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sadidiot0328

sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
108
I bought a plushie yesterday and although I'll be happy once it gets here, I probably will start feeling like shit again once the excitement wears off. But its better than nothing I guess. Can anyone here relate?
 
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Little_Suzy

Little_Suzy

Amphibious
May 1, 2023
939
Of course, we do! lol We buy a lot of cool things at the hardware store, like machetes, ladders, rope, antifreeze, rifles, boulders, and more.
 
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pyx

Wizard
Jun 5, 2024
617
books that i never read. they are stacked in mounds around my room.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,226
Yea, gonna order some color-changing light bulbs and a drinking class that has different colored lights also.
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Yes I order off Amazon so I can wait for it to arrive. My son did the same thing …
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
552
Yes, I did it continually, it was part of my way of dealing with the illness or rather part of my illness. I managed to control myself a long time ago and I no longer do it, it didn't cost me as much as I thought. I guess it was because I already knew when I would die and I knew I wouldn't fully enjoy it.
 
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oneirataxia

oneirataxia

Arcanist
Apr 22, 2024
485
I collect stuffed animals myself. It's a lot less for the thrill of having a package on the way, and more because I do think they make me a little happier in the long-term. There is a conversation to be had about overconsumption in our day and age, and how harmful it can be. But at the same time, to me it's really satisfying to slowly piece together my "own little world" of nostalgia and memories. Decorating my room and having my own little safe place where I can express myself is probably one of the only joys I have in life. I can't change the world, but at least I can change my own tiny piece of it.
 
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Yarani

Yarani

lost
Mar 29, 2024
257
I bought a plushie yesterday and although I'll be happy once it gets here, I probably will start feeling like shit again once the excitement wears off. But its better than nothing I guess. Can anyone here relate?
What plushie is it? :hug:

Recently got a huge fox for holding while I sleep. Incredibly soft, and cute.
It has been a coping mechanism I struggle with since like forever. I suspect trying to compensate for lack of feeling loved. Terrible when you don't really have the money for it but do it anyway.
🦊 :heart: 🤷‍♀️
I collect stuffed animals myself. It's a lot less for the thrill of having a package on the way, and more because I do think they make me a little happier in the long-term. There is a conversation to be had about overconsumption in our day and age, and how harmful it can be. But at the same time, to me it's really satisfying to slowly piece together my "own little world" of nostalgia and memories. Decorating my room and having my own little safe place where I can express myself is probably one of the only joys I have in life. I can't change the world, but at least I can change my own tiny piece of it.
Totally relate. My own world. When you see it, you'd think a 12yo girl is living here ... 🤦‍♀️
 
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sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
108
What plushie is it? :hug:

Recently got a huge fox for holding while I sleep. Incredibly soft, and cute.
It has been a coping mechanism I struggle with since like forever. I suspect trying to compensate for lack of feeling loved. Terrible when you don't really have the money for it but do it anyway.
🦊 :heart: 🤷‍♀️

Totally relate. My own world. When you see it, you'd think a 12yo girl is living here ... 🤦‍♀️
I bought a strawberry cow pillow that comes with a mystery plushie. Most of the stuff I buy is a plushie or something cutesy of some kind lol
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
Yes. Dying my hair was how I managed it for a while. Always made me feel like I had something to live for.
 
Yarani

Yarani

lost
Mar 29, 2024
257
I bought a strawberry cow pillow that comes with a mystery plushie. Most of the stuff I buy is a plushie or something cutesy of some kind lol
I had to google that lol. First hit was sweet scented strawberry cow pillows :O mind was blown!
They all look cute!
Mystery plushie, you gotta tell us what it is when it arrives haha. I need to know :shy:

Yes. Dying my hair was how I managed it for a while. Always made me feel like I had something to live for.
What colors?

Yes I order off Amazon so I can wait for it to arrive. My son did the same thing …
If you feel like telling us, what did your son order? And what did you get?
 
feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
I had to google that lol. First hit was sweet scented strawberry cow pillows :O mind was blown!
They all look cute!
Mystery plushie, you gotta tell us what it is when it arrives haha. I need to know :shy:


What colors?


If you feel like telling us, what did your son order? And what did you get?
Yeah … my son in his spare time refurbished computer keyboards. So he would order them from people all over the world … a day after he passed one arrived from Egypt. He would order old keyboards from collectors along with anything he needed to work on them, tools, wires, electronics, motherboards, stuff like that. He also ordered stuffed animals like Super Mario characters… I also found a furry head in his apartment after he passed … which was news to me. He would refurbish the keyboard and then sell it online … I think he was active in some kind of keyboard community. He and I would do this together… I was the "helper" and I helped pack and mail the keyboards. It was yet another thing that we bonded over.

I like to buy puzzles and things for my guitar online along with toys and treats for my pups. I like my son track the packages and wait for them to arrive.
 
Yarani

Yarani

lost
Mar 29, 2024
257
Yeah … my son in his spare time refurbished computer keyboards. So he would order them from people all over the world … a day after he passed one arrived from Egypt. He would order old keyboards from collectors along with anything he needed to work on them, tools, wires, electronics, motherboards, stuff like that. He also ordered stuffed animals like Super Mario characters… I also found a furry head in his apartment after he passed … which was news to me. He would refurbish the keyboard and then sell it online … I think he was active in some kind of keyboard community. He and I would do this together… I was the "helper" and I helped pack and mail the keyboards. It was yet another thing that we bonded over.

