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Do you have a suicide date, or are you going day by day?
Thread starterLargeletters
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I just recently thought of this question and I thought I would ask you all, as it's a thought-provoking question. Do you have a suicide date, or are you just going day by day? For me, I do not currently have a suicide date. It surprises me when I surpass yet another day, so I don't usually think that far ahead.
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Baffelingbofos, The Lonely, CyberneticChesmistry and 5 others
Thank you for a good question.
Same here. No suicide day. I find setting a specific date unnecessary for myself. I think it would only put additional pressure on me, since kms doesn't seem so easy for me. And I crumble under any pressure
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Some1's_Wasted_Fetus, Huntfish34 and Largeletters
Very good question! I'm living day by day. Setting a date puts too much pressure. Decided to prolong it to see if things would get better (surprisingly they did) so I'll see what happens in the future tbh
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lobster salad, Huntfish34 and Largeletters
Just taking it 1 day at a time, the ever so arduous and trudging through this thing we call life. Never wanted to set a date because I really have no idea when / if I'll do it.
My mood and temper can change at the drop of a hat.... So its really hard to say honestly. Heck, might blow my brains out tonight.... Fck, who knows.
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patheticpartner, demuic, Largeletters and 1 other person
I had a date for a while when I was younger (set one the first time I attempted, and had one for dying by eighteen) but I don't really have one anymore.
I try to do what I need to get by- day by day. I've been lying here crying and I don't want to suffer any more, I don't have the will- I'm just so lost and confused. But I'm also scared to die.
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fly away, Huntfish34, Largeletters and 1 other person
Basically what he wrote...i feel very bad on all the festive date and on my birthday too.I don't want to have those feelings that I have on those days anymore ... are really terrible, unbearable.
Sometimes it's so bad it seems minute by minute. Like now.
I have everything. Just waiting for some news about a final treatment which I am not optimistic about getting. Then it's just when and where.
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Largeletters, Deleted_9cKnXB34QG and Huntfish34
Day by day although my 22nd bday is coming up on the 29th and i dont really feel like seeing it although i probably will. Hubby already got me my presents and im getting ice cream cake. Although yesterday that rope was looking really inviting
I have an exact date, my CTB is not just an escape from problems but a statement. In my country they say "you are the blacksmith of your fate" this is true but there are people who have contributed to my problems. And the date of my CTB will let them know that it is not an accident. I wish it would haunt them all and spoil the taste of life, but I know it will only make them happy because they got rid of the trouble and their crocodile tears will disappear after 2 days.
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Largeletters, Deleted_9cKnXB34QG, The Lonely and 1 other person
I do not have a date, I think if I planned one I would be unable to go through with it because of SI. I am just going day by day and I will probably leave this world when I get desperate and I can no longer stand it anymore. This life can be very exhausting.
I've been going day by day, but I keep on planning to do it on a specific day within the following week, but then don't follow through. I have a checklist of things I want to take care of before I do it, and I never seem to be able to finish the list and go through with it. Part of this is due to the psychiatric damage done to me from a mental hospital, and I think the other part is just fear of pain and failure. But I'm suffering so much every day, that I need to just go ahead and do it.
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