Venting Does anyone else feel like dying mainly because they don't want to try anymore?

[FTL.Wanderer]

Anyone else sick of constantly struggling? Constantly trying? Do you also feel often that you come out of the womb onto a treadmill, and you keep jogging and jogging and jogging no matter how exhausted you are 'til you finally die and roll off the treadmill?

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[Marawa]

yep

 

[Psilo]

Oh yeah!

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Yes. Every single day.

 

[limelight]

Yes. We live to pay bills and then we die. I don't have the motivation to do that.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Yes. We live to pay bills and then we die. I don't have the motivation to do that.

Amen, brutha.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Welcome to the Machine

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Yes, although I find it more like a rollercoaster. Will someone please let me off this fucking ride? I'm not having fun, and it's making me nauseous.

 

[Jodes]

It's like everyone's on a steep hill and we're just at different points. This idea that some people are lazy or selfish dissolves when you realise everyone's fucking suffering

 

[uiop]

That's me everyday. I'm not trying to live: I'm trying to survive, and it's taking a toll on me.

 

[NumbItAll]

Yeah, it's all so pointless.

 

[F_ckthisplace]

I won't make it even if I keep trying

 

[Deleted member 1496]

Yup. I'm living off retirement savings right now. People think I'm lazy because I don't get a job. What they don't understand--and what I'm not allowed to say--is, "Why would I try so hard to get a job when I can't even find a reason to exist."

 

[maraexhausted]

Yep. It's so difficult, every single day is a war with pain. I'm exhausted to fight, exhaust to try and exhausted to believe that someday i will be really happy.

 

[Lara Francis]

I always connect depresson with being on a esculator that keeps going up and down but never stops at the top ot bottom to let you off!

 

[dandan]

I could ' ve avoided this death trap... but I lost my money... now i feel doomed to an 8 to 6 for the rest of my life.... I wont take it... no

I refuse ....

 

[Final Escape]

It's like everyone's on a steep hill and we're just at different points. This idea that some people are lazy or selfish dissolves when you realise everyone's fucking suffering

Good description :)

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

People think I'm lazy because I don't get a job. What they don't understand--and what I'm not allowed to say--is, "Why would I try so hard to get a job when I can't even find a reason to exist."

Perfect. Comment of the millennium.

 

[Thin Chew]

I'm just sick of facing my family. They suck. My friends and my life and my school. It's all unperfect for me

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I could ' ve avoided this death trap... but I lost my money... now i feel doomed to an 8 to 6 for the rest of my life.... I wont take it... no

I refuse ....

EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."

 

[Final Escape]

EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."

I totally understand :(

 

[dandan]

EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."

damm... sure it sucks for some of us...

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.

 

[dandan]

I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.

I'm so sorry Kira, how old are you?

 

[Final Escape]

I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.

Awe, just want to give u a hug. U are not that.

 

[TAW122]

Yes, I feel like this is the generic life of the majority of people in the world, being conceived without any say, indoctrinated through the educational system, then the majority of one's life slaving through work just to exist and pay bills, and when one retires, lives the rest of one's life (often in poor health or deteriorating health) until the grave. Such a shitty existence with few sparse times of joy that simply isn't worth it. For me, I'd rather die young than to slave through decades of work, retire, and die in poor health.

 

[lululoo]

I also don't want to try anymore. I wouldn't say it's the reason I want to die, but it kinda means that I have to die. If I'm going to live, I have to put forth a lot of effort to manage my chronic illness, overcome depression, find a partner since there's no way for me to be happy alone, find a job I can stand, find a way to get over my bitterness toward my family for abusing me and failing me... basically so much effort and I am tired of trying. I tried my whole life with little success.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

If I'm going to live, I have to put forth a lot of effort to manage my chronic illness, overcome depression, find a partner since there's no way for me to be happy alone, find a job I can stand, find a way to get over my bitterness toward my family for abusing me and failing me... basically so much effort and I am tired of trying. I tried my whole life with little success.

Exactly.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I'm so sorry Kira, how old are you?

35

Awe, just want to give u a hug. U are not that.

Thank you dear, I feel a little bit better today. Yesterday was horrible.

 

[suicidal_joe]

Yes!!! There's so much work you have to put in being alive, to fit in, to be less of a disappointment to your mom, etc... It's all just so tiring! I'm done! I don't wanna try anymore!!! I just want to rest.