I used to think a lot about How my closer family And friends would feel about It but some time ago I isolated myself completely but that draws too much attention, so now I try to Interact the minimum with my close family And friends. After that isolation time I don't really Care much about How they'll feel, not even my parents, I just know they'll get over It and be Fine.
The only ones I Care are my brother and sister. We are very close and They're on important moments in their life. My sister is in the Middle of a doc and my brother is finishing High School, about to try to enter in uni. I don't wanna mess their lives rn, I am Afraid that my suicide Will mess with their professional lives in a definitive way. I really don't wanna their lives to be fucked like Mine. It's not Fair with them...