Does anyone here ever wish to be a ordinary person with a good life?

[throwaway123]

I do to be honest.
Just imagine. You a 19 year old football player at a good high school somewhere. You have a nice girlfriend and a bunch of friends you could call brothers. Your family is just...rich and the typical wealthy suburban family. You go to university, study, etc...then get a wife,kids buy a house. Just like society wants you to. Everythings fine, no its almost perfect.

I wish I had that life. Unfourtnately I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time. I just had bad luck and that sucks. It really does. I can't believe it. My life was already destined to end this way the day I was born. When I think back it all makes sense now. The older you become the more you realize you never really had much control if any.

This world is not fair and it never will be. I see death as salvation. I will never have that "ordinary" life. Does anyone else see it that way? Like a inevitability. Feeling like you are living on borrowed time.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I wish I could drive again and keep a job. That's all I want and I really feel like it would make a world of difference. Fuck epilepsy.

 

[not_a_robot]

I used to, as tragic teenager. Not anymore. I'm actually glad I lived long enough and experienced enough to understand that there is no such thing as "ordinary", and "good" is relative.
Wouldn't trade places for an "ordinary" person for all the money in the world.

 

[deltahead]

"ordinary" people are great at unconsciously practicing cruelty. casually predatory, casually hateful, tribal, and lustful, but blissfully ignorant of it most of the time. everyone participates in this terrifying dissociated rampage. it's like there's nowhere else to go. you either do this or you die.

 

[pleasethistime]

sometimes.

 

[Final Escape]

Of course I would want that, unfortunately I was treated badly in childhood and it interfered with my normal development especially moral development. If u are not treated morally in childhood, u tend to go off the rails starting as a teenager.

 

[malummo]

this mindset and that life ... formula for happiness..

 

[daikon]

Most definitely.

 

[not_a_robot]

"ordinary" people are great at unconsciously practicing cruelty. casually predatory, casually hateful, tribal, and lustful, but blissfully ignorant of it most of the time. everyone participates in this terrifying dissociated rampage. it's like there's nowhere else to go. you either do this or you die.

Exactly. They are like animals functioning on instinct, with no thought. They want what they are told to want, because they are told to want it. They act how they are told to act, be who they are told to be. They want whatever looks like "status" to them, but they are mindless, they only want it because it's what others have. I have no pity and no use for people like that. If someone wants to ctb because they lack "ordinary" status symbols I say, "Be my guest.".

 

[262653]

I used to wish. Now I'm glad to be suicidal. (Or, dare I say, blessed to be!) Glad I'm not willing to fight other prisoners to impress The Crowd. Ever wondered how cockfighting was invented? We had the nature herself as the best teacher. Idolized her.

"ordinary" people are great at unconsciously practicing cruelty. casually predatory, casually hateful, tribal, and lustful, but blissfully ignorant of it most of the time. everyone participates in this terrifying dissociated rampage. it's like there's nowhere else to go. you either do this or you die.

You precisely described the first eight years of my sentence here.

 

[bacardirum]

A lot of people think they have bad luck, though most of the time 95% of others in the world would replace what they have with you, I mean real poverty. Just by posting a question on the internet shows how lucky you are compared to some, I am sure you are not starving just now either and have access to clean drinking water. The secret I think is trying to do the best for yourself, of course if raised in the correct family this can be a easier task, but not always the case for those people either...

 

[oxymoron]

Sure. I'd trade everything I have for that. But I can't. Cos life. They say that if you hate something a lot, it doesn't stay with you. Looks like it doesn't work that way with this fucking life of mine.

 

[MG_39]

I had that nice ordinary life. But it's worth nothing now because of my illness. I would trade my illness for a life in poverty and homeless. I have money, a car, apartment but it's worth nothing because I can't enjoy life. Of course we all have our reasons why we cant enjoy life.

