Does anyone feel this way?

[Rushon]

I am 59 years old and have been battling prostate cancer for 2 years. I thought I had it beaten but this past summer I was told it had returned and I had to go through hormone and radiation treatment. I missed a lot of work thus my paychecks were small. I was living with my ex girlfriend at the time with our 5 large dogs. In the end she just could not handle the situation and kicked me out. So in one moment I lost my home, my gf, my dogs, and a way of life I loved. People leaving a relationship because someone has cancer is very common today but that does not say a lot about our society.

I had to move in with my mother for awhile and I am really surprised that I did not ctb at that time. I felt extremely lonely, hopeless, worthless, and constantly dreamed of getting out of this world. Life had no meaning for me at all and I wished I had not gone through the cancer treatment.

So I got my act together enough to get a job and a small apartment. But now I work all the time and sit alone in a small, lonely apartment. Most of my friends work all the time also.

My question is: Is there nothing more to our life other than working? Even when I was with my gf I only saw her for about 2 hours in the evenings during the week. I feel very lonely again and that makes me very unhappy.

 

[MysticPerception]

I definitely feel like work takes up too much time and robs people of their freedom and ability to spend time with others. If there's more to life than working then it's only for people who are lucky enough to not have to work as often. I know I'm luck to not have to work three jobs like two people I know. But I still feel like working is just something that's going to cause me to hate life no matter how long I live.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

What are your interests? Don't be afraid to put anything out there, even if there's no chance you'll ever do it. Could be anything. Could be, "I like looking at my toenails."

You don't have to answer, of course. :)

 

[Onomotopoeia]

yes, I feel this way also.

I'm 37 and almost completely isolated. I exist just so i can work so that I can afford to exist.

Even if i wasnt so isolated, theres not a lot of time left over after work/sleep and just regular efforts to maintain your life. Shopping for food, cooking, etc...

I'm just going to work until I die, so hopefully ill speed up that clock because i'm bored and that's a good enough reason for me

 

[Rushon]

Yes working just to exist is a lonely life. At least when I was with my gf I did have human interaction and touch, which I miss greatly.

I went through the dating sites about 10 years ago and the thought of doing that again makes me sick to my stomach.