Do you cry?

[Mort]

I trained my self to not cry every time I started to feel like I was going to cry. Get get a pencil or a knitting needle and stab my srlf in the leg . Now as soon i feel like I going to cry i think of pain and stop.

 

[HGL91]

Right now I'm holding out for the final diagnosis. If it's the big C, I will probably ctb sooner than I've planned. At the moment I'm living in denial and channeling my fear into frustration at the oncologists.

Waiting for answers from doctors is so stressful :(

 

[TiMe2Go4ever]

Freuquently. I start thinking about how pointless my existence is and it starts again. Wondering when I will finally be brave enough to end myself :(

 

[TAW122]

I cry when I get really overwhelmed and just couldn't see any way out. Sometimes I feel like crying and I force myself to cry and release the tension, but it just doesn't happen. Other times, I just break down no matter how hard I try to hold back. Physiologically and psychologically, it was just overwhelming, sometimes I just don't know why...

The last time I cried was probably weeks ago and it was all the stress that piled up IRL.

 

[Beautifulletdown]

Oh god yes! At the most bloody obscure moments too!

I'm the same way. I've cried more in the last year at the most inappropriate times. I've just been so down and hopeless. Shit, the mailman gave me a hug because I was crying one day.

 

[Lennox]

I don't cry often in general, though there were phases in my life in which the smallest thing would make me tear up. Also on rare occasions whenever drunk I would cry uncontrollably (definitely not what you want if you invite someone over)

 

[BipolarExpat]

I cried a little on a flight today watching Bohemian Rhapsody when Freddie Mercury was diagnosed w/ AIDS.

Felt good. I'd been dry for quite awhile.

 

[Saga]

everynight

 

[StillWaiting]

I didn't cry much when I was on antidepressants .
Now when I no longer take them, I find myself crying over small little things.

 

[FFTMGD]

I rarely cry, but often my knees buckle and I curl up unable to move from veing overwhelmed by despair.p

 

[azucaramargo]

You know what, BoJack said it better than me:

Yeah, the emotions are mostly gone... I wish I could cry and relieve my stress, but I can't. All I have is this madness that keeps building up inside me, and no way to comprehend it or let it go.

I loooooove Bojack! I've watched seasons 1-4 over and over again. And, I've seen season 5 2x over. Love that show. Love that Bojack is rich & depressed. Kind of nice to live vicariously through him vìs-a-vis his wealth.

I didn't cry much when I was on antidepressants .
Now when I no longer take them, I find myself crying over small little things.

Definitely!

I cried a little on a flight today watching Bohemian Rhapsody when Freddie Mercury was diagnosed w/ AIDS.

Felt good. I'd been dry for quite awhile.

Were you flying home? :)

 

[bLack_miLk]

I just feel ashamed most of the time, since years.

I rarely cry on my own when I am touched by a piece of art or I am too sober.

 

[Ramirez]

I do have episode where I cry alot. I feel much calmer after crying.

 

[lilyeehaw]

I'm an emotional wreck

 

[Taki]

No. I feel like a goddamn disgrace after.

 

[Yoffi]

yes, usually after I'm left alone with my thoughts with no way of escaping from them, be it by music, video games or films and modern civilization has means of escapism in excess, so I'd say I cry once every 3-4 months.
I'm disappointed in myself after I cry, but it feels good to let at least a little bit of those bottled up emotions out.

 

[Wixer]

Sometimes I need to cry and can't. Sometimes tears come at odd times. One thing I've noticed is that I'll tear up when I hear someone express sincere gratitude to someone else. I used to listen to the radio at work, and just hearing the DJ introduce a musical guest that they were sincerely excited to meet, and thank them sincerely for coming on the show, could send me to the restroom to collect myself. I think it's because my childhood experience never gave me a feeling of being appreciated or wanted.

 

[Phoenix1990]

I wish I could cry. I just want to have a sobbing session rather than hurting myself because I can't express myself and get all the hurt out.

 

[Jon86]

Rarely, everyday of my life is torture so it's all the same hellscape as usual. I'm more like a zombified corpse or the old dude in a retirement home staring out the window at nothing in a constant stupor.

