Do most people who ctb wish they had a partner?

[Ambivalent1]

I wonder how many people prefer to die alone.

 

[love_peep]

No i wanna die alone cuz its easier then with partner

 

[Tobacco]

I want a partner to feel recovered.

 

[enough of this]

That's a great question. I'm sure it would help me to want to stick around. My biggest problem has always been loneliness. It's gotten too hard to take.

 

[soft-flower345]

I'd prefer to die with a partner, preferably someone I love or am in love with. I think I'd rather ctb alone than with a complete stranger though, if I don't know them then they're too unpredictable and my anxiety over trying to determine whether theyre trustworthy in the moment would prob trigger my SI and I'd back out or die in a state of fear.

 

[leftdreaming]

Nah. I doubt I'd have it in me not to try and "save them" or whatever. Hypocritical, I know, but I'd either end up failing to save them and have my last moments be utter despair or save them and die alone anyways later down the line which wouldn't be fair to them. It's lose-lose.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I thought about it at one point but I think it's just a bad idea in general, too much can go wrong. It would be nice to have someone to go through it with but it's risky for sure. Closest I'll get is support on here via goodbye thread I guess (if I CTB and make a goodbye thread) and that's the next best thing for me.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

In my fantasy it takes the edge off, but it would be just that…a fantasy. I can't put my life in the hands of a stranger. Too many things that could go wrong…rape, backing out, charges for assisting suicide…etc. So though dying in the arms of another does sound tempting…I am not up for taking that leap of faith.

 

[meowmeowkitty]

I wouldn't want a partner. I would find it super awkward to ctb with a random person.

fuck i wish they had a laughing emoji lmao
I do, but it's really just a dream. I would want to do it with someone i know for one which won't work lol, and i'm a female so there's being taken advantage of that i have to also worry about. unfortunately ill die alone.

 

[leftdreaming]

fuck i wish they had a laughing emoji lmao

Most people use the reaction, at least in the chatroom.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Would make it less lonely i guess but you can get fucked legal wise if anything goes wrong

 

[deomlez]

definitevely alone. Getting old, it s more and more difficult to share with other humans.

 

[feder]

Even tough it sounds pretty romantic, and its maybe going to be easier to ctb with a person, but as the people above mentioned there are to many risks involved.
If by any chance one survives they are going to be really fucked, and probably feel horrible because the other person died and they did not.
If there was a person I could trust a 1000% then I would definitely prefer a double ctb.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think if you'd known one another for years (in real life) and had ideation together, there could be enough trust. Trusting a stranger online is risky though. I'm happy for people when it works but it seems too much of a risk to me.

 

[BlackNails]

Absolutely alone.
Dont want the burden of carrying someone elses burdens or managing their regrets or doubts in my final moments

 

[ggetout33]

Random person probably not. Someone I know, trust, and who shares the same predicament maybe. Although my suicidal feelings are more out of a sense of loneliness and isolation. I feel I'd probably back out if I were to find a close friend or even a romantic partner, a good one anyways.

 

[ringo99]

I'm not comfortable around other people so alone would be the way I'd prefer to go

 

[FuneralCry]

I always think it's preferable to die alone far away from other people as I just think the human species is awful in general, and you cannot trust and rely on other people, they very often just create more suffering so of course it's best to die alone.

 

[DurkheimsCat]

Definitely not. I don't want to hurt a single other person.

 

[uguufo]

Rather than a partner, I wish I had a Hitman to take me out painlessly with me unaware lol. But I've always had a fantasy about getting murdered.

 

[bunnyeve]

absolutely not, especially not someone that i love. i wouldn't be able to hold myself from, as hypocritical as it is, saving them

 

[huskisthatyou]

i like the idea of having someone i trust with me but no

 

[Usako0504]

I couldn't put anyone through that

 

[loopdaloop]

Would much rather die alone , but having someone help by pushing me over the edge to get over with it would have been nice (if it was legal to encourage suicide)

 

[generaltonight1709]

It makes things easier not having a partner to be honest.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Be careful if you partner up with anyone, since you really don't know who the other person is, especially if you find someone here on SaSu. Some may have nefarious reasons, so it is in your best interests to get to know each other very well and get comfortable with them and not get gaslit.

 

[sayire]

Alone is already complicated, why complicate it any further. The idea feels nice but will be a rabbit hole.

for me definitely alone. plan it the best that way. make it less lonely by planning for last good meal etc etc.

 

[crimsonpool]

i would really like one im not too scared of dying but just a little and i think having someone else there could help that