Dead weight

[un.exist]

Even the universe itself is tired of me. There is not a single day that I don't ruminate on how worthless I am
I just don't know why I'm here. The number of attempts I have is pitiful. I swear I don't know. I don't fucking know anymore. There's no reason for me to be here, I'm not a source of joy or even mild happiness to anyone. I am a stupid burden that can't fucking get their shit together. I'm such a coward, I want to die so I wont have to face the disappointment my whole existence has become . You could tell me exactly how to turn my life around and I would still screw it up like the fool I am.

 

[sureucan362]

I feel like i wrote this
I get it
Im sorry your were your at but maybe you can take some solace knowing your not truly alone i'm tried three times and two weeks , and each one has been a grade a failure. Yesterday I thought was going to be the one and here I sit definitely worse and even more embarrassed.
I Hope you find some peace