Method Do I have a shot?

[bye_forever]

I've decided to CTB but due to limited autonomy a lot of methods seem out of my reach.

This is my current inventory of CNS depressants from leftover prescriptions following several recent major surgeries:
4.2g gabapentin (anticonvulsant)
3g tramadol (opiate)
8mg clonazepam (benzo)
150mg metoclopramide (antiemetic)

I'm planning to take it all alongside 20 units of alcohol.

For reference, I'm 30nb, 63kg, with no tolerance to any of the classes of drugs I mentioned aside from opiates (average of 30mg codeine a day). I've had about 4 months of near total bedrest, so my general health and fitness level is pretty fucked, if that matters.

Will that do it? If it's borderline then what should I try to get more of? I'm pretty sure I'll only get one shot at this and I want to get it right. I do not want to wake up with brain damage or organ failure. My life is intolerable enough as is.

Thanks

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Not an expert but ODs nearly always fail. I know you're in a lot of pain but this is a recipe for hospitalization + involuntary psychiatric hold.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I've taken more Gabapentin than that at once [also a suicide attempt]. Failed.

 

[bye_forever]

Sorry y'all. I did see your replies yesterday but I was just too dejected to answer. I appreciate the honesty, even if it isn't what I want to hear. It's awful to feel so trapped.

 

[Leiot]

ODs are difficult - your body wants to reject them so you end up throwing up or something. You can take meds to prevent that but your body will still fight against it.

 

[NegevChina]

ODs are not recommended. More likely to fail and suffer pain rather than CTB

 

[asthedayends00]

No access to belt/rope?

 

[bye_forever]

I doubt I'm physically capable of setting up rope and executing it when I'm just about able to painfully hobble to the bathroom a few times a day, sometimes needing help. I also have a full-time carer, so very little privacy.