Spit On My Grave
Spit On My Grave
- Apr 7, 2026
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I am not completely sure if S is a sin.
Hell is worse than earth and no one wants to be in that place.
Hell is worse than earth and no one wants to be in that place.
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Jesus Christ brings light to those in darknessI am not religious.
Does seeking forgiveness, imply you are doing something wrong? Do you think you are doing something wrong?
And what about forgiving yourself? (For CTB or anything else)
I wish He brought me light too because I'm in true darknessJesus Christ brings light to those in darkness
Well he evidently didn't consider suicide to be a serious enough problem to say anything about it. What he did say was the Sermon on the Mount, and the man who said that has nothing in common with the ignorant, brutal people who condemn suicide in his name.I am not completely sure if S is a sin.
Hell is worse than earth and no one wants to be in that place.
Why are you no longer Christian? Can you open up a little bit ?I am no longer a Christian, but I was raised that way birth - 14/15 so this is my interpretation with that in mind:
I do genuinely believe that suicide is not a sin (obviously outside of like crimes being involved or similar cases)
I've read the Bible cover to cover growing up. Unfortunately I cannot find my childhood Bible despite my searching for it everywhere solely for this post. I'd rather be able to quote it directly using a physical Bible as that's what I am more accustomed to, but I will be using a Bible website instead. I believe the translations are a bit more simplified than what I grew up on, but the main points are still the same. Also sorry in advance if any verses are quoted slightly off chapter-wise or if my terminology is wrong, it has been years since I've interacted with content like this. With all of that in mind, these are the verses that come to mind in defense of my POV and your post:
1 Kings 19:4
"Elijah was afraid and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there, while he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. "I have had enough, Lord," he said. "Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors."
Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.
All at once an angel touched him and said, "Get up and eat." He looked around, and there by his head was some bread baked over hot coals, and a jar of water. He ate and drank and then lay down again.
The angel of the Lord came back a second time and touched him and said, "Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you." So he got up and ate and drank. Strengthened by that food, he traveled forty days and forty nights until he reached Horeb, the mountain of God. There he went into a cave and spent the night."
In this verse, Elijah gives up but is not punished at all. In fact, he is even rewarded with food despite explicitly expressing the desire to die. No where in this passage do I get the impression that being suicidal is sinful. Sometimes life's challenges are too much and the Lord recognizes this, not scolds or punishes us for it.
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Despite no longer feeling religious, this verse specifically still sticks with me. I grew up with the ideology that we were shaped in God's image but there are just so many ways that I think man just is not and cannot be like God. When we ask questions like the one in your post, we are assuming that God would be judgmental of our struggles at all. I see absolutely nothing that is in defense of that. God is more humble and understanding than those we may come across in life. Coming to the Lord, whether by ctb or natural causes, is described as a peaceful rest regardless. This verse specifically starts off about a struggle as the reason of death (weary and burdened) but isn't seen in a negative light at all.
I'm sure there are more passages/scriptures/verses (not sure the word?) about the subject of ctb in the Bible, but this is all that comes to mind given that it's been a decade or so. It's my understanding that struggling is not seen as shameful. It happens to many people throughout the Bible and each time it seems that the Lord is understanding - no threats or mentions of hell for bringing up suicide to Him. This isn't meant to say that it's encouraging it at all. We are given our own free will. We are allowed to make our own choices regarding life and while neither I nor the Bible encourage the act of suicide directly it certainly doesn't lead me to believe that feeling this way is burdensome on the Lord or condemned in any way. It is not your fault that something was too hard. There are just some struggles in life that many would rather die from than continue on in. Whatever we choose in life, we are not a burden either way. There is a lot more forgiveness to be given than we think.
I am Christian. When you ask if Jesus would forgive you are you referring to ctb?I want an answer from a preacher or Christian
no one can answer that for youI am not completely sure if S is a sin.
Hell is worse than earth and no one wants to be in that place.
Christianity is very "all-or-nothing" and many of my views on life as I've gotten older have become too abstract to still be considered Christian views. I agree with the ideals of many different religions, and some ideals that belong to no religion at all. For example just in Christianity I still believe in much of the Bible and our spirituality, but I've strayed away from the Church and some of it's core driving points. A lot of what was taught growing up was about sin and Hell. So many sermons were just about this. I don't know if I believe in Hell anymore. Nothing happened I just changed my mind one day around 15. I see that whoever our creator is, I believe is way more forgiving than an eternal punishment for a handful of earthly mistakes. Mistakes that are impossible to avoid, btw, because we are quite literally destined to sin. That's why I don't worry about it too much. Can't really fear God like I am supposed to knowing this. But I also can't believe in a God that would abandon His people to suffer like this. Unless He just doesn't know we're suffering this way, idk, I mean we really don't know how time and space truly work in-between life and death but I could go back and forth forever lol.Why are you no longer Christian? Can you open up a little bit ?
"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn't do it, it is sin for them."
"Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test?"
Hebrews 10:36Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
do you truly believe YOU doing S would be following the will of God for you and your life?For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
ultimately thats what will make it a sin, and here is what the bible says about DELIBERATE sins:"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn't do it, it is sin for them."
"For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a fearful expectation of judgment..."
what is remaning in Gods love to you? how does the idea that you stick around to lay down your life until you can save someone elses life doing so sound?9 "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other.
This is a beautiful, charitable take on the question. I really admire your diligence and thoroughness as well as your kind heart. The Lord is fair in His judgment and infinite in His love and surely your cherished son experienced such firsthand. My heart is with you!I am Christian. When you ask if Jesus would forgive you are you referring to ctb?
If so, then yes I believe you would be forgiven. I believe we would all be forgiven. Unfortunately I'm more concerned about the people I'd leave behind and would be miserable.
