wish suicide less scary

[Leiot]

When I started going to the VA in '87 it wasn't real good. But it's gotten better. That being said.. it's still real easy to fall in the cracks. I had a psychologist who taught me how to get things done at the VA and I am eternally grateful for his help.

Did you all talk to a patient rep? They can sometimes cut through bullshit. Also, the veterans groups, like VFW, DAV, etc; they can sometimes get you to the right people.

IM me if any of you want. I may be able to point you to someone will listen to you.

 

[grungy自殺]

Personally i only wish suicide was easier and less painful

The concept itself isn't scary

But just rather how you handle it and the outcomes that comes from failing to do it

But if there's one thing for certain that would make me feel hesitant on doing it

It's the fear of unknown in death

 

[sevennn]

Personally i only wish suicide was easier and less painful

The concept itself isn't scary

But just rather how you handle it and the outcomes that comes from failing to do it

But if there's one thing for certain that would make me feel hesitant on doing it

It's the fear of unknown in death

if it was certain and painless. that would be great

 

[Fate]

I've heard of shallow water blackout but I don't know if it'll work or not. I'm also too scared to try and attempt it in the first place

If you don't mind me asking, why can't you access SN or drugs?

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

What's scary about it - is it the unknown or the pain, or both? Sometimes we reach a point where we don't care about the pain, because we are suffering so much. There is no method that isn't painful, but I understand where you're coming from

 

[ijustwishtodie]

If you don't mind me asking, why can't you access SN or drugs?

Because I live with extremely strict and overprotective parents that keep track of my every move. I don't have much autonomy around them and I'll never be independent due to my autism meaning that I'll never be able to access SN

 

[sevennn]

Because I live with extremely strict and overprotective parents that keep track of my every move. I don't have much autonomy around them and I'll never be independent due to my autism meaning that I'll never be able to access SN

sorry about your parents. what method are you going with then?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

sorry about your parents. what method are you going with then?

I don't know anymore. I feel like perhaps there isn't a method that I can do. Just thinking and acknowledging this hurts me so much

 

[sevennn]

I don't know anymore. I feel like perhaps there isn't a method that I can do. Just thinking and acknowledging this hurts me so much

i wish i was independent. then it would all be easier already

 

[WildAtHeart]

I'm not scared of it but I wish I didn't have anyone in my life to leave behind if I did

 

[sevennn]

I'm not scared of it but I wish I didn't have anyone in my life to leave behind if I did

same if i was all alone in my apartment. i would've done it alrrady

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

same if i was all alone in my apartment. i would've done it alrrady

It's so scary.

IT HAS TO BE A FK it moment for successful suicides. I has to occur within 15 seconds, I'm thinking.

 

[sevennn]

It's so scary.

IT HAS TO BE A FK it moment for successful suicides. I has to occur within 15 seconds, I'm thinking.

you mean like impulsive suicides?

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

you mean like impulsive suicides?

Yeah.

 

[sevennn]

Yeah.

kind of true. it just feel wrong to plan it and not just go when you feel like it. wish i lived alone cus then i'd be gone already. ten times over

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

kind of true. it just feel wrong to plan it and not just go when you feel like it. wish i lived alone cus then i'd be gone already. ten times over

Oh don't worry. We're all going to go to the great beyond with the fuck it moment.

 

[sevennn]

Oh don't worry. We're all going to go to the great beyond with the fuck it moment.

i wish i could just go drown myself. technically if you are unhinged enough you can drown/hang/jump. just need to be in the right state of mind

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

i wish i could just go drown myself. technically if you are unhinged enough you can drown/hang/jump. just need to be in the right state of mind

We're fucked until we say fuck it.

 

[Panimu]

Yea, people are basically made by their minds. Even though we're social creatures, we're all kind of alone in our own way. You become whoever you believe you are, and you do what you really want deep down. But the problem is the circumstances like, one person is born into a rich, loving family, and another into poverty and abuse. I don't blame or judge people who don't care about others suffering because they're living in a different reality. The real problem in society is the imbalance, and it just keeps getting worse.

 

[sevennn]

We're fucked until we say fuck it.

true. just have to bite the bullet

 

[ViniTerrible]

:,((( used to be ok 10 years then flight with cold, ETD then i think ibuprofen when on period (4 pills in two days. 400 mg) now reactive tinnitus. louder, new hissing noise, fullness sensation. still clicking ears and think TMj now. because all chewing yawning crying - sound. maybe muscles/skeleton problem. original noise induced from concert. now hard to concentrate on some sound. fear deaf in minor way? don't know. i take muscle relaxant. some vitamin. mom got me massage. no more help. nothing at all :,( my fault. favourite sounds reactive now. prisoner at home now. but recently flushing toilet and washing hands and shower not hurt anymore. so maybe better? lost weight can't think. can't type. brain fried!! twitched and panic attacks. hopeless. sorry to put history on you. just doctors never hear me. why no cure yet? why nobody care? it's such a big problem. why nobody advocated or cares? why nothing. doesn't doctors know it's killing patient? burden on life. why no awareness. why never told concert = tinnitus. why never told headphone = tinnitus. why every medication bad for ears. cant take pain relief. antidepressant. anti anxiety. nothing. all ear poison. now small world. can't leave house. why doctors no empathy or help or research or advocate. nothing. why gaslight with therapy. got at 15 googled online internet said no cure. cried. now 25 terminal tinnitus. not fair. other young people live life. i'm crippled with small problem. nobody care about. tinnitus groups most depressing place. because everyone bitter angry hurting. lives destroyed. some homeless. not fair nobody care for us like we are discarded worthless
im sorry for long reply. don't have to read.

I'm also young and I think I have tinnitus. It happened because I vacuumed my house straight for several days last month. now everytime I hear a loud noises, my ear make a whistling noises. I'm also a heavy earphone user, maybe it contribute to my ear problem. still didn't go checkup because no money. I'm also scared when I searched it has no cure and living in 3rd world hell really not making it better. what helped me a lot is I avoided tinnitus forum especially reddit because it's so negative. wished there's worldwide tinnitus awareness and they teach about it in school.

 

[sevennn]

I'm also young and I think I have tinnitus. It happened because I vacuumed my house straight for several days last month. now everytime I hear a loud noises, my ear make a whistling noises. I'm also a heavy earphone user, maybe it contribute to my ear problem. still didn't go checkup because no money. I'm also scared when I searched it has no cure and living in 3rd world hell really not making it better. what helped me a lot is I avoided tinnitus forum especially reddit because it's so negative. wished there's worldwide tinnitus awareness and they teach about it in school.

yeah. it really should be cured already it's such a problem. hugs

 

[bitofftoomuch]

I think it helps to remember that everyone dies. suicide isn't choosing to die; it's choosing *when* to die. it is not as if the choices are this or immortality.

 

[sevennn]

I think it helps to remember that everyone dies. suicide isn't choosing to die; it's choosing *when* to die. it is not as if the choices are this or immortality.

im not afraid of being dead. just dying

 

[ijustwishtodie]

im not afraid of being dead. just dying

Same. I wish I could be dead without having to go through the dying process as it's just so brutal

 

[sevennn]

Same. I wish I could be dead without having to go through the dying process as it's just so brutal

i wish i could press a button. go to sleep and never wake up

 

[ijustwishtodie]

i wish i could press a button. go to sleep and never wake up

Same!! That sounds so ideal to me