Depressed about moving out

[Szinuus]

I feel so depressed about moving out. Im 22 and rn live with my family. Im dealing with chronic pain and depression due to it. Had two suicide attempts. I feel good living with parents and brothers but I have to move out soon to my own apartment because the house in which we live is far from the city where I study. So parents are renovating apartment in our old house and I'm about to move out there. A few years ago I was living alone in another city, where I was in dent school. I liked it a lot. But I was healthy then, had no chronic pain, and no severe depression. I feel like my emotional state will worsen when I will be living all alone. I can't imagine being on my own. I know a lot of people my age would be jealous of such situation but Im not. All of this just makes me wish to be gone so badly.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry. Do your parents know how much it is worrying you? They do sound supportive- do you think maybe you could tell them and shedule regular times to talk and see them? I know it won't be the same as living with them but maybe it would help to know you will regularly be in touch?

 

[Szinuus]

They know. I would be living there during the weeks, when people work and study. My dad work abroads, mom will work in our city so she would see me during the weeks.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

I'm about to move out too and I feel the same way

 

[peacetime]

You were in dental school, and now you study something else or what?
Anyway, I fucked up my university due to having no human connections and severe depression and psychotic episodes as well. If I could do it all over again, fuck, I wish I could have just taken 1 or even 2 years of a break instead of screwing up my studies. If you are literally suicidal over this, it's definitely something to think about.

 

[Szinuus]

Yes, I study biology now. Dent school is too hard for me since I have chronic pain.

 

[hamvil]

I felt the same at your age, and after a few months out I realized I could never go back to living with my family because I enjoyed so much living on my terms. Give it a try and you will not regret it.

 

[Shoko]

I'm kind of in the same boat but not exactly. I dealing with my depression and anxiety and a loss of my closest sister, and my other sister is kicking me out. If there was a time like I felt like killing myself is when she reminds me that my life is a wreck.