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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
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This isn't my imagination but at 45 I know deep down not a single person will give a fuck. When I'm gone not one.

Interestingly enough it doesn't bother me at all.
 
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mikidagreen

dismal enjoyer
Apr 14, 2026
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somewhat, i know my wife will be devastated but past her i have no one family wise left and my friends will move on with their own lives. it doesnt bother me though i feel like if i want to die this bad and do it they should understand to an extent
 
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SDB

Student
Jul 21, 2025
160
somewhat, i know my wife will be devastated but past her i have no one family wise left and my friends will move on with their own lives. it doesnt bother me though i feel like if i want to die this bad and do it they should understand to an extent

Well at least you have one person I actually have literally no one. I talk about suicide constantly they shrug it off. Or they think it's for attention or some bother excuse. But it's real.

They'll be shocked ( family)on whom I'm leaving money to. I'm sure they think I'll kill myself and that will help their finances. I wish id be around to see the shock on their faces. They won't get a thing.
 
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telekon

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Feb 5, 2025
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This isn't my imagination but at 45 I know deep down not a single person will give a fuck. When I'm gone not one.

Interestingly enough it doesn't bother me at all.
Nor should it... We all stand alone in death. Relationships are entirely illusionary; the only thing that matters is how you take care of your own soul. You can have a million friends and family members but if you're a dick, you're gonna have to live with yourself... and that would be hell
 
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SDB

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Jul 21, 2025
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Nor should it... We all stand alone in death. Relationships are entirely illusionary; the only thing that matters is how you take care of your own soul. You can have a million friends and family members but if you're a dick, you're gonna have to live with yourself... and that would be hell

I guess, you know when I didn't get into dental school my dad cut me out of his life about85% or so. Class and profession mean more than anything to him. He won't even be friends with anyone not in the medical. All he talks about in every conversation is how wonderful he is being a dentist. At 45 he still won't stop insulting me for not getting into Dentistry. He's 81 only wants to compare incomes with me.

He literally insults me in every conversation we have it's unreal. He has to have a personality disorder
 

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