Desire for Violent Death

[powersurge&achilles]

confused by life and the knots I tied
the urge for a violent death
Drowning in a river, cold fingers
Slicing of the wrists
selfish jester, entertainment my only value
I got the cops called on me yesterday for going to the local bridge peering over the river. Evaluating my options.
It was 3:30 in the morning I can't blame them.
I'm only 20 and I've already been hospitalized 5 times
Wtf is this
I can't be that wrong

 

[theboy]

Why do you want that?

 

[sadlyexisting]

I do understand you actually, I always crave that feeling to just drive 200 mph on a motorcycle into a tree. The adrenaline rush before death is something I really do crave, but I promise you that a peaceful death is way better than a violent one.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I do understand you actually, I always crave that feeling to just drive 200 mph on a motorcycle into a tree. The adrenaline rush before death is something I really do crave, but I promise you that a peaceful death is way better than a violent one.

For me the rush of finally I'm doing what I want and going to non-existence now when I want on my terms