Death wishes

[Braindead Atheist]

Hey everyone. I'm bored as hell with life and nothing fulfills me anymore. I'm stuck at home because I have no job or money. I can't tumble anymore because I screwed my right arm. The chiropractor says I may never be able to do back step outs ever again. I feel like puking because I hate life so much. I finished EKG school and there's no jobs out there. I get bullied and fired at every job I try anyways, so I guess its all the same. I do nice things for others all the time and I'm told a lot of people would be upset if I CTBed. I realized that I must exist just to be of pleasure or comfort to others. But in the end, whats actually here for me individually?! Nothing but BS.

My art talent destroyed my life, I can't do any other job, I've been shunned and treated like a criminal by someone I thought I could trust just because I have an eating disorder and I have no money to do anything. People my age are graduating, getting GOOD jobs, traveling, getting married.etc but me?! I get this.

If life is worth living, I have yet to see it.

For my last wishes I want everyone who screwed with me brought to justice. And as far as me personally, I just want to lay down and die. I don't want anything anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable just wishing to be gone, as it's certainly true that existing here is so dreadful, I could never see something so pointless and hopeless as existing as being worth it. All that lies ahead is more suffering and it's horrible how humans just make existing even worse.