Venting Definitelyworried

[Definitelyworried]

My thoughts,

I'm going to hang myself.

Maybe I don't have to.

I better hang myself.

Maybe I don't have to.

I start to cry, not knowing what to do.

 

[Lara Francis]

I think that when you have hope,even a small amount you should give yourself a chance.you can always change your mind if things get worse.you are so lucky to have that glimmer of hope -keep hold of it.you will never know if anything will change unless you hang around to find out.I am sorry if I sound like some type of pro lifer as I am not but do believe you have to be 100% sure this is what you want as there's no going back.i wish you peace and happiness in whatever decision you choose my friend x

 

[Definitelyworried]

I'm having another rough night, oh I feel that my situation is so unstable.
And having trouble with insomnia.

 

[Definitelyworried]

These past 3 days have been so difficult I've had many thoughts of suicide.

The pain has been so much that suicide is forced into my mind even though I'm trying not to think about suicide.

If I do end up commiting suicide it won't be because I didn't try to find another option to improve my feelings or situation.

I don't want to ctb and I tried to improve, but I been stuck or steadily declining even though my fight has been with a lot of effort.