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Discussiondo you care about being “pretty” when you die?
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maybe this has to do with my socialization, but before i ctb i intend to wash and style my hair perfectly, shave every hair below my eyes off, do my nails and toes, etc… so that even in my death i am "presentable". does anyone else feel this way, or something adjacent?
I think "presentable" is a good word for me. My reasoning for doing some personal upkeep before CTB is that I would like my family to be minimally traumatized by what they see, if they see it. I don't want the way I look to make them think about how tough it must have been recently or whatever. My beard grows very very quickly, and I've been severely depressed for a couple months now, so I look like a lvl 100 homeless guy.
I am frankly the opposite, I want there to be a large mess after I'm done, I intend to use a firearm for many reasons but my main one is that I want there to be a pool of blood beneath my head. I can't tell you why I am drawn so much to this in particular, but whenever I see an image of a dead body. I have always been drawn in a weird way towards the firearm deaths, and specifically the way that the blood pools. maybe it's the consistency of the blood, or I simply like the colour but I really want my dead body to have a pool of blood around my head.
For basic hygiene, I obviously will shower and clean myself before, but other than that and some fresh cloths, I don't really care much for my appearance in terms of how presentable I am, I have always had long unkempt messy frizzy hair (I am Male) so I never really cared for how other viewed me, and that wont change for my death and afterwards.
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Pretty doesn't matter to me, (i'm one of those males who doesn't wear pink).
But yes hygienic, shaved, dressed, having destroyed certain stuff and a fairly clean house and such does matter to me.
No, but I am concerned about staying alive because I'll no longer be pretty, not only am I starting to lose my looks as im getting older but people are forcing my eating disorder away from be so I know I'll be forced to gain weight which I am not comfortable with.
In death I know what you mean but I'm going to take SN and apparently your going to look totally malled and blue and your body is fucked after taking it anyway so I suppose not much point in looking pretty!!
But this is very valid I mean think about the Egyptians they had to perfectly preserve the body, paint the face with gold and eyeliner etc as well as making the body smell so perfect that archaeologists say even now thousands of years later the bodies smell.nice
Yes, I've been thinking about any things I want to change about myself and how I might look after death. It's probably a bit vain or silly to think about but if I'm going to be gone forever, I might as well look as nice as I can. Though I'm pretty sure my brains splattered against the wall and whatever else won't be doing me any favours.
Don't care about outer beauty much, mostly just the fact that the action of dying is done. If attractive when dead, that's just a bonus and one that will be worthy of making the OCD thoughts comforted
not really one of my major concerns...especially since it's beyond my control.Each organism reacts to hanging in a different way: I've seen photographs of hanged individuals with extremely peaceful expressions on their faces whereas others at best are horrifying
Death is ugly and gross. Your skin looks weird. Your face is potentially contorted. Your limbs bend in ways they are not supposed to. You leak waste. I hope I look like a complete disaster to reflect how I was in life.
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For me it's the opposite, I want my stuff to be in order so that my relatives won't have to clean after me but I myself want to be a grosteque show, rotting disgustingly in an uncomfortable position, with a horrendous smell as well. Idk why, maybe as means of expression, to make a grand entrance into death, to finally be seen from afar, to claim my space, or all of the above
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maybe this has to do with my socialization, but before i ctb i intend to wash and style my hair perfectly, shave every hair below my eyes off, do my nails and toes, etc… so that even in my death i am "presentable". does anyone else feel this way, or something adjacent?
I'm currently in the process of losing weight before I CTB, hoping to look slightly better since my face isn't as lean as it could be. Also, since my method will be SN, getting used to fasting for prolonged periods of time will be beneficial. That said, I don't have any hope of looking "pretty" or "handsome," as I don't believe I could ever be seen that way in someone else's eyes especially since we're constantly exposed to models and celebrities online, skewing our standards.
maybe this has to do with my socialization, but before i ctb i intend to wash and style my hair perfectly, shave every hair below my eyes off, do my nails and toes, etc… so that even in my death i am "presentable". does anyone else feel this way, or something adjacent?
My good buddy left he was a male. I think he was more interested in looking dignified. He took something while sitting in a desk chair in front of his desk. When I found him, he was leaning back. I just thought he was sleeping. As if he was doing some work and then just put his head back and took a nap
He was careful to put his diplomas and certificates in front of him. He had electrician certificate a few others. They were trade certificates, not college..
He had gotten into some illegal things. It's a long story, but that's not really who he was and he wanted to let the world know. He was a great mechanic, but life just took him away from that starting with a doctor hooking him on benzos.
So he left peaceful and dignified in an office chair and he used fentanyl and actually snorted it with $100 bill which I think was another statement.
So he cared how he looked not so much physically he just had his regular clothes, but he wanted to look proud and dignified.
As for my parents, they didn't leave voluntarily, but they were stylish people, and both of them cared how they looked even as things started to wrap up.
I am frankly the opposite, I want there to be a large mess after I'm done, I intend to use a firearm for many reasons but my main one is that I want there to be a pool of blood beneath my head. I can't tell you why I am drawn so much to this in particular, but whenever I see an image of a dead body. I have always been drawn in a weird way towards the firearm deaths, and specifically the way that the blood pools. maybe it's the consistency of the blood, or I simply like the colour but I really want my dead body to have a pool of blood around my head.
For basic hygiene, I obviously will shower and clean myself before, but other than that and some fresh cloths, I don't really care much for my appearance in terms of how presentable I am, I have always had long unkempt messy frizzy hair (I am Male) so I never really cared for how other viewed me, and that wont change for my death and afterwards.
Yeah, I think? I want it to be a specific way either I jump off and feel the air rushing through my hair for a while then hit the ground and make a mess or just overdose and lay in my bed almost as if I'm sleeping. But whatever it is I hope I look "pretty", like I belong in a painting... pretty and beautiful in a twisted way.
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