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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

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Oct 9, 2022
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The pain and sadness I feel on a daily basis hurts so deeply. It's getting to the point where my chest and heart hurt pretty badly. It used to happen only every once in a while. Now it's more often. Anyone else experience this too?
 
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rosepanda

rosepanda

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Jul 20, 2024
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This started happening to me about 6 months ago. Really sucks and I have no idea what to do about it. I hope you feel better
 
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cali22♡

cali22♡

Banned
Nov 11, 2023
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The pain and sadness I feel on a daily basis hurts so deeply. It's getting to the point where my chest and heart hurt pretty badly. It used to happen only every once in a while. Now it's more often. Anyone else experience this too?
I also feel the same when i have my ctb thoughs or feeling sad
 
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mangledjaws

mangledjaws

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Jun 21, 2024
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It's all so crushing
 
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Nephy

Nephy

I was only temporarily…
Jul 17, 2024
57
Yes I know this too.. 🥲 the pain was so bad that I started think about this .. can sadness hurt so much ?? Or is it fear ? What if it's a panic attack and I just think it's sadness? A very long panic attack to be honest ..
 
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Ryemi

Ryemi

Jealous of the dead
Apr 3, 2023
49
I have BPD and other more mental illnesses, it quite happens to me a lot to the point that I just want to ctb because it hurts so bad. I'm struggling with it rn and idk what to do.
 
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sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
282
I get this too. Sometimes it feels like I want to rip my insides out to prevent them from hurting so badly.
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

An existence transfigured by failure.
Mar 4, 2024
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This happens to me sometimes too. To me it feels like my chest is imploding. I'm sorry you're suffering in this way.
 
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MisterOGBongWater

MisterOGBongWater

Student
Aug 30, 2023
147
Yes all the time.
 
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sunnysidedown

sunnysidedown

should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?
Jun 28, 2023
35
This is so relatable… it feels like a giant hand squeezing my heart, trying to make it shatter— as cheesy as that sounds. My life is either miserable days of heartache, or nothing at all— just harrowing emptiness
I feel you so much :((
 
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