 

[Nihil]

100% yes to having the opportunity to grow up as a biological female and to actually be able to live my life as one. At the same token though, I prefer to be natural, not normal. Normal is so legit boring. I don't know actually if I'd want to be a stereotypical woman into "normal" stereotypical things that society projects. I still like certain masculine things, like cars, guns, and other odd things. I still want to be me as I am now minus depression and past traumas with all the same interests, but as a biologically-born female.

 

[AnnaJaspers]

A lot of people think they have bad luck, though most of the time 95% of others in the world would replace what they have with you, I mean real poverty. Just by posting a question on the internet shows how lucky you are compared to some, I am sure you are not starving just now either and have access to clean drinking water. The secret I think is trying to do the best for yourself, of course if raised in the correct family this can be a easier task, but not always the case for those people either...

Your ignorance is astounding.

 

[Painted Bird]

I don't, never. I prefer to be a lone wolf than a mindless sheep in a herd. Choosing that "ordinary, good life" would be like making yourself blind in order not to see the truth. Like it was mentioned before, it's those ordinary people with their good life who make many others' life unbearable with their cruelty and stupidity.

 

[inconsequential]

No. I'd end up being a soulless cunt who is vile to someone exactly like I am NOW.

I'd rather be broken than inherently evil.

 

[ReverendGreen]

I think I am an ordinary person with a good life, I just have a tendency to waste every opportunity I have.

That said, I do dream of a better life constantly.

 

[mathieu]

Yeah, I feel the same way. Most of my family have successful, happy lives like you describe and I feel very out of place.

 

[netrezven]

Me sometimes, living without braincells, not questioning at all.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Honestly? No. I just wish I was never born.

 

[not_a_robot]

Honestly? No. I just wish I was never born.

The Game Of Life: Where even the prizes for winning are stupid and shitty.

 

[eve2004]

I think the OP means an actual life (ie not just being a breathing body) and being non-suicidal. With that alone you can somewhat build on it or at least survive.

Before I became widowed I was happy, social, highly motivated and driven. It went downhill from there...

 

[iiii5555]

What being "ordinary" and having a "good" life is even suppose to mean? All the domesticated human populations live in horrid conditions, be it mentally or physically. The modern world is pure pathology. I wish i could've being born as a non-civilized animal.

 

[StillWaiting]

Maybe if I was born as someone who have an ordinary life , I wouldnt have end up becoming like this.

 

[azucaramargo]

Of course I would want that, unfortunately I was treated badly in childhood and it interfered with my normal development especially moral development. If u are not treated morally in childhood, u tend to go off the rails starting as a teenager.

FinalEscape, as always I think what you have achieved despite the abuse you suffered is noteworthy. You have worked tirelessly to develop yourself, and you are one of the people I admire most in this world.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'd dread to be "normal" but I have to admit, such a life would be 100x better than mine.

 

[Numbtopain97]

definitely

 

[Tom9999]

I long to have been an ordinary person with a good life: loving spouse, happy family, enjoyable career, good friends, social hobbies, money and adventure. That's the major reason I gave it my all during recovery.

Now I am mentally like a person of 23 who was raised in a healthy and loving environment by nurturing and successful parents, and who just finished college.

But not circumstancially or socially.

I'm not 23. I'm in my mid-50's. And not only flat broke from a failed business, but my resilience has been exhausted from multiple sequential defeats.

So all that is not going to happen.

 

[White_Room293]

I do to be honest.
Just imagine. You a 19 year old football player at a good high school somewhere. You have a nice girlfriend and a bunch of friends you could call brothers. Your family is just...rich and the typical wealthy suburban family. You go to university, study, etc...then get a wife,kids buy a house. Just like society wants you to. Everythings fine, no its almost perfect.

I wish I had that life. Unfourtnately I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time. I just had bad luck and that sucks. It really does. I can't believe it. My life was already destined to end this way the day I was born. When I think back it all makes sense now. The older you become the more you realize you never really had much control if any.

This world is not fair and it never will be. I see death as salvation. I will never have that "ordinary" life. Does anyone else see it that way? Like a inevitability. Feeling like you are living on borrowed time.

No, I'm unique and my experiences have shapen me