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VegasLyra

VegasLyra

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Jan 16, 2021
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I personally can't imagine going through with it sober. The survival instinct would be insanely strong. I don't know when I'm gonna CTB, but when I will, I intend on dampening my SI by being drunk as hell. Alcohol inhibits the amygdala (the part of the brain mostly responsible for fear, anxiety, and fight-or-flight which constitute the SI) so doing it sober is not an opinion for me
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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you're right. It would help. I need to try this
 
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Asya

See you at the curtain call.
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queenofwasps

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Mar 23, 2026
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Hell yes! I wanna be totally clear, as I expect the experience to be psychedelic anyway
 
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cookji

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Mar 24, 2026
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Wouldn't it help if I drank? I think I might end up drinking
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
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Alcohol would be too unpredictable for me. Maybe a bit of weed a few hours before, but not when I'm supposed to follow protocol. I'm more focused sober and too afraid something may go wrong if not of sober mind.
 
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comeoutandhauntme

comeoutandhauntme

all that i can, i will do <3
Feb 10, 2026
74
i would LOVE to be drunk when dying, bc i'm often happy and at peace when drunk. however i don't think i'd be able to get away with for 2 reasons: the first being i'm under 21 and don't have easy access to alcohol, the second being i plan on using SN and am too afraid the alcohol would trigger vomiting, as it has in the past when i got drunk. so unfortantely i plan on being stone cold sober, unless you count the sedative that'll put me to sleep
 
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Star67

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Mar 12, 2026
51
Not a chance I'm going out sober. Part of my method involves drugs anyway. Also, whenever I drink I always feel certain that I am ready to ctb.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
293
if its possible and wont block whatever method i end up using then yes i think it'd make it easier
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Got drunk once thinking it would help and it made me so relaxes I no longer wanted to die. I also do not want to risk messing up by being impaired.
 
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chargirl

chargirl

I want to be on the receiving end of revenge
Mar 24, 2026
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Not a chance I'm going out sober. Part of my method involves drugs anyway. Also, whenever I drink I always feel certain that I am ready to ctb.
Same, if I get drunk enough all my SI and hesitation/inhibition completely goes away. It's nice to know I can rely on that to avoid changing my mind at the last second
 
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mustard tiger

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Mar 27, 2026
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I will have to be sober so it doesn't mess with the SN
 
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Star67

Member
Mar 12, 2026
51
Same, if I get drunk enough all my SI and hesitation/inhibition completely goes away. It's nice to know I can rely on that to avoid changing my mind at the last second
Drugs mainly alcohol have been such a big part of my adult life/escape/coping mechanism that I can't fathom dying sober. It'd almost be like leaving town for good without giving your best friend a hug.
 
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StoneCactus

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Mar 15, 2026
49
If I end up hanging or jumping I'm planning to get high on kratom, weed, phenibut, and alcohol. Poisoning would sadly need to be done sober.
 
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deadlyace13

Member
Jan 15, 2026
6
from what ive learned, pills and drinking go hand in hand
 
hurts2b

hurts2b

Member
Mar 14, 2026
52
God I hope not. But who knows? Sometimes you need the clear headedness of sobriety to accomplish something.
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
144
I will most likely be sober, yes. But it won't be for another few years, so plans may change.
 
ificouldlivewithout

ificouldlivewithout

money is the cure to my pain
Mar 29, 2026
23
my first reaction was hell no but upon further thinking it'd depend heavily what mood i am in
 
Anarcholoser

Anarcholoser

patron saint of denial
Jan 8, 2021
37
Absolutely. I've never been drunk in my life and weed makes me horribly sick, so I'll be sober like usual.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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I personally can't imagine going through with it sober. The survival instinct would be insanely strong. I don't know when I'm gonna CTB, but when I will, I intend on dampening my SI by being drunk as hell. Alcohol inhibits the amygdala (the part of the brain mostly responsible for fear, anxiety, and fight-or-flight which constitute the SI) so doing it sober is not an opinion for me
All my aborted attempts have been sober and I'll keep it that way if I attempt again. I never drink. What method are you getting drunk for?
 
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lucycelestia

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Dec 5, 2023
32
knowing me i'm a coward who will need it to not have SI win, so probably. i've gotten drunk once before but that was euphoric, if it's on *the* evening then it will probably be a different kind of drunk, more to lower inhibition but not so much that i spill all the powder on the floor or something
 
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VegasLyra

VegasLyra

Member
Jan 16, 2021
87
All my aborted attempts have been sober and I'll keep it that way if I attempt again. I never drink. What method are you getting drunk for?
Partial suspension hanging. Setting up the rope and getting it around my neck and kneeling takes a lot of willpower, less so however for an intoxicated mind
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Partial suspension hanging. Setting up the rope and getting it around my neck and kneeling takes a lot of willpower, less so however for an intoxicated mind
Ah, I remember you posting about PSH before. Kneeling PSH is my method too but I always back out. Not sure the squeeze is hard enough but it gets scary fast and gives me the head rush so it probably is.
 
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