 

[GAKitty]

I don't do it too often, but when I do cry, I bawl like a baby. I can't be stopped for like 15-30 minutes :( Like, even Toy Story 4 managed to make me bust out in tears while watching in the theater... and my friends laughed at me

 

[justanotherday]

I have been going through a phase for a year now where I cry very easily. I guess it is because I am full of lots of stress and anxiety. I have cried in front of people that I don't even know that well which embarrasses me afterwards. Then I get paranoid thinking why did I have a crying spell in front of my boss at work at a brand new job??!!! I hope he doesn't think poorly of me. I felt the need to explain to him why I cried, which is because my life is in a very low place now.

 

[Nodscene]

I'm truly sorry to hear this. I'll be totally honest as I'd be the opposite and be thankful for such a thing.

That being said I can also completely understand how having that decision and timing taken away from you can be devastating. I hope it somehow works out the way you want as you deserve it.

Honestly it started when they found my liver tumors. It was like the sudden knowledge that something besides myself may kill me, wrecked me. And they want to wait 4 months before deciding to biopsy or not and so I just walk around every day like "I could be slowly dying". One would think I'd be happy, but these weren't my terms damnit.

 

[azucaramargo]

No. I feel like a goddamn disgrace after.

Taki-kun, you're a jewel!

 

[Pupuce]

Rarely. That's a waste of energy.

 

[azucaramargo]

I have been going through a phase for a year now where I cry very easily. I guess it is because I am full of lots of stress and anxiety. I have cried in front of people that I don't even know that well which embarrasses me afterwards. Then I get paranoid thinking why did I have a crying spell in front of my boss at work at a brand new job??!!! I hope he doesn't think poorly of me. I felt the need to explain to him why I cried, which is because my life is in a very low place now.

Sheryl Sandberg, the COO of Facebook and author of the sort-of controversial book "Lean In", thinks that crying in the workplace is becoming more acceptable and even appreciated.

If I were your boss, and you cried in front of me -- and also put yourself out there enough to explain why -- I would admire and trust the hell out of you for showing your vulnerability.

Please resist the urge to beat yourself up. I know doing so can be satisfying, but you've gotta try and be a friend to justanotherday. Congrats on your new job. I wish I had the cojónes to seek and win a new job like you have done. You're the greatest!

I'm truly sorry to hear this. I'll be totally honest as I'd be the opposite and be thankful for such a thing.

That being said I can also completely understand how having that decision and timing taken away from you can be devastating. I hope it somehow works out the way you want as you deserve it.

Morphinekiss, this is devastating news. I really like the way you describe the irony of the tumors not being on your terms. How is your support network where you are? How are you feeling?

I'm truly sorry to hear this. I'll be totally honest as I'd be the opposite and be thankful for such a thing.

That being said I can also completely understand how having that decision and timing taken away from you can be devastating. I hope it somehow works out the way you want as you deserve it.

Morphinekiss, this is devastating news. I really like the way you describe the irony of the tumors not being on your terms. How is your support network where you are? How are you feeling?

I just feel ashamed most of the time, since years.

I rarely cry on my own when I am touched by a piece of art or I am too sober.

Shame is a big part of my daily existence. But, some people think I don't have enough shame. Are you ashamed about anything in particular, or is it just general lack of confidence & self reproach?

 

[bLack_miLk]

Shame is a big part of my daily existence. But, some people think I don't have enough shame. Are you ashamed about anything in particular, or is it just general lack of confidence & self reproach?
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Actually I am a pretty confident dude, someone who even gets naked onto stage during a punk concert at his wildest moments, my shame is for the most part something I feel inside of me, I do not show it. From a meta-perspective I prolly wouldnt say that I need to be ashamed, but my standards for myself are immensely higher than for other human beings I interact with. I 'd never say the things I say to myself on a regular basis, to someone else. Pretty irrational, but I cannot change it. Even if I really wanted to.
And I totally agree. A good amount of heart-felt shame can make you do things which are better for everybody in the end... if nothing else.
Maybe this is the one thing of me, people could try to imitate more (rofl;)... Shame on you all out there.... try to be better. ;P

 

[Mr2005]

Once in a blue moon. I'm always crying on the inside but it hardly ever comes out

 

[Forest Fire]

I feel on the brink of it several times a day and look visibly upset quite often. Only happens once or twice a year though, usually at night in bed and usually hysterically.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I cannot cry. It is physically impossible. No matter how much I want to, I just can't. So instead I just cry on the inside.

 

[Baskol1]

No, i rarely ever cry, and only when really really bad things happen.