Desperate to die now!

[dust-in-the-wind]

I have the most convenient way to die. I live nears a 200+ bridge over the ocean. It's pretty much 100% death. Why am I am so afraid??? Will I die on impact or drown? It's also freezing so hypothermia is another other. I jump, It's over so why am I so scared.??? Hanging is my 2nd choice and doesn't seem to scare me like jumping

 

[sanctionedusage]

freefall into the freezing abyss is a lot scarier than a neck hug in your bedroom before fading out

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

freefall into the freezing abyss is a lot scarier than a neck hug in your bedroom before fading out

I agree. It's just a guaranteed death.

 

[fadedghost]

i'm so sorry things have been so difficult...

you could consider VNS for treatment resistant depression:

Key Insights from a Landmark Study Exploring Vagus Nerve Stimulation for Treatment-Resistant Depression - Louis A. Faillace, MD, Department of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences

Written by Joao L. de Quevedo, MD, PhD Introduction Treatment-resistant depression (TRD) remains one of the most challenging conditions in psychiatry. With limited options for patients who do not respond to conventional treatments, researchers continue to explore novel interventions. One such...

med.uth.edu

Vagus nerve stimulation in treatment-resistant depression: A one-year, randomized, sham-controlled trial - PubMed

Percent time in MADRS response did not distinguish the treatment groups, but on multiple instruments time in response and PR showed a positive treatment effect. VNS was found safe and effective in participants with marked TRD.

pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

 

[Dejected 55]

Having access to the "Suicide button" and actually pressing it are two different things. I often wish for an "easy" button where I could push it and just immediately die painlessly... but I can only imagine the angst I would have in actually pushing that button if it were right here in front of me.

Despite the pain and misery and the desperate want for it to be over... actually pushing that button takes a lot in that moment.

 

[Steph99]

freefall into the freezing abyss is a lot scarier than a neck hug in your bedroom before fading out

Couldn't agree more. That jump would be terrifying.