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iblamethemfr

iblamethemfr

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May 5, 2026
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Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
 
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behindtheveil

behindtheveil

Member
Oct 12, 2025
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Ditto!!
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,085
If for whatever reason I pass in my sleep, great. But I'm almost positive gun fire will end my life.
 
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iblamethemfr

iblamethemfr

Member
May 5, 2026
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If for whatever reason I pass in my sleep, great. But I'm almost positive gun fire will end my life.
I'm going for a SN, cause i'm not planning on shooting myself i feel like i might survive and that gonna suck
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
674
I'm honestly kind of conflicted on this. đź’€
 
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Bishop

Bishop

People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
504
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
Many of us feel this I think. We don't want to continue on with pain and suffering.
 
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tannhausers

tannhausers

Голодный.
Apr 23, 2026
31
I think everyone wants to die peacefully in their sleep

With a sole exception of masochists, of course
 
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outrider567

Illuminated
Apr 5, 2022
3,016
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
None of us will ever be that lucky--I envy actor Walter Matthau's death
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,085
I'm going for a SN, cause i'm not planning on shooting myself i feel like i might survive and that gonna suck
I'm not so sure someone else won't be the one shooting me. I'm 100% equipped to do it myself, but I'm finding myself on everyone's bad side lately. Fuck 'em all.
 
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SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
Bro, I just want my happy meal flag.

 
sanctionedusage

sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
648
peaceful deaths creep me out for some reason. i got anxious the first time i watched that MAID video of that one applicant's experiences. she got all dressed up, laid in bed, took a drink, ate chocolate to wash out the taste, claimed to get sleepy and just passed right there, surrounded by family. gives me the heebie jeebies. i don't think it was SN, but idk. i also heard a case of a girl who went to sleep, heart heart suddenly stopped, and she just never woke up. suicide or not, it unsettles me. i guess it just seems too similar to a living process like sleeping or taking a nap that it registers in my brain as treacherous rather than peaceful.
 
iblamethemfr

iblamethemfr

Member
May 5, 2026
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None of us will ever be that lucky--I envy actor Walter Matthau's death
there was a girl we knew before and she was almost the same age as me, she died while she was asleep and i feel guilty for feeling envious but yeah i 100% believe that suicidal people won't have such a peaceful gifted end
Many of us feel this I think. We don't want to continue on with pain and suffering.
Yeah for sure
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,902
I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
 
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iblamethemfr

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May 5, 2026
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peaceful deaths creep me out for some reason. i got anxious the first time i watched that MAID video of that one applicant's experiences. she got all dressed up, laid in bed, took a drink, ate chocolate to wash out the taste, claimed to get sleepy and just passed right there, surrounded by family. gives me the heebie jeebies. i don't think it was SN, but idk. i also heard a case of a girl who went to sleep, heart heart suddenly stopped, and she just never woke up. suicide or not, it unsettles me. i guess it just seems too similar to a living process like sleeping or taking a nap that it registers in my brain as treacherous rather than peaceful.
you got a point there, if it could be announced before it happens
I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
I understand you. non-existence feels less frightening than continuing to endure a reality built around suffering, its a curse
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
679
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
When I'm sleeping or when I'm chilling. After all it's probably what vsed does to me I hope
 
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volo

Experienced
Apr 22, 2026
234
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
Yes, definitely. I wonder though, is cardiac arrest actually peaceful?
 
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BradGuy123

Specialist
Jul 6, 2025
389
I think about this sometimes. People who die in their sleep are lucky. I don't have hard data on this but anecdotally most of my relatives have suffered from some kind of disease before they pass. Only one relative died in their sleep. I would rather die in my sleep peacefully but it seems like only a small percentage of people get this luxury.
 
sla_porra22

sla_porra22

I HATE MOSQUITOES
Nov 5, 2024
97
Honestly? If I could choose to kill myself in any way I wanted, that would be my choice. My dream is to have a very violent death, like being blown up or shot. But since any option available to me is awful, I think I'd choose to take it lightly while sleeping
 
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Ben111

Member
Apr 29, 2026
28
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I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, it's all I want, in this existence so dreadful and torturous that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

It truly is an abomination to suffer in this existence and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of this terrible, painful existence, to me existence will always be a mistake that just causes endless amounts of torture and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd only be relieved to never exist ever again. It's just so terrible how this existence was even imposed at all, only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me permanent relief from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.
Exactly
 
iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
115
every day i dread waking up and wished i died in my sleep. i want my body to be intact when im dead so i don't upset my family if i died a gruesome death. dying is already bad enough. but i doubt i will ever get a peaceful ending at this rate.
 
yui_suicisawa

yui_suicisawa

Member
Jun 11, 2026
10
i used to find sleep as comforting, it was a form of escapism. that was until my mental illness started following me into my dreams. after restless nights defined by anxiety attacks and visions of calamity, i think that the last thing i'd want is to die in my sleep. i want to meet a violent and quick end. one that really has an exclamation point.
 
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iamnotadinosaur:(

lost
Aug 19, 2025
68
Most of the time I would love to die in my sleep, but sometimes I hate myself too much to think I deserve a painless death. Also the randomness of dying in my sleep would prevent me from saying goodbye to the handful of people I actually like, which is sad
i used to find sleep as comforting, it was a form of escapism. that was until my mental illness started following me into my dreams. after restless nights defined by anxiety attacks and visions of calamity, i think that the last thing i'd want is to die in my sleep. i want to meet a violent and quick end. one that really has an exclamation point.
That's actually a good point, and I get the hellish sleep too and it SUCKS
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,375
I think everyone wants to die peacefully in their sleep

With a sole exception of masochists, of course
How true, therefore I don't want to die in my sleep at all. Fore that reason I have to kill myself soon in order to be sure that I die in the way I want it.
 
yuri77

yuri77

Misanthrope
Mar 21, 2026
56
there can't be any peaceful ending for someone like me so I am going to do it myself.
 
hmnow

hmnow

Specialist
Jul 29, 2025
323
Me personally i wish i could just pass away peacefully in my sleep, like those who die from cardiac arrest, why can't it be me? It's always the ones who don't wanna die die but the ones who really want it they just gonna suffer while living
My preference would be to do it in front of witnesses who record my hanging and then used as an educational video on how to do it right
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
462
There have been so many times that I have thought I would not wake up in the morning and would have died in my sleep. Always terrified. I still, however, would much rather have that happen more than anything than having to do this to myself.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
236
I'd hope for it to be in my sleep.

I do have sleep apnea, so its possible. I won't hold my breath though.

(Bad pun. I'll work on that)
 
_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,151
definitely peaceful during sleep, preferably at a time of my choice
 
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