Do you have a suicide note?

[Jade10666]

I've written one, but I have torn it up.

They never really seem to accomplish what I am trying to say?

What do you think you should say?

 

[Blueberry Panic]

I've made so many suicide notes , but I've always made sure to have one incase something happens and I decide to ctb early .

 

[22yearsbroken]

I have written 5 letters to those who have had a positive impact upon my life from when i was 16 to now.. to given to those people upon my death be at my own hand or when my illness finally catches up i still have my actual single note to write but i have a rough draft on my phone... they are all in an old pirate style chest along with my will and all my journals and diaries.. they is also an SD card with some vidoes of me talking about stuff and all my favorite music..

 

[catfriend]

i have one typed up. writing would be a waste of paper, at this stage, given the number of iterations it's gone through.

a good suicide note, i think, is balancing act between saying too little and saying too much. in the former case, one risks leaving more questions than answers. in the latter case, one risks placing unintended blame on the recipient(s), thereby drawing out the grieving process. it's hard!

i found this guide helpful:

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE

 

[Griever]

I don't have a suicide note

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Yeah. Writing my suicide note up on a computer then writing it onto paper is what's basically determined my death. It's not the suicide note itself or the feeling that "I've written a note so I have to." But more the fact that it has gotten so bad that I've written a note and my mental health is that bad. Bar something happening which magically changes my life and outlook, at least it'll provide closure for my friends and family.

 

[LostLily]

I have 6 to family and various groups of friends. I did write most of them months ago, so I may need to update it.

Also I keep meeting new people and befriending them and on the back of my mind I go "crap, another note to write"

 

[catfriend]

Also I keep meeting new people and befriending them and on the back of my mind I go "crap, another note to write"

this may be a good problem to have? :)

 

[LostLily]

this may be a good problem to have? :)

I guess. But it makes me feel guilty for having this desires because I know the impact it will have on people.

 

[Jade10666]

I guess. But it makes me feel guilty for having this desires because I know the impact it will have on people.

I have the very same feelings - its hard to CTB without that sense of guilt -

 

[ma0]

I'm definitely gonna make one, and I pretty much know what I'm gonna say in it.

I'm only gonna make it before I CTB tho.

 

[ringo99]

Just gonna leave a goodbye thread that'll only be read by you guys. I've nothing to say to the people in the real world.

 

[LostLily]

Just gonna leave a goodbye thread that'll only be read by you guys. I've nothing to say to the people in the real world.

If I plan to ctb, I also will leave a goodbye thread because the people here are the only true people who understand me.

 

[iamthezero]

I feel like I've written so many, physically and electronically. Now im kinda tempted to go through my notes app and see what hasn't changed

 

[FuneralCry]

I would say that I wish to cease existing as I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that I always saw as the most dreadful mistake, for me existing is so deeply undesirable in every way and I just find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age. I wish to cease existing so I can finally be at peace, I find it a burden to exist and it's a burden that only ever caused me to suffer, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, I'd never wish to exist no matter what.

 

[F@#$]

I've heard leaving a suicide note can effect your life insurance Pay out. Don't know how true it is tho.

 

[everosity]

nope and dont plain on making one once i do the deed

 

[Dejected 55]

I have tried writing them, recently even... but I'm torn. I've pretty much said everything I care to say to people I know or care about, so none of them should be surprised if one day I'm just not around. I don't feel like I need to leave a note at the scene because it should be pretty obvious what happened to whomever finds me.

I think there is this constant urge to say one more/last thing... but when I try and then read it over and think about it... there's nothing new there... and I'm already gone at that point. I have considered mailing letters on the day, that people will not receive for at least a couple of days afterwards... but again, why bother? It seems about as pointless as existing does at this point to me, so I'm leaning heavily towards no notes.

 

[StarryEyed]

I am applying for euthanasia but have only told two people. I might tell a couple more people only. If and when I get approved, I might still not want to tell people. Don't know. But I was thinking I might write letters to some people. I just found out you can do a delayed delivery with Gmail. That's more practical than mailing letters or leaving letters behind in my home.

I don't know what to say, though. I mean obviously suffering is the reason for ditching this world. So that's really not the point of writing. I was thinking of telling people how much they have meant in my life, especially how they have helped me cope with suffering. Any suggestions as to what to say?

