Why do I continue to try?

[sapphoslastpoem]

I'm probably going to get fired from my job tomorrow. Everyone at work seems to hate me, no matter what I do, even if I do chores for everyone around the station, even if I run calls back to back with no breaks, even if I'm nice and always offer help—people will always end up hating me and it's because of my fucking autism. It makes me look and act like a goddamn alien, I'll never be able to socialize normally, have normal conversations or opinions or even basic fucking social cues. This isn't the first job where I've been made an outcast, literally every single job has resulted this way. I'll be able to mask for a few months and then I can't help it anymore, my unbearable self just comes out and people learn to tolerate me less. I fucking hate myself, why was I cursed with this fucking existence? Why do I continue to torture myself by living in it?

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

We're only missed when we're gone and there is no around to get the job done.

 

[Sutter]

Hello Sappho,

Just wanted you to know best to leave that job anyway. Your work should learn over a fairly short time what kind of worker you are. Dedicated, giving, team player, goal oriented, and considerate. Think I might be shooting myself in the foot here but not sure I possess all those skills. There will be job where they recognize what they have and when that day happens you look me up, pm me, and you make some really outstanding employment offer, with a scotch…mhmm glenfidditch 18.

Wandered a bit there, if it finds you so wish you good wandering as well.