Regardless of what anyone else has ever told me, I don't believe the desire for death or the act of suicide is normal, and that we who even consider it are mentally ill in some way. That is understood by God completely. It wouldn't do to analyze every possible way we are ill, but perhaps just enough regarding yourself will help you be reassured. Jesus loves you very much and He understands us more than we do ourselves. He's walked the Earth and suffered as man has suffered.
My faith sort of comes and goes depending on a couple of factors, like my time of month and who I might negatively interact with on the subject.
My son died by suicide August of last year and I went on a quest to discover if he was accepted into heaven. I didn't just want a few people I loved to tell me "yes", despite loving and believing them. The consensus, even by Catholic priests and evangelical ministers, is that the act itself won't keep us from heaven or our Lord's everlasting love and forgiveness...... The part I had issue with was whether or not my son would be accepted into heaven was because he was agnostic or atheist (depending on the day). He was baptized a Catholic at birth and they believe more that works as opposed to faith determines our way to Glory. Christian's are a different breed though and I've since researched the gospels quite diligently on my own. It brought me comfort as did my firm belief (like Catholics) that God is all loving, all powerful and knows the purity of our hearts. After reading John chapters 14 and 16 (especially 16), it occurred to me that choosing Jesus in the Spirit in death is just as meaningful as it does during life. I believe my son's Spirit sought out the Holy Spirit and knelt in front of him, repented with full remorse for his Earthly sins and requested being part of his flock after life. There's no other way for me to go about it and not lose my mind or take my own life in an attempt to reassure my beliefs.
That's the age old question regarding the role of mental illness in suicide. I read this entire thread and I love those who have chosen to preach of God's mercy for our friends and loved ones who couldn't save themselves. But this is the statement that truly made me want to leave a comment.Peace be with you.
For what it's worth I teach Sunday school. I am a Catholic so the answer will be from that perspective.
Suicide is a grave sin. Yes indeed. We cannot deny that. It is a direct violation of the commandment thou shalt not kill as any type of murder (or harm, by extension) is impermissible under the doctrine; this includes to the self.
There exists two types of sin, though: mortal and venial. Venial sins wound our relationship with God, but mortal sins sever it. You are not in the state of grace when you commit a mortal sin. But to get there, mortal sin has three requirements. Mortal sin = grave matter + full knowledge + deliberate consent; in other words, it must be serious, and it must be done fully willingly and knowingly. That's where the question comes in. Obviously suicide is grave, and it is done mostly with full knowledge (unless, like, accidental), but the question of consent comes into play when there's mental illness or extrem circumstance; how deliberate can it be, some ask, when you feel so down and out? It's not my call to make. God is good and merciful and the proper judge. So I won't say more. I'm only a follower of the faith.
That said, the only "unforgivable" sin is named as blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. And that said, God always forgives, provided we are genuinely sorry and resolved to amend the wrong(s) done and within our souls and hearts. As I said, He is the only one who can ever make a fair judgment, and He knows all – including fairness to the degree we cannot ever imagine. I know He will weigh every factor when we go before Him. He is good and merciful and you are always, no matter what, His beloved creation and child, made in His image.
Do I think you'd be forgiven? Yes.
Do I know? No. I am not God. But it is not for me to know anyway.
You can read more some of what I recommend below. (Of course, the ultimate source is the Catechism, as well as the Bible (duh) and any papal documents)
Sin:
Suicide:
- https://www.catholic.com/magazine/online-edition/mortal-and-venial-sin
- https://www.catholic.com/magazine/online-edition/how-do-i-know-if-its-a-mortal-sin
I also recommend to watch Ascension Presents/Father Mike Schmitz – he gives great answers and is such a bright, lovely, charitable, scholarly soul. He is a priest who truly lives out his mission and I can see he takes great care and consideration about this topic.
- https://www.catholic.com/qa/what-happens-to-people-who-commit-suicide
- https://www.catholic.com/qa/i-have-...-that-anyone-who-commits-suicide-goes-to-hell
- https://www.catholic.com/magazine/online-edition/what-the-church-really-teaches-about-suicide
I won't add too much more, as I want only to answer your question and allow you the mental space to freely ask without the imposition of being told to think positive. I know it's exhausting. But I do believe – despite being here of all places! – that life is meaningful and precious. We are made for and by God Himself after all; He was lonely in existence and made us. (That is so wonderful.) We are so beloved by Him and He is wholly (holy! hah!) good and pure and just.
Anyway... it's sad to see everyone here, naturally. I wish we can all live long, loving, light lives. It's difficult, but it's something from His Hand directly. I hope you can live fully and remain using His gift of life for its whole duration until the natural conclusion.
Again, peace be with you, I hope this is a helpful response.
This is a beautiful, charitable take on the question. I really admire your diligence and thoroughness as well as your kind heart. The Lord is fair in His judgment and infinite in His love and surely your cherished son experienced such firsthand. My heart is with you!
Peace be with you too. I share your admiration for those who were a beacon of light here.That's the age old question regarding the role of mental illness in suicide. I read this entire thread and I love those who have chosen to preach of God's mercy for our friends and loved ones who couldn't save themselves. But this is the statement that truly made me want to leave a comment.
If a mentally ill person is not completely aware of what they're doing, doesn't that mean that we're implying their inability to think for themselves and therefore, we are patronizing them?
Truly, I've always had trouble understanding mentally ill people because of this alone. Am I bad for letting them? Or am I bad for not letting them because I feel that they're "not in their right mind"?
I myself don't consider it patronizing. I think, in evaluating this, the question is less, are they able to think for themselves?, and more, to what degree might the circumstances surrounding them that might be influencing their thinking? – that's why practices such as involuntary commitment exist. "You're too great of a threat right now, and you aren't able to prioritize safety in this state." It comes from a place of concern.