 

[meloncholia]

I've written one, but I have torn it up.

They never really seem to accomplish what I am trying to say?

What do you think you should say?

I've written several, but funnily enough the one time I truthfully tried attempting it happened in under a minute and I wrote no note.

 

[chainsofjudecca]

I've went through it many times in my head but ultimately no. There's too much to say, too much to explain without being misconstrued. There's no point.

Although I'm tempted to just copy & paste and print out Fanny Godwin's suicide note. Its rather succinct.

I have long determined that the best thing I could do was to put an end to the existence of a being whose birth was unfortunate, and whose life has only been a series of pain to those persons who have hurt their health in endeavouring to promote her welfare. Perhaps to hear of my death will give you pain, but you will soon have the blessing of forgetting that such a creature ever existed.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've written a few drafts. Weirdly, I kept crying throughout. I think because I'm worrying about the people receiving them crying over me. Not that they necessarily will of course.

But, to summarize: This wasn't impulsive. I had ideation since childhood. I held on for other loved ones to pass before I felt able to. I did my best to cope with life. I'm so grateful for the people who made that easier. I'm so grateful to the people who gave me (creative) work. I'm sorry for any pain this may cause. It was my biggest hesitation and regret that this could cause pain but, it's hard to live entirely for the sake of others indefinitely. I hope you are able to feel relieved for me that I am now free. I wish you all the very best in your lives.

 

[bankai]

Wish I had a death note. I'd write my own name on the first page to keep it from getting lost

 

[StarryEyed]

I've written several, but funnily enough the one time I truthfully tried attempting it happened in under a minute and I wrote no note.

When I tried suicide, I didn't leave a note either, even though I had thought about the note for decades.

I was thinking this morning.... I consider suicide an illness and/or a healthy reaction to our life. Do people with other terminal illnesses leave a note or letters? If they do, then why does our letter have a special name to it - a 'suicide note'? If we get a special name for it, then others who die from an illness should too... A cancer note, a heart attack note, a car accident note, a stroke note. Someone here used the term "death note". Maybe that's what they were implying? I like that!

Any thoughts on that?

 

[Electra]

Not yet

 

[meloncholia]

When I tried suicide, I didn't leave a note either, even though I had thought about the note for decades.

I was thinking this morning.... I consider suicide an illness and/or a healthy reaction to our life. Do people with other terminal illnesses leave a note or letters? If they do, then why does our letter have a special name to it - a 'suicide note'? If we get a special name for it, then others who die from an illness should too... A cancer note, a heart attack note, a car accident note, a stroke note. Someone here used the term "death note". Maybe that's what they were implying? I like that!

Any thoughts on that?

People are pattern seeking and like clear answers to their problems, so we like to point fingers about who is culpable of blame in a given act. If someone has cancer and they smoked, we tend to blame them for smoking. If someone lives a healthy life to the best of their ability and gets cancer, we tend to treat it as a tragedy. If someone kills themselves, people tend to blame them for CTB, as if the events of their life that inspired the act, their phenomenological experience of considering the act, and the acting out of the act itself exist in isolation from the exact same pattern recognizing behavior and analytical thought they exercise to scorn people they refuse to empathize with.

 

[StarryEyed]

People are pattern seeking and like clear answers to their problems, so we like to point fingers about who is culpable of blame in a given act. If someone has cancer and they smoked, we tend to blame them for smoking. If someone lives a healthy life to the best of their ability and gets cancer, we tend to treat it as a tragedy. If someone kills themselves, people tend to blame them for CTB, as if the events of their life that inspired the act, their phenomenological experience of considering the act, and the acting out of the act itself exist in isolation from the exact same pattern recognizing behavior and analytical thought they exercise to scorn people they refuse to empathize with.

Yes, I agree with what you´re saying, even though that wasn´t what I was talking about. I think another reason people judge and condemn people for having died by suicide is that it offers them comfort to believe that they are not capable of such an act. But they have to know that just because they may not considered suicide yet or given into suicide yet does not mean they are immune to suicide. No one is immune to suicide. There is no vaccine.

 

[Dongle]

I'm working on notes for people I'd like to have one, have one "done" that I'll probably add on to but that's about it.

 

[burneverybridge]

Mine will say

Fuck you all