Discussion do you have anything exciting you look forward to doing each day

[snowman626]

i used to do weed a lot and it was one of the things i looked forward to after waking up each day, now after 10 years of 420 all day everyday my tolerance is so high i cant even get stoned. i would smoke like 40 mins straight and only get a slight buzz. so i have to quit now cause its a waste of time and money and its fucking up my lungs.

the other thing i used to look forward to is binging on junk food. i would go out to a large supermarket and buy like $50 worth of stuff like sandwiches, fried rice, roast chicken, chips, candies, pizza, and more, and eat them all in one sitting while watching some movies. but now im planning on getting in shape so that activity isnt an option.

so now i have no weed, no food binges, i dont know what else to look forward to each day. i need something to fill the void.

i like to sing but now i moved to a new place and am living with tons of other people who likes quiet and i cant do that either. every fucking thing that makes me happy i cant do it. i need ideas on what i can do to fill this void. im thinking of starting my day off with a 40km run or until i throw up, this will for sure give me a natural high, maybe that's what i'll do

 

[TrailerTrash]

No, no I don't. Running sounds like a decent alternative compared to weed or junk food.

 

[Reyki6667]

Sleeping.

 

[hatelife]

not anymore, Im buying a thing to see if my hair will grow like before so I guess that, but even if it grows like before im not sure I will be happy and want to live, walking out of psych ward on monday was like uh oh , this reality again, no wonder I want to die when I saw the outside and ppl. everything feel like for what, whats the point in even trying to work or get money, for what?

 

[snowman626]

not anymore, Im buying a thing to see if my hair will grow like before so I guess that, but even if it grows like before im not sure I will be happy and want to live, walking out of psych ward on monday was like uh oh , this reality again, no wonder I want to die when I saw the outside and ppl

are you talking about male pattern baldness? i have that too, i am also looking for ways to grow back my hair. i am trying some massage exercises

 

[hatelife]

are you talking about male pattern baldness? i have that too, i am also looking for ways to grow back my hair. i am trying some massage exercises

im a female though, at least I think ahah, it does look like male pattern baldness though but it is also diffuse thinning, (My hormones are normal) dont know what it is, looks a bit like ccca alopecia to me.
Ive ordered loniten (minoxidil oral powder 1 kg from alibaba.

 

[SickSadWorld]

Sleeping.

And dreaming. Even if they're bad dreams. Mine are pretty vivid and realistic and at least I am not stuck in this house or alone in them. I get to see past people I miss even if it's triggering. Anything is better than my reality. I wish I would fall into a dream and never wake up. Waking up is torture now. I feel ok for a second when I'm not thinking of anything yet, still coming out of the dream, then it all hits.

 

[hatelife]

And dreaming. Even if they're bad dreams. Mine are pretty vivid and realistic and at least I am not stuck in this house or alone in them. I get to see past people I miss even if it's triggering. Anything is better than my reality. I wish I would fall into a dream and never wake up. Waking up is torture now. I feel ok for a second when I'm not thinking of anything yet, still coming out of the dream, then it all hits.

I remember feeling like this in my old apartment, I was all alone 24/7 nobody cared to call not even my brother, like I could die and nobody would know, maybe my mom, if I did not call in 2 days

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Just my cats greeting me with their love. I will be sad to say goodbye to them when the time comes.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Nothing at all. I'm in a constant state of extreme physical pain and can't leave the house. I dread going to sleep because I dread waking up. I'm like a caged animal. I get up, go to the bathroom, eat, and get back in bed. I can't be physical like I once was able to be. I'm 34 and got sick at 20 with the highest ranking pain condition in medical history called complex regional pain syndrome. It's degenerative and my upstairs neighbors are making it so much worse for me. I pray I get the courage soon to end it. I don't know why I'm sticking around. To be a punching bag? I hate this pain and I hate this existence because by no means is it a life. If I had the money I'd pay someone to shoot me in the back of the head about three times and make sure I'm dead.

 

[woxihuanni]

Morning coffee and fags, talking to my friends, sometimes the vague possibility that they will invite me to watch a movie. It happens rarely, but is very nice.

 

[Final Escape]

Coffee, gym when I can drag myself there, few friends, I like taking walks.

 

[Haku]

It used to be video games, but I ended up losing my excitement for that along with everything else, sometimes I have to force myself to play, the 1 thing i used to enjoy, it just feels like a chore now, not a life I want to stick around for.

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

@snowman626 try meetup groups. Look for ones focused on singing running bootcamp etc. Not sure if u like ballroom dance (in addition to music) but it's a great way to meet ladies if you're straight and interested in that.

 

[sammii]

Nope, I don't get excited about anything anymore

 

[Astral316]

I can't afford weed anymore. Now I get buzzed on a couple beers at night and watch tv or shows on my computer. It doesn't excite me but it makes me forget my suicidal position for a while.

 

[Dishonorable]

I am a hopeless bulimic, so I am looking forward to food everyday. sometimes also reading, because I do love books.

 

[charlottewilts]

hardly anything brings me joy nowadays. video games, tv shows, books and stuff i used to enjoy greatly now just bore me... oddly, stilli look forward to simple things like watching the sunset, snowfall or fireflies. i wish i could just do that indefinitely...

 

[StillWaiting]

Nothing at all. Feel miserable all the time. No one cares about me anyways

 

[Dreamwithinadream]

I spend every waking hour in pain so the only thing I enjoy doing is sleeping. And sometimes not even sleep is enjoyable when I have nightmares.

 

[Mr2005]

Not really. I wish I could get stoned and listen to my music right now but I'm at my girlfriends (yeah I'm lucky to have one). I have my SNES here which used to get me through hard times but I don't play it much anymore either because a) I can't be bothered or b) I don't want it to anymore

 

[Jean4]

Weed and waiting for nighttime to go to sleep. I am a waste of space.

 

[Moon Flower]

Sometimes I like to buy stuff online just so that I have something to look forward to. I do a lot of cosplaying so that keeps me busy, planning and preparations, and having cute pics to take in costumes gives me a little bit of purpose for a while because it makes my followers happy

 

[justanotherday]

Nothing makes me happy now. I have lost interest in everything. I don't want to be here on planet earth. I have been wanting to leave for many years now.

 

[SinisterKid]

I have a appointment with a pension adviser tomorrow, that is about as much excitement as I can take these days

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I wake up and immediately go to the garage to smoke weed and watch videos everyday I'm not working, numbing myself all day, if I work I just continue once I get home. I've also been tripping about once every week or two lately to bring some sense of excitement/joy/thrill into my life.

 

[LastFlowers]

No.

 

[Sadwind]

And dreaming. Even if they're bad dreams. Mine are pretty vivid and realistic and at least I am not stuck in this house or alone in them. I get to see past people I miss even if it's triggering. Anything is better than my reality. I wish I would fall into a dream and never wake up. Waking up is torture now. I feel ok for a second when I'm not thinking of anything yet, still coming out of the dream, then it all hits.

This happens to me every time I wake up. When reality hits, it takes away my warm and peaceful feelings. I really hate waking up. Lately it's been okay but it still stings

 

[Return2Dust]

Starbucks every morning.

 

[Avery Jordan]

Use psychedelics.