Do you ever expose yourself to content that you know is going to make committing easier?

[Siamese Believe]

For example, whenever I feel scared or guilty about what I'm gonna do. I go look at online posts and videos of women talking about how they wouldn't date short ugly men and feel no attraction to them, insulting them, and talking about how they prefer tall handsome men.

This content hurts to read and watch, reminds me of my sub-humanity. So when I do, the thought of successfully going through with my plan seems easy, like I would go through with no hesitation.

After all if I don't do it, I have many many decades of loneliness ahead of me, my consciousness trapped in this disgusting fleshly vessel of blood and bone that no woman could ever even fathom being deeply attracted to. A car that functions but is so aesthetically unappealing that no one will ever ride it.

It feels good knowing that this body doesn't have to define who I am and who I was when I was alive, I will destroy it. Ending the mistake my parents made.

I had no choice in how I got to look, my height, my IQ, none of it. So I'm taking control by ending it. If I cannot have a life full of love and joy, then I will be granted death whether it hurts or not.

The day when I do it, I'm gonna listen to music and expose myself to a lot of this demeaning content. Only if I found myself hesitating though or needed time to work up to it.

 

[Quietist]

Attraction and beauty is relative; what one person thinks is ugly and repulsive, another person gets totally turned on at.

And I'd say the majority of women choose men not based on physicality, but personality/wit.

I had a male friend who was 5'6" who has been married twice and never had issues getting laid.

I've seen women in comment sections talk about how they fell madly in love with men who had microdicks.

You cannot make the fate of your life contingent upon the opinion of small percentage of strangers online.

Those women have no bearing on your path in life, or your future relationship prospects.

 

[Trismegistus_13]

That sounds like an extremely unhealthy habit. You're basically dehumanizing yourself so you don't view it as "that bad" if you die. Look man, I'm not saying that beauty standards aren't real or that women don't have preferences, but what you're doing is actively harming your own psyche and is not the hill to die on.

There are absolutely shitty women who view short, unattractive men as inferior, but there are many, many more great women who don't, and only taking in one point of view isn't going to change that fact.

I think it would be better to try to stop watching those types of videos. They attempt to prey on young men like us to get us to feel a certain way about women and about ourselves. Don't let them win.

 

[mjolnir]

You also have your preferences regarding women, but if you choose to consume only content from people who degrade who you are, then that's what your algorithm will indicate.
People are different, each and every one of them, and you probably have something you're drawn to unless you choose to harbor hatred for the opposite sex.