Discussion do you have a date or deadline?

[Merith]

I don't want to see 2021.

 

[EdibleGasMask]

Its very loosely defined for me. I have a "sometime next year" deadline but only because I want to distance myself from people before I end up committing. I would like them to get used to me not being in their life before I leave for good.

 

[All washed up]

No set date and far from certain I'll ever ctb.
But come next spring (especially if everyone is happy in the sunshine and if coronavirus is disappearing) and my circumstances haven't changed, it's something I'll seriously contemplate would like to go on holiday and ctb somewhere I've never been before

 

[ImmortalTaoist]

Was planning on New Years just to let the holidays pass by and all that but who knows it may be even sooner just depends on everything

 

[Antigonish]

Once every ten seconds, I'm like this is it... then I talk myself out of it. Or I meet someone interesting or I get inspired. Really, it's kinda like threatening the universe.

 

[DD2020]

I am waiting for travel to be allowed. I want a chance to visit my brother. Then to go abroad and try and get a non return holiday that includes N

 

[eclipsee99]

all i want is to disappear. it's constantly on my mind. if i had what i needed, i'd go tomorrow. but part of me wants to hold on until after my sisters given birth?

she's due in less than 4 weeks. i don't know if it would be better for her to grieve before or after she's given birth. i just don't know what to do.

 

[All washed up]

all i want is to disappear. it's constantly on my mind. if i had what i needed, i'd go tomorrow. but part of me wants to hold on until after my sisters given birth?

she's due in less than 4 weeks. i don't know if it would be better for her to grieve before or after she's given birth. i just don't know what to do.

Hi if you are thinking of your sister definitely wait until after the birth for her sake

 

[eclipsee99]

Hi if you are thinking of your sister definitely wait until after the birth for her sake

hey. thanks for the reply :)
yeah that's what i was thinking. if it's going to break anyone, it's going to be my sister, and i just don't want to make it worse while she's pregnant

 

[Mr2005]

By the end of the year. Times running out

 

[All washed up]

hey. thanks for the reply :)
yeah that's what i was thinking. if it's going to break anyone, it's going to be my sister, and i just don't want to make it worse while she's pregnant

It's okay, if you do ctb after the birth she will obviously grieve for you but at least have the baby to help her get over you.
Also imagine if you try to ctb before the birth but fail that could cause your sister great trauma when she needs all her strength and make you feel even worse
Hang on for sure :)

 

[TimeLawyer]

I am planning on possibly departing this world just after Christmas. I don't want to go during the holidays because it would be too hard on my family.

 

[liluglibih]

I'm shit at setting goals/making plans(I guess that's part of why I want to die). Every attempt I've made has been spontaneous. I think about it everyday and then I'll just randomly decide to do it.. maybe if I was better at planning things I wouldn't be alive right now lol

I am planning on possibly departing this world just after Christmas. I don't want to go during the holidays because it would be too hard on my family.

OK but wouldn't that be just as bad? New years is right after.. not trying to tell you what to do, just saying

 

[TimeLawyer]

I'm shit at setting goals/making plans(I guess that's part of why I want to die). Every attempt I've made has been spontaneous. I think about it everyday and then I'll just randomly decide to do it.. maybe if I was better at planning things I wouldn't be alive right now lol

OK but wouldn't that be just as bad? New years is right after.. not trying to tell you what to do, just saying

I was meaning a few weeks into 2021, I tend to think of Christmas/New Years as the same period of time.

 

[Hurt]

No but I dont wanna face another year. When I think about 2021 it makes me wanna ctb impulsively.

 

[Dagon]

Feb 2021. I've been more exhausted than usual lately, so I'm hoping I can still hold out until then.

 

[I screwed up]

Hope I don't see 2021

 

[ecmnesia]

not that it matters, but because I asked, i feel like I should answer too.

if I don't give up on the last minute, I intend to go next weekend. all that's left is finishing my letter.

 

[Nyxtus]

I was going to kill myself after my break up with my ex, but after a recent discussion with her I decided not to do it yet. I'm going to finish college (I'm 28 and an older student) and at least try a year if I can hack it in the workplace of my choice. If Medication and Therapy don't help me much with my mental illnesses I'll kill myself with an exit bag and that'll be that.

But let's see if I even make it two more years lol

 

[FatalSystemError591]

By March 1st, 2021

 

[Thrash]

January-March Somewhere in those months.

 

[TJuk]

After Christmas but before end of year

 

[Deleted member 23374]

I'm here till mom goes. Then i go.
Something i couldn't have imagined though
was waking up every morning
or just getting up to look around or get some coffee
and having to prepare myself constantly
is today the day?
am i ready?

it's maddening.

 

[almamuerta]

Maybe after my 40th. I didn't kill myself when I was younger because my mom needed me, she's been gone a while. I thought I had recovered but have been in a spiral for a while. I think I'll have a nice get together with people, make em smile and laugh and drink and dance then once thats done and everyone goes home, I'll close the door my life.

 

[greebo6]

I'm thinking sometime in January.

 

[Snowdrifts1212]

I think I've decided that my next birthday will be my limit. So either I recover in the next year or I will CTB on or before my birthday in November 2021. It kinda makes me miserable setting the date that far away because every day is so hard, but at least it gives me a chance to see if life can improve. So I'll try to stick with that. Plus I need to plan.

 

[SuicideRed]

Once every ten seconds, I'm like this is it... then I talk myself out of it. Or I meet someone interesting or I get inspired. Really, it's kinda like threatening the universe.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm stuck in a cycle of intense suicidal thoughts and the pain is unbearable but I'm still here until the day I finally manage to go through with it.