Discussion Do you guys have any hope left ?

[darksouls]

lost all hope

 

[Forveleth]

I am not necessarily out of "hope" I just do not want to live anymore. Even if things get better for me, I want to go (at least in the front brain, consciously). I have not made an attempt recently as I have a rule to not do so until I feel "ready" in every way in order to combat SI. I have not felt that my subconscious has been ready to let go so I am still here, alas.

 

[killawithme]

Are you still secretly waiting that things will eventually get better ? Or are you just stuck in the "i want to CTB but i don't know how / i'm not sure of which method i should go with".

I realized i'm ready to go and the only thing holding me back from saying goodbye is the fear of suffering a painful death.

I hoped things would get better for years and I always worked with everything I had towards better times they never came:(

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I have no hope at all. I never had any kind of support system when I was growing up, and still don't have one. I was always left to fend for myself.

 

[menthol]

I always have hope
I'll never lose it...

 

[zdeweilx]

I always have hope
I'll never lose it...

Is it fear of death or real hope ?

 

[menthol]

Is it fear of death or real hope ?

Hope
I don't fear death anymore
I feel like I won't
I hope I won't, I hope I will not want to be dead anymore, and I believe in it wholeheartedly
Thank God
Hope is half the success.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I don't see how something as evil and cruel as existence that only ever tortures existing beings could ever be hopeful rather the existence of life is the most devastating terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering, torture harm and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination.

I see no hope in being tortured for decades longer just to face the torture and agony of old age and to me it's just so cruel how the endless suffering and harm this evil existence causes gets invalidated like that, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, to be conscious burdened with this dreadful, painful existence of unnecessary suffering will always be so terrible to me.

Every second is torture to be conscious, the fact that humans still choose to cause all this suffering by imposing this existence onto others is so devastating, to suffer in this existence is such a terrible punishment to me, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the evil of existence, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific, dreadful world where humans have made wanting true permanent peace a crime.

 

[lawlietsph]

No, but yes at the same time.
I still have something that keeps me from suicide, but I don't know what it is. Maybe just the fear from pain and all that.
But at the same time I don't think that anything is going to improve for me. It will only get worse.
So to be honest, i'm not sure. :(

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

It's just fear of the act. I know there's no possibility of a life for me.

 

[fadedghost]

Are you still secretly waiting that things will eventually get better ?

no

 

[LonelyPrince]

I have a small flicker of hope.
Very small.
But unfortunately it's there. I say unfortunately cuz obviously it would be much more easy to just give up.
However, hope isn't the only thing stopping me.
I loathe the idea of being mourned and praised by people I've detested my entire life, loathe the idea of what fragments would remain of me in the world.
If there was an option to die peacefully while simultaneously being forgotten by everyone I'd take it in a heartbeat.

 

[thefarter]

omg hell no im waiting for payday so i can get my sn unless anyone knows a good way to move past being doxxed?

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

not really if im being honest, ive reached out to people for help and nothing good has come from it

Same my "friends" Just ditched me and bullied me. This one dude I still think about he was very blunt and honest and despite being clearly autistic he was very pushy abt social stuff and popularity and would hate on others he viewed as lower status to mentally torment them to feel better about himself. We were acquainted at one point and all he would do was trash talk other people even ones he considered to be his "friends". The thing is not many people truly liked him either but he was still more respected than I was. Still gives me trauma and makes me wanna kms thinking about the way he'd torment me.
I still have a tiny bit which is why I'm only gonna catch it in a few months if things don't get better.

 

[blooming]

I have glimmers of hope here and there. However though, I would say most of me has lost hope deep down.

 

[SweetMemories]

no hope left. I have not even 5 minutes of rest since the worsening of my tinnitus and it drives me to some very dark places. It needs to end.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Hope for what that i get stroke or accident that leaves with me brain damage and in pain

I guess they have almost everyone thinking in that life is something good that u hope u can continue in

to me life is something very horrible and evil that can trap anyone in a hell of constant unbearable pain

I only hope I can get myself to pull the trigger on my suicide

 

[zdeweilx]

Damn i hate myself for still being alive and having to go back to fucking WORK

 

[waterbottle3929]

I feel like I have some hope. I'm pretty young. I haven't graduated college yet. So I should have 'my whole life ahead of me.'

A lot of my issues are self caused and definitely can be fixed if I put more effort into it. The problem is, I just don't want to.

I just want to give up, stop trying, and die. I don't want to deal with anything anymore.

But the little bit of hope is really a nuisance to all of that.

 

[Reishi]

Nope lol

 

[bananaolympus]

There is a 99.99% chance i end up ctb when? don't know i don't have any date set, the things im dealing right now (physical,mental and neurogical problems) could get better yes is a possibility but ultimately what would get me off this world is loneliness, i only have my parents left my siblings which i love are building their future rn, a path i took for granted and said no thank you and now im living with the consequences, i like my work and have nice income but those are not gonna fill the void of being completely alone

 

[overthrone]

110% with you on this one. I'm in the exact same boat. I've accepted that things aren't getting better, but I can't bring myself to ctb. In truth, it's fear that's holding me back. I'm scared of dying in too much pain, I'm scared of something going wrong and fucking myself up, and I'm scared of what might happen when I'm gone.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

My only hope now is that I'm moving out soon. Honestly it's hard to still feel like moving is even worth it at this point, but I can't know until it actually happens so I'm holding out for just the next couple months. After that, if things don't get better, I'm leaving.

 

[Dark Moon]

Not really no, don't have any hope and my time has gone.

 

[windowinstaller]

no

 

[LittleSunshine]

I left hope behind years ago, but I'm forcing myself forward. It's the only thing I know.