might be a bit poisonous to some but tastes good nonetheless. :sunglasses:

New plan....
1) Offer to become "house chef" for everyone....
2) Menu for the week :

Mon : <blah>
Tue : <blah>
Wed : <blah>
Thu : SN burgers ( just say you're not feeling hungry that day )
Fri : <blah>
Sat : <blah>
Sun : <blah>

You may notice one day stands out somewhat....
3) However, you are free from blame, since you published the menu, so they knew what they were getting....

Problem -> Solution
Seeing you trying to pull off humor occasionally is like watching a turtle do a backflip stunt. :ahhha: :pfff:
 
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Just plain old boring table salt. I didn't know about SN back then. PS, why bother to use the luxury SN on a fish? It's not like I wanted to cure it and then eat it like fish jerky.

@Quarky00 Hey here's another idea from me:

Collect the cockroaches from the microwave. Insert them into the TV. Make sure you feed the roaches some water so they become better conductors to mess up the electric circuits in the TV. This trick might not work if they cannibalize each other first.

When the hell do I ever run out of creative juice, right? The juice might be a bit poisonous to some but tastes good nonetheless. :sunglasses:


Seeing you trying to pull off humor occasionally is like watching a turtle do a backflip stunt. :ahhha: :pfff:
Pull off humor ?
I barely know him well enough for sexual acts....
[ TSSSSSSSS ]

Thank you very much !!
I'll be here till Thursday (SN burger day).
Tip your waitress !!
 
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itsmeagain

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Jan 28, 2020
334
I'm doing bad , very bad . I'm sorry I did not ctb .

I'm stuck in a tiny room with old person , they barely leave bed I feel suffocated , they have COPD cough like crazy and scream in their sleep !!! Room so tiny I wake up straight to their face -- literally -- 30 inches from me ...

Russian TV loud 24/7 , my head explodes , I don't have wifi , my back and feet are killing me -- horrible bed , etc . Cant even sit here . Only sleep on bed . Its 7x9 ft for two people !!! I dont have an hour of quiet or privacy . I'm going insane . My physical abilities are deteriorating (everything pain) and I can barely do anything.

I want to cry for hours . That hasnt happened in months -- not even when I slept on the streets (only with trigeminal pain in January)

I'm constantly running from this "jail cell" outside to the streets , to get some air . But then too cold etc

I messaged manager some things not good for me , he thinks it's just fixing the bed and "put TV you want"... I don't want tv I want quiet and alone . I'd rather be hospitalized and sedated but that isn't happening as well .

I want to get my SN from my hiding place (far) and just do it there . Im not going to do it , as I'm not impulsive , but thinking about it a lot .

I'm really going insane here . FOR FUCKS SAKE ITS SUCH A FUCKING SMALL ROOM !!!!


I barely have internet . And i can barely type .
I cant write a tthibg on thus syupid nobile phonr !!!! FUCK !!!
DARLING NO!!!!!!!!!! I'm so sorry this is so impossible. You may want to think abotu taking your shirt/bra off and cupping it around your ears, tying it in a headband, try to maybe tell your friend he should put something in his mouth and breathe out of his nose?!??!? I'm so so sorry this is so horrid lovely!!!!!!!
 
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Lostandfound7

Just waiting....
Jan 21, 2020
996
Pull off humor ?
I barely know him well enough for sexual acts....
[ TSSSSSSSS ]

Thank you very much !!
I'll be here till Thursday (SN burger day).
Tip your waitress !!
:pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff: :pfff:
the roaches... juice, .cockroaches...The juice
@nitrogen , Those two words should never b in a paragraph together!!:mmm:
 
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Feb 11, 2020
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Terrible situation, Quarky00 :aw:

Life sucks too hard! Small room, bad hygiene (cockroaches), loud tv, rude people. I feel bad for you, man. :mmm:
 
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