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loslassen

loslassen

call me seven
Dec 8, 2023
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I suppose I want to know how many people on here experience this feeling;

gender dysphoria, the experience of feeling uncomfortable with the way you are perceived or express yourself due to it not aligning with your gender identity.

you don't have to be transgender to experience gender dysphoria


I believe deep down I am a closeted transgender man, my gender identity doesn't align with my body, social perception or assigned gender. while I do enjoy indulging in my femininity, I constantly experience *intense gender dysphoria toward my body, I genuinely just wish I was born a male.

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NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay ⋅ he/him
Nov 21, 2024
803
✋️ Dysphoric trans man here
 
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madeincruddy

madeincruddy

this body feels like a grave
Dec 3, 2025
26
Yes, I posted a thread about this earlier but I deleted it out of embarrassment lol. I've been dealing with a wave of gender dysphoria but unsure if I'd call myself FTM 😓
 
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_wishforwings

_wishforwings

Forever is such an unpleasant word.
Feb 4, 2026
17
Yes, I am ftm and was out socially for a few years actually but ended up going back in the closet and look feminine irl now :-( I miss when i was myself
 
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bakenohana

bakenohana

ah...I want to disappear.
Feb 12, 2026
62
I don't really like describing myself as a trans guy neccesarily, but I'm a guy that experiences gender dysphoria. it's ruined my life beyond ever repairable and is a pretty big contributor to why i wanna ctb
 
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yotaka

明日にはすべてが終るとして
Jan 29, 2026
61
I don't experience it as intensely as a lot of people do, but it's definitely there. Kind of fluctuates, so I tell people I'm nonbinary when they ask—at least in theory; nobody ever asks. I present as the gender I was assigned at birth, mostly because I know people would make it into a big thing if I didn't, and I really don't want to debate about it.
 
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NameOfAction

NameOfAction

Do as I say, not as I do
Feb 12, 2026
90
I don't know if this perspective is welcome, but I don't feel it.

Because I've not experienced it, it can be difficult for me to fully grasp gender and people's complicated relationships with it. I do empathize and count any person in the lgbtq+ community a comrade and a kindred spirit.

My only problem with being female is the crushing expectation to perform beauty and youth, to conform to the public's idea of what a woman ought to look like and act like. I prefer men's tailored suits and think I'd look nice with a beard, or at least some facial hair. Instead I am forced (partially internally, mostly via media and social expectations) to shave my whole body and look girlish, supple and up for grabs.It disgusts me.
By body, however, does not. I like my body and my face(shaved or not). I prefer my certain physical characteristics over the alternative. Just not the social experience of it all

My experience does not negate others
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I do not know where I am on the scale of dysphoria. I wish I was born male but I have accepted I was not. I dress more "male" but I do not particularly mind being perceived as a female. I just have this constant, resigned sadness about it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,796
Not intensely. I don't like being female. I reject complying to most female stereotypes now. I also hate certain aspects of myself. That's more for getting so fat and unhealthy but I'm very conscious that I'm unnatractive. Also, the biology side of it is unpleasant. I hate periods.

I sometimes think it would have been better to have been born male. I'd prefer the ability to be stronger. I prefer male haircuts and clothes. I was always a tom boy- prefering construction and practical toys to pretty things.

I wouldn't say I have strong dysphoria though. I don't exactly feel at odds with my body or sexuality. It's more society I dislike for putting expectations on us to comply to stereotypes.

Seeing as I prefer to blend in- I tend to comply with some things I maybe wouldn't if I truly didn't care. I often think it would be great just to shave my head hair off or, really short. It's always moulting. I'm at least grateful that I'm alive now. When it isn't quite so frowned upon to wear clothes that are comfortable, rather than feminine.
 
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kitkatt

kitkatt

Possumpwincess
Feb 17, 2026
84
I suppose I want to know how many people on here experience this feeling;

gender dysphoria, the experience of feeling uncomfortable with the way you are perceived or express yourself due to it not aligning with your gender identity.

you don't have to be transgender to experience gender dysphoria


I believe deep down I am a closeted transgender man, my gender identity doesn't align with my body, social perception or assigned gender. while I do enjoy indulging in my femininity, I constantly experience *intense gender dysphoria toward my body, I genuinely just wish I was born a male.

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Yes but in a nonhuman way I should've been born a creature specifically a possum;( like it's cool I'm a girl but I'm a critter at heart 👹
 
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yotaka

明日にはすべてが終るとして
Jan 29, 2026
61
I don't know if this perspective is welcome, but I don't feel it.

Because I've not experienced it, it can be difficult for me to fully grasp gender and people's complicated relationships with it. I do empathize and count any person in the lgbtq+ community a comrade and a kindred spirit.

My only problem with being female is the crushing expectation to perform beauty and youth, to conform to the public's idea of what a woman ought to look like and act like. I prefer men's tailored suits and think I'd look nice with a beard, or at least some facial hair. Instead I am forced (partially internally, mostly via media and social expectations) to shave my whole body and look girlish, supple and up for grabs.It disgusts me.
By body, however, does not. I like my body and my face(shaved or not). I prefer my certain physical characteristics over the alternative. Just not the social experience of it all

My experience does not negate others
I can't speak for everyone of course, but I very much welcome this perspective. It sucks that society puts so much pressure on people to fit into restrictive (and often harmful) gender roles. And even if you were 100% straight, cis, and gender conforming, there's nothing wrong with that. I appreciate that that you're being authentic and leaving space for everyone else to be as well.
 

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