rotthjärta
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- Apr 24, 2026
- 9
By outcome I mean those who are so certain with ctb. For myself I seem to, I wouldn't say occupy myself because it lessens how much the person means to me but that seems to be the only reasons I'm here, I would never share with them that. I've expressed feelings of suicide but it was once or twice this or last year I don't remember. I don't see a reason to share these thoughts as I don't want to be bothered.
Even with saying I care about them It's hard to admit it, feels wrong because "I shouldn't be here.". I was so determined to just leave everything behind and now I'm stuck here. Very human of me.
I asked this because I wonder If people are in a place where they can't even express these emotions, I wonder because It is so human to find yourself in these confusing conflicting situations. When I was younger I wanted to find someone like me just to go off together or live life without a care. I think I'm just at a different point in life, when I was younger I was so quit to attempt, it's not that I found the secret or the true meaning of life I just reached a different way of perceiving it, I simply don't care much.
I'm just rambling, now its two questions. Has anyone experienced that too?
I'm all for the simple life, I don't really care to do much I just want a small life to myself and avoid all contact with anyone, I mean I don't have friends or anything just my partner. I don't mean that I don't care about them, see its confusing if you say you would stay with someone no matter what because you don't have high standards or ask for too much it sort of can be a back-handed "compliment". Blah blah.
Even with saying I care about them It's hard to admit it, feels wrong because "I shouldn't be here.". I was so determined to just leave everything behind and now I'm stuck here. Very human of me.
I asked this because I wonder If people are in a place where they can't even express these emotions, I wonder because It is so human to find yourself in these confusing conflicting situations. When I was younger I wanted to find someone like me just to go off together or live life without a care. I think I'm just at a different point in life, when I was younger I was so quit to attempt, it's not that I found the secret or the true meaning of life I just reached a different way of perceiving it, I simply don't care much.
I'm just rambling, now its two questions. Has anyone experienced that too?
I'm all for the simple life, I don't really care to do much I just want a small life to myself and avoid all contact with anyone, I mean I don't have friends or anything just my partner. I don't mean that I don't care about them, see its confusing if you say you would stay with someone no matter what because you don't have high standards or ask for too much it sort of can be a back-handed "compliment". Blah blah.
