Do you have a suicide date, or are you going day by day?

[Largeletters]

I just recently thought of this question and I thought I would ask you all, as it's a thought-provoking question. Do you have a suicide date, or are you just going day by day? For me, I do not currently have a suicide date. It surprises me when I surpass yet another day, so I don't usually think that far ahead.

 

[PaxAmerica]

I am getting worse each day again. Defintely a day by day thing now. Not as bad as it was two years ago or times before that. I wish I could just disappear.

 

[Largeletters]

I've been going day by day, but I keep on planning to do it on a specific day within the following week, but then don't follow through. I have a checklist of things I want to take care of before I do it, and I never seem to be able to finish the list and go through with it. Part of this is due to the psychiatric damage done to me from a mental hospital, and I think the other part is just fear of pain and failure. But I'm suffering so much every day, that I need to just go ahead and do it.

I can definitely relate to this, including the setting a date and not following through, as well as the damage from a mental hospital. I'm sorry you're going through these things. It's Hell.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I had a date, but now it's day by day. Lately though, been thinking of an alternative plan that would definitely make a very harsh statement towards the person who destroyed what was left of me. We will see....

 

[lilac]

I did have a date but when it came I just couldn't pull the trigger. Still really upset about that. I'm still suffering just as much if not more so I figure I'll go day by day until life is so hellish I have the courage to end it. My biggest fear is it never gets bad enough that I can pull that trigger, but never good enough to justify living.

 

[Eire1992]

First Friday night after my SN arrives is the plan. Delivery date is a fairly wide estimate so I have to hold off booking a hotel until it actually arrives. Everything else is ready to roll, alibi is laid out, supporting drugs are stockpiled and packed, just waiting on the goods.