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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,330
No, I'm too far gone to feel any sense of home or belonging.
 
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girlboything

girlboything

drugged up doll
Jun 1, 2023
56
it did until i saw that fucking thread where people kept saying 'shemale' and kink/polyam shaming and shit. i don't have a better place to go though. the thingsthat unites us is being suicidal and that means there are a lot of people i find morally repugnant for unrelated reasons.
 
Daxter_87

Daxter_87

If my name is crossed out, hopefully I'm dead.
May 28, 2023
400
I don't feel at home anywhere, not even here. Sure, it's much better than all other places, but, when it comes down to it, I'm on my own. It's always been that way and it will forever be. A hermit among hermits is what I am.

Like FuneralCry said, only nonexistence will redeem me from such painful hollowness.
 
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voc_89

voc_89

Experienced
Apr 10, 2023
237
yes. For the most part the environment has been judgement free. The individuals for the most part appear open, honest and interested. Its nice to be in a space where I don't have to have the mask on.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
May 10, 2023
424
No, I'm too far gone to feel any sense of home or belonging.
I'm sorry to hear that. Maybe it's not a hone for everybody, but it seems that a lot of people feel like they at leats belong....
yes. For the most part the environment has been judgement free. The individuals for the most part appear open, honest and interested. Its nice to be in a space where I don't have to have the mask on.
my thoughts precisely. Much, much less judgement and more understanding, than anywhere else online or irl
 
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socio

socio

flirting with death.
Jun 11, 2023
17
it's a safe place for me to rant my heart out without being judged and talked down on at the very least. ( ◡‿◡ *)
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
Yes and no. I must remind myself that there are people on this site for the wrong reasons and I must protect myself.
 
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HoleintheDark

HoleintheDark

Writhing with the worms
Jul 12, 2023
35
This is mostly just a place for me to be heard. I'm not really ever gonna feel like I belong here, I'm definitely not going to get the comfort and heartfelt conversations that I need… But someone out there is going to see my posts, and read out every little dumb thing I write down. That's all I really want from this place.
 
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Namensjemand

Namensjemand

Cursed
Jul 16, 2023
109
it did until i saw that fucking thread where people kept saying 'shemale' and kink/polyam shaming and shit. i don't have a better place to go though. the thingsthat unites us is being suicidal and that means there are a lot of people i find morally repugnant for unrelated reasons.
I vow to never use the evil word again.
I don't know... not home... but it was the last place I knew to go to where I felt I could be honest. And my issues in the past had also a lot to do with not being my authentic self... and I wanted to be that, for once. But also I am just killing time because I keep postponing facing my life and corresponding responsebilities. As I always have done. Am just now fully aware of it
 
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girlboything

girlboything

drugged up doll
Jun 1, 2023
56
I vow to never use the evil word again.
I don't know... not home... but it was the last place I knew to go to where I felt I could be honest. And my issues in the past had also a lot to do with not being my authentic self... and I wanted to be that, for once. But also I am just killing time because I keep postponing facing my life and corresponding responsebilities. As I always have done. Am just now fully aware of it
why did you quote me lol
 
Namensjemand

Namensjemand

Cursed
Jul 16, 2023
109
why did you quote me lol
Well you, kinda, quoted me first. There was a discussion of porn and its role on the psyche and it was me who started to speak of sh***** porn. I just wanted to reassure you that I won't do that again. 🤷‍♂️
 
girlboything

girlboything

drugged up doll
Jun 1, 2023
56
Well you, kinda, quoted me first. There was a discussion of porn and its role on the psyche and it was me who started to speak of sh***** porn. I just wanted to reassure you that I won't do that again. 🤷‍♂️
oh sorry i didn't realize i had quoted you specifically. i appreciate you not using that word though, i expected people to get mad at me
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,357
I thought about this question again and sometimes being in certain places and looking at specific threads can be bad although there's a lot of good people here

so far I have only had 3 bad experiences/observations but I do not want to scare people from using this forum

it is a good place but sometimes it could use a miniscule amount of work
 
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WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

Hold your head high, and your middle finger higher
Dec 25, 2020
1,124
For the most part, yes. It is certainly refreshing not to have to wear a mask and put up an act so as not to step on anybody's toes. At the very least, here I can be comfortable with letting others know more than the proverbial tip of the iceberg.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
376
That's a hard question for me to answer. I guess I could say, sometimes it feels like home, especially talking with the friends I've made. I can easily relate to how people feel about CTB, and why they feel the way they do. They and I have that in common. THAT feels like home. But, my true home isn't encapsulated in the gloom and doom in which so many people here seem to be imprisoned, and, what's more, are dead-set (no pun intended) in maintaining, no matter what. It's as though some people wear their despair as a badge of honor, unwilling to leave that place for more rewarding feelings.
And, I understand that, too.
 
Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,761
I would say a refuge instead of a home. I don't feel like an alien because there are people in situations maybe not the same but similar.
 

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