does anyone else feel selfish / like a bad person / guilty

[wildflower27]

I feel like I should have the strength to pretend to be ok for decades longer and die naturally so I don't hurt my family
I know I'm a burden alive but I'll be a burden gone too
I really don't want my mum to be devastated I try to tell myself if she knew what I was going through she'd rather I didn't suffer but at the end of the day I think I'm just selfish

 

[nicotine_goblin]

I feel the same way too. Existence is like a trap to me, can't live but also can't die because I'm afraid of what's going to happen to my parents. Sometimes I feel guilty for even considering ctb. But should I just suffer and live for other people to be happy?

 

[FailureToAll]

I feel similar to this I feel selfish that I will hurt my family and they dont deserve that, they have given me so much yet all i give them is pain and problems and sometimes I worry about who will look after my family when they are old, I have other family members that probably would but I still worry