I like to buy puzzles and things for my guitar online along with toys and treats for my pups. I like my son track the packages and wait for them to arrive.
Thank you for sharing that 🫂
I had no idea refurbishing keyboards was a thing. Glad to hear he had something he liked to be active in. I would think he possibly made the recipients quite happy with such special keyboards?

Got some beautiful puzzles lying around aswell, what motifs do you like? I mean like, is it animals, landscapes or ... not sure I got the correct word there.
 
Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
452
Ah my sister does that with plushies. I do that with ordering books and video games and food :ahhha:
 
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Afflicted

Afflicted

I'm a priest from the underworld, Guess who?
Feb 27, 2023
18
I 100% indulge in the shop therapy. Collect dummy amounts of Books, Blu rays and video games. Buy guns I'll never shoot just to look at them. Go out to eat at ridiculously over priced restaurants in an attempt to feel something. It always does give me the fizz a little bit but it wears off quick and you're back to where you were in no time.
 
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turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

🎣
Nov 13, 2023
204
I generally impulse-buy stuff, mainly plushies and food. my moth plush (which is my main source of comfort) was impulse-brought. I've brought stuff while age-regressing because it made me feel less empty.

I think spending my money on a whim for stupid silly stuff generally makes me feel better and calmer. I recently went out at night to impulse-buy tons of candy after an argument w/ my mother and it helped me cool down. I find digital shopping therapeutic despite me literally dropping money on it as an impulse, it feels pretty calming 🎣
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Thank you for sharing that 🫂
I had no idea refurbishing keyboards was a thing. Glad to hear he had something he liked to be active in. I would think he possibly made the recipients quite happy with such special keyboards?

Got some beautiful puzzles lying around aswell, what motifs do you like? I mean like, is it animals, landscapes or ... not sure I got the correct word there.
No problem thanks for asking. Yeah he was really into the keyboard community … I wish I knew how they communicated so I could tell them he passed away. I know some people were waiting for him to buy/sell stuff and they are probably thinking he blew them off.

I like 1000 piece puzzles … a type called Buffalo games (that's the kind of piece that fits together nicely) and puzzles by Amie Strewart. I like beach scenes, cars, I just did one of the eclipse.
 
dynastickitten

dynastickitten

Member
Jan 12, 2024
56
I just bought a bird. A feral pigeon.
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
I bought a plushie yesterday and although I'll be happy once it gets here, I probably will start feeling like shit again once the excitement wears off. But its better than nothing I guess. Can anyone here relate?
Sometimes once it arrives I don't even want it anymore. 🙈
I generally impulse-buy stuff, mainly plushies and food. my moth plush (which is my main source of comfort) was impulse-brought. I've brought stuff while age-regressing because it made me feel less empty.

I think spending my money on a whim for stupid silly stuff generally makes me feel better and calmer. I recently went out at night to impulse-buy tons of candy after an argument w/ my mother and it helped me cool down. I find digital shopping therapeutic despite me literally dropping money on it as an impulse, it feels pretty calming 🎣
I get that :wink:
 
thealteredmind

thealteredmind

Experienced
Apr 2, 2024
230
mmmhm nop. I'm not working so I'm using my savings and I have calculated how much I can spend each month before I become broke. so basically I have like... 1 year. I will cbt much earlier though. I still somewhat spend a lot on the "not careful" side... but still keep an eye and try not to blow it.
 
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Yarani

Yarani

lost
Mar 29, 2024
257
No problem thanks for asking. Yeah he was really into the keyboard community … I wish I knew how they communicated so I could tell them he passed away. I know some people were waiting for him to buy/sell stuff and they are probably thinking he blew them off.

I like 1000 piece puzzles … a type called Buffalo games (that's the kind of piece that fits together nicely) and puzzles by Amie Strewart. I like beach scenes, cars, I just did one of the eclipse.
Those look really colorful, a rainblow explosion. I love colorful stuff. Liked the butterfly ball one. And winter reading nook, because 🐈
I imagine the eclipse one to be a challenge.
Saw this and thought it looks epic though
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Expensive food and random shit from Etsy
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
i do this :) sometimes i just need a dopamine rush. and it distracts me from my thoughts a little bit, which is better than nothing
 
aitouka

aitouka

calm
Apr 5, 2023
83
You're not alone… I have loads of books unread and tons of makeup unused. Not like I don't read books or I don't do makeup, it's just I'm too unmotivated to do anything.
 
Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
744
Mostly food. I have a fridge full of meals yet I purchased a frozen steak and fries meal to cook later tonight. I have steak at home, but I wanted a particular kind of steak.

That, and a lot of enamel pins. I ran out of room to pin them and have like 10 in a bag.

It makes me happy to buy things, though I'm partially cautious to not become addicted. I don't need 50 steaks, but I guess 6 is alright.
 
Sarros

Sarros

Student
Sep 2, 2021
115
I do it mostly with things that won't arrive for some time, like pre-ordering a case of the new set of a card game I play. Gives me something to look forward to.
 
sadidiot0328

sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
108
I had to google that lol. First hit was sweet scented strawberry cow pillows :O mind was blown!
They all look cute!
Mystery plushie, you gotta tell us what it is when it arrives haha. I need to know :shy:


What colors?


If you feel like telling us, what did your son order? And what did you get?
Sorry for the late reply; I'll post a photo once they get here :)
 
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