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Venting Does anyone else feel like dying mainly because they don't want to try anymore?

FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,780
Anyone else sick of constantly struggling? Constantly trying? Do you also feel often that you come out of the womb onto a treadmill, and you keep jogging and jogging and jogging no matter how exhausted you are 'til you finally die and roll off the treadmill?


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Marawa

HereButNot
Dec 30, 2018
249
yep
 
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Psilo

Arcanist
Dec 29, 2018
482
Oh yeah!
 
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EmotionlessWanderer

EmotionlessWanderer

Specialist
Jan 19, 2019
352
Yes. Every single day.
 
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limelight

limelight

I'm probably high while writing this crap.
Mar 15, 2019
75
Yes. We live to pay bills and then we die. I don't have the motivation to do that.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,780
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
Welcome to the Machine
 
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ShadowOfTheDay

ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
Yes, although I find it more like a rollercoaster. Will someone please let me off this fucking ride? I'm not having fun, and it's making me nauseous.
 
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Jodes

Jodes

Enlightened
Nov 23, 2018
1,261
It's like everyone's on a steep hill and we're just at different points. This idea that some people are lazy or selfish dissolves when you realise everyone's fucking suffering
 
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uiop

uiop

Fun drugs make me happy
Mar 27, 2019
218
That's me everyday. I'm not trying to live: I'm trying to survive, and it's taking a toll on me.
 
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NumbItAll

NumbItAll

expendable
May 20, 2018
1,122
Yeah, it's all so pointless.

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F_ckthisplace

Member
Feb 26, 2019
54
I won't make it even if I keep trying
 
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Deleted member 1496

Student
Aug 2, 2018
183
Yup. I'm living off retirement savings right now. People think I'm lazy because I don't get a job. What they don't understand--and what I'm not allowed to say--is, "Why would I try so hard to get a job when I can't even find a reason to exist."
 
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maraexhausted

maraexhausted

Member
Apr 1, 2019
12
Yep. It's so difficult, every single day is a war with pain. I'm exhausted to fight, exhaust to try and exhausted to believe that someday i will be really happy.
 
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Lara Francis

Lara Francis

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,627
I always connect depresson with being on a esculator that keeps going up and down but never stops at the top ot bottom to let you off!
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I could ' ve avoided this death trap... but I lost my money... now i feel doomed to an 8 to 6 for the rest of my life.... I wont take it... no

I refuse ....
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Jodes said:
It's like everyone's on a steep hill and we're just at different points. This idea that some people are lazy or selfish dissolves when you realise everyone's fucking suffering
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Good description :)
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,780
TiredOfCoping said:
People think I'm lazy because I don't get a job. What they don't understand--and what I'm not allowed to say--is, "Why would I try so hard to get a job when I can't even find a reason to exist."
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Perfect. Comment of the millennium.
 
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Thin Chew

Thin Chew

世界以痛吻我 要我报之以歌
Mar 3, 2019
254
I'm just sick of facing my family. They suck. My friends and my life and my school. It's all unperfect for me
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,780
dandan said:
I could ' ve avoided this death trap... but I lost my money... now i feel doomed to an 8 to 6 for the rest of my life.... I wont take it... no

I refuse ....
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EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
FTL.Wanderer said:
EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."
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I totally understand :(
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
FTL.Wanderer said:
EXACTLY!!!! I feel EXACTLY the same way. I slaved and did everything right. The government sat back AS a criminal was stealing my entire life's savings. Then the same government demanded I pay a HUGE tax bill on the same money they said wasn't enough to warrant them getting involved to prevent the theft. So why the fck should I start all over? What the fck for? Like @TiredOfCoping said above, "Why would I try so hard ... when I can't even find a reason to exist."
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damm... sure it sucks for some of us...
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,082
I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
KiraLittleOwl said:
I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.
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I'm so sorry Kira, how old are you?
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
KiraLittleOwl said:
I am so weak that I can't even try.
I failed literally at everything.
I feel like that pathetic disfigured little creature character that is begging for death.
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Awe, just want to give u a hug. U are not that.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,398
Yes, I feel like this is the generic life of the majority of people in the world, being conceived without any say, indoctrinated through the educational system, then the majority of one's life slaving through work just to exist and pay bills, and when one retires, lives the rest of one's life (often in poor health or deteriorating health) until the grave. Such a shitty existence with few sparse times of joy that simply isn't worth it. For me, I'd rather die young than to slave through decades of work, retire, and die in poor health.
 
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lululoo

lululoo

Mage
Dec 15, 2018
558
I also don't want to try anymore. I wouldn't say it's the reason I want to die, but it kinda means that I have to die. If I'm going to live, I have to put forth a lot of effort to manage my chronic illness, overcome depression, find a partner since there's no way for me to be happy alone, find a job I can stand, find a way to get over my bitterness toward my family for abusing me and failing me... basically so much effort and I am tired of trying. I tried my whole life with little success.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,780
lululoo said:
If I'm going to live, I have to put forth a lot of effort to manage my chronic illness, overcome depression, find a partner since there's no way for me to be happy alone, find a job I can stand, find a way to get over my bitterness toward my family for abusing me and failing me... basically so much effort and I am tired of trying. I tried my whole life with little success.
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Exactly.
 
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suicidal_joe

suicidal_joe

Really Tired™, Worthy Piece of Trash™
Apr 5, 2019
15
Yes!!! There's so much work you have to put in being alive, to fit in, to be less of a disappointment to your mom, etc... It's all just so tiring! I'm done! I don't wanna try anymore!!! I just want to rest.
 
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