Do you pretend to hold an imaginary girlfriend/boyfriend when going to bed at night?

[xXiloveyouXx]

Do you pretend to hug, talk to, or just have an imaginary partner when you're going to sleep at night?

 

[Kokonoe]

sometimes i pretend my sister is still here to hold me, or that i still get to hold her. sometimes my alters hold me at night, if i'm dissociating hard enough.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Thats masochistic though, wouldnt you just feel more lonely?

 

[LastNite]

Nah

 

[Kokonoe]

i guess i can't even imagine a partner holding me or anything at night. i've been alone for so long there's just some disconnect and it doesn't make sense. i can only imagine my big sister or a friend or my alters. a partner just doesn't even make sense to me anymore. that's kinda sad and concerning to me.

Thats masochistic though, wouldnt you just feel more lonely?

not really. i find it comforting.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

i was replying to op but your post got posted first

 

[Bishop]

No

 

[blush]

yeah actually i relate op

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

sometimes i pretend my sister is still here to hold me, or that i still get to hold her. sometimes my alters hold me at night, if i'm dissociating hard enough.

This is sweet and I relate to this extremely in my own way. "Partner" was just the easiest way to convey this feeling to the most amount of people.

Thats masochistic though, wouldnt you just feel more lonely?

If you become skilled at self-delusion, it doesn't hurt most of the time, because I've convinced myself that she's real and waiting for me on the other side.

 

[tomatobastard]

unfortunately i pretend i'm holding her and i hope to see her in my dreams even if it's for only a moment, but i never do.

 

[nosense-user]

I used to do it every night

 

[The Disqualified]

Do you pretend to hug, talk to, or just have an imaginary partner when you're going to sleep at night?

At school I used to spend my time daydreaming a popular and sucessful version of myself.
It was just sad though. It was a way to cope with my loneliness...

 

[ondeathwaitlist]

I am even worse gone. Never have my feelings been reciprocated so on that I have given up on. But sometimes I'd imagine having this boyfriend that i've had in my head since I was like 10. He'd be there when Im in class or walking down to a shop and so on. And ofc. While sleeping. Ig one of the rare things that keep me alive.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

This is sweet and I relate to this extremely in my own way. "Partner" was just the easiest way to convey this feeling to the most amount of people.

If you become skilled at self-delusion, it doesn't hurt most of the time, because I've convinced myself that she's real and waiting for me on the other side.

But i already have enough and too many delusions since i chose a path of staying alive no matter what and believing anything, any world view that would help me



"Shes real and waiting for me on the other side".... you realize youre thinking of death right? Only death would wait for you for your whole life, no matter how you are, and meet you on the other side

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I am married but I usually sleep alone. I cuddle a plush T-800.

 

[Forveleth]

Poly here so I pretend to have multiple.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Yup. Can't fall asleep without hugging something. The imaginary person isn't well defined or anything. Just has a set of basic and vague characteristics. Imagining a full imaginary person is too much because then I can also imagine myself with respect to that person, the possible conflict, and how an ideal person wouldn't want to be with me in the first place. And that ruins the fantasy.

 

[burninghill]

I used to do it before I got a boyfriend and I still do. If I opened up to him more then maybe I'd really get held in the way I want to, not just… being held but being understood in the presence of someone who loves you, if that makes sense? I want someone to hold my face and for me to really believe that they understand me

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I used to do it before I got a boyfriend and I still do. If I opened up to him more then maybe I'd really get held in the way I want to, not just… being held but being understood in the presence of someone who loves you, if that makes sense? I want someone to hold my face and for me to really believe that they understand me

Wouldnt you suffocate if you slept like that

 

[Quietist]

Not necessarily a romantic partner, but I have considered creating an imaginary friend akin to a kind of egregore that I power with attention, belief, and offerings.

Almost like having a second ego as an external hard drive to act as my proxy to cope with life.

But the last thing I need right now is to complicate mental illness with delusions.

 

[burninghill]

Wouldnt you suffocate if you slept like that

What do you mean?

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

What do you mean?

Having your face held all night

 

[burninghill]

Having your face held all night

Not really, unless it's being done with intent to suffocate me I guess lmao

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Not really, unless it's being done with intent to suffocate me I guess lmao

i never had that intention in my experience

But it was so damm hot having someone stuck to you all nigjt. Especially in this summer

 

[softfur]

sort of, it used to be the only way i could fall asleep when i was a kid. now it's really just when i need it to calm down. i don't have as immersive of an imagination anymore

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

But i already have enough and too many delusions since i chose a path of staying alive no matter what and believing anything, any world view that would help me



"Shes real and waiting for me on the other side".... you realize youre thinking of death right? Only death would wait for you for your whole life, no matter how you are, and meet you on the other side

Pretty romantic huh

 

[eeriepuff]

yes LOL when i sleep i always imagine a guy cuddling and holding me

 

[seeyoulater26]

No but I'm a side sleeper and hug my pillow :) Feels nice

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

Pretty romantic huh

Geez that makes the two of us

we are love rivals now

 

[Pluto]