Did anyone else mess up what couldve been a beautiful life?

[settheory]

Yep. Made some very bad decisions. Lots of little decisions, a few big decisions. Mostly a combination of irrational risk aversion (too afraid of "making things even worse"), being too diplomatic, not assertive enough with my parents, and "not having time" being among many excuses for idleness (idleness not in the sense of laziness, but in the sense of doing things that deviate from my routine, status quo too much). Maybe shame and fear of society too. Maybe some other stuff.
There were a few or one decision that in the long term lead where i am. Things wouldn't be all so bad even considering all my previous decisions. Again, risk averson and "diplomacy" with my parents. Don't want to tell exactly what it was here yet.
I might have an excuse that i was abused but i feel like i could have done better nonetheless.

 

[FogFilledLife]

I started college at 16.

 

[Charcoal Feathers]

My mental disorders are genetic and they manifested during adolescence. Due to a lack of awareness and stigma I didn't know I could seek help until I was already an adult. When I eventually did get mental health care, it didn't help me much. It is true that I've made some really bad decisions in my life, but I cannot say with any certainty that my life would've been normal even if I did make the right ones. On the other hand I can't say my suicidality would've been inevitable either cause I know a middle ground exists.

 

[NormaJeane]

Life will be bad for us all when we live long enough because of the circumstances.

 

[akana]

i messed up/had it messed up yes

 

[thedaywillcome]

I am totally tired of this life. No wrong decisions. Lost genetic lottery.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Lots of shortcuts and delusions …

 

[Hangnail]

Made one huge, awful decision and my life has been ruined. Hope you are ok OP.

 

[nosoul]

I just needed to keep working, no drugs, then I lost it all, should be rich successful but I set off mania with drug use and lately dmt use, no I'm destroyed, I'm so depressed over it