GoingSoonish
It is what it is
- Aug 19, 2018
- 126
Do you wear a mask to hide how you feel, or do the people around you know?
Lra888
Enlightened
- Sep 30, 2018
- 1,140
I try my best to appear okay but at times I know people can tell something is very wrong.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
lostinthedream
Warlock
- Sep 2, 2018
- 754
I ebb and flow in how i am feeling from day to day.. but most of the time I try to do the best I can to be of love and service to the world around me.
What is normal? If there were no threat of bodily harm or death aka laws and conditions created by a certain society then the whole facade would fall. People are conditioned constantly and corrected to fit inside the status quo to run with the flow. If we were truly free would you really want to be 'normal'?
Morbidreality
98lbs is the perfect weight
- Sep 10, 2018
- 61
Lololololol I wiiiiiiiish!
Pretty much everyone knows I'm a ticking time bomb/ incredibly manic& depressive & should be institutionalized. Nothing in the slight sense is normal.... But then again, what is that? Normal?
Pretty much everyone knows I'm a ticking time bomb/ incredibly manic& depressive & should be institutionalized. Nothing in the slight sense is normal.... But then again, what is that? Normal?
Susannah
Mage
- Jul 2, 2018
- 530
Yes. Pretending coping with pain (and acting strong) is probably my strongest skill. But sometimes I explode (did it today and feel awful now). Took my beloved dog for a 3 hours offpiste walk in the forrest. I have these nice trails (no people) I escape to. It helps a little bit. I find spots perfect for the bigger escape.
Yes. My humor is crude and dark so I slip truths into it every once in a while. No one is the wiser.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
Fucking loving it
Specialist
- Sep 3, 2018
- 378
I have no friends no life and prior attempts. Basically it's people in my extended family. They all know I'm a fucking mess.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
I can't pretend so I just avoid all human contact as best I can. It's embarrassing
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
deathoverlife
life is fleeting.....
- Oct 8, 2018
- 197
am locking up my self... hoping to set my soul free very soon..
Tired of hiding my pain and tears. people around me don't understand nor I want to unvail my sadness and pain to any one... it's just matter of time
Tired of hiding my pain and tears. people around me don't understand nor I want to unvail my sadness and pain to any one... it's just matter of time
I don't know what people think to be honest. I have a couple friends here now in Denver and they both know what I do for money. I guess I don't give a fuck what people think anymore because it takes too much energy to put up pretenses.
It is easier out here to fit in because dysfunctional lives are more common. I do try to put some effort into appearing respectable to avoid people from treating me badly. I maintain as normal of a life as possible even though my life is far from typical.
It is easier out here to fit in because dysfunctional lives are more common. I do try to put some effort into appearing respectable to avoid people from treating me badly. I maintain as normal of a life as possible even though my life is far from typical.
sadak_the_wanderer
An appropriate painting
- Mar 19, 2018
- 245
I would not say "normal" as other people consider it. However, I have always been strange, so it isn't as if there have been any changes which would alarm people or otherwise alert them to my intentions. Holding it together to be successful at this one thing has been harder than expected.
Jblack
Specialist
- Oct 8, 2018
- 314
I go through life trying to appear normal to others. I have suffered with depression so long that I am not sure what it means to be normal. I do not think that others pick up the weight that I carry around. I keep most things to myself, so that I do not let others know how I am really feeling. I an not looking for sympathy or saving from anyone. I am very guarded about what I say to people so that they remain unaware of any plans that I make concerning my life.
It's nowhere near normal. It's weird as hell. Everybody knows it. There's no way to hide it. That's why I have a hard time believing they don't understand why I often want to end it.
They still think normal is possible. I look somewhat normal, but if you have to deal with me for 5 seconds you know I'm not.
They still think normal is possible. I look somewhat normal, but if you have to deal with me for 5 seconds you know I'm not.
yes, I get up to go to work, manage a smile after coffee and even sometimes joke with co-workers. More than one lately i've been talking to them and placed my hand on my leg wear i cut as i can feel it through my pants.. its almost comical how normal i seem but the darkness hidden below the service. Sadly my mother has started to pick up on it :/ I hate that part for her i try so hard to hide it all the time but i guess moms just know these things.
InkBlot
What Do You See?
- Sep 17, 2018
- 162
My life is great. My debt is gone. I make amazing money, have amazing benefits, Im fit, and I have a lot of opportunities.
Still lonely and want to die. Yet daily I talk someone off a literal or proverbial ledge. My friends are in denial about my issues, and my family doesnt exist. My only venting zone is other depressed people and sharing dark, dank memes.
Still lonely and want to die. Yet daily I talk someone off a literal or proverbial ledge. My friends are in denial about my issues, and my family doesnt exist. My only venting zone is other depressed people and sharing dark, dank memes.
I'm honest to an extent, people know how I feel and that i plan to ctb but not details
I never hide it but used to i just don't give a shit anymore at work im full of rage but because i stock shelves overnight with no customers the managers don't care as long as i do my work. I also know they won't fire me because i get through a lot of work because i work with aggression. All my colleagues think im crazy but again i don't give a fuck id rather be crazy than normal. Im just bat shit insane now fucking had enough and just want to get the hell out of this world without knowing i ever existed.
fuckthis
I've made up my mind.
- Sep 23, 2018
- 263
fuckthis
I've made up my mind.
- Sep 23, 2018
- 263
I feel a similiar way, makes me want to run my head through fucking concrete. I keep it in most of the time to hide it though.
When i drive home from work i always think about driving over 100mph into a wall im just so far gone now all thats left is to make that ultimate step.
fuckthis
I've made up my mind.
- Sep 23, 2018
- 263
Dude that's literally what I've been thinking haha. It's why I don't drive a car, because I would just floor it.
Wish i had the balls to just do it because it would be instant death i also wonder if the car would explode.
GoingSoonish
It is what it is
- Aug 19, 2018
- 126
Thank you for the responses everyone. To answer the question myself, i definitely wear the "mask". It's so exhausting.
NoOneKnows
Specialist
- Sep 12, 2018
- 323
Im physically ill...locked up for 5 years at home...going out only for doctor appointments, walking dog and supermarket. Mu "family" is abusive, ignoring my severe chronic health issues and trying to liock me up in mental ward anytime there is an opportunity. Those psych believe whatever my insane mother tell them, diagnosing me based on her blatant lies...or even giving me antiopsychotics that worsen the cardiac impact after tricyclic amitriptiluine OD..if i have any energy and streght/money, and at least support of 1 person i would sue ...unfortunatelly..there s no way to fight and win over a narcissist ,that lies and gaslight eveyrwhere she goes. I cant pretend no more..but the worse I feel and show it, the worse people treat me
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