Story Day 1. A day of fun and crashing again.

[HeyBoogahJr]

I woke up and I got ready for college.

Told the people I like to have a good week.

I ate my apple and banana like I usually do, I listened to "Here comes a thought" to call myself.

I had a little fear in my heart about how I'll deal with the events of last Thursday at college.

I locked the door and pushed the key through the letterbox and realised I forgot my headphones. Tragic.

I walked to college, felt a little itchy. Saw some cute ducks laying about.

I sat down for a bit and calmed myself.

I went in and sat down with my classmates? We were apparently doing a trip today. I asked how they were doing and drank water. I saw that teacher walk past and felt bad. Damn, does he even want to talk to me anymore...

We got on the taxi, I made sure to check if anyone knew about Thursday and no one did thankfully.

We had a nice chat in the taxi and made it to the park and had a nice day. It was sunny and bright.

We walked and talked and took photos, had a picnic, I rolled down a hill, I played badminton and we had ice cream.

In between that, I checked my emails and saw that my teacher responded, it was a small response to all my pain and sadness.

He was busy and he only saw them now. But nothing after that.

I grabbed a big stick and broke it, I beat the ground with it many times. How angry I was, how saw I felt.

My ARMS keychain broke while I was pushing someone on the swing. I need to fix it. Almost lost all the pieces.

Wish I had someone who could help me fix it.

We went back and had another nice chat in the taxi.

I went to see my leaving care worker and we talked about my pain and sadness. She dropped me off at home and I was on sasu for the rest of the day.

I walked to my clown course and I had a wonderfully fun time there.

On my walk home I thought of the person who told me off about Thursday. "I can't do that again or I can't come anymore"

I sat down, I thought about how he didn't even ask why I did it. He just told me off.

It's been a while, I should've noticed it sooner, but it seems like this person seems to be distancing themselves now. How cruel. How sad. I've been trying to be friends with them for so long. I want to punch them in the face.

For a while now, I've been texting this persona Nd talking to them like we were besties. But he next really gave any of that back. He hasn't been asking about me or my week. Saying hi.

Maybe it was too painful to notice. I thought about how I could get back at him. I'd bring in Alcahol again and this time I'd make sure I'd be dead. The night night method seems a lot more nicer than hanging myself fully.

But I know I'm angry, I know I'm sad. When I die. I don't want it to be against another dick who can't just be human with me.

I want to die peacefully. I want to die not to spite someone. (Or else I'll become a ghost)

Anyway, how was your day today?

I'm gonna go patch up both my coats, shower, eat something yummy and see how my miis are doing in my island.

Thanks for reading.

 

[HeyBoogahJr]

Day 2: Just Another Day.

Today was Tuesday.

So I kinda didn't sleep for a while, I was awake until like 5am.

Why? I went to go do the deed with a stranger on Sniffies (gay app like Grindr) we did it, then conversated and I said bye.

On my walk home I thought, that maybe I didn't want to do sexual things (guess I'm spiritually a hoe confirmed.) I might just want to do it with a guy I like. Idk, I don't see myself meeting the man of my dreams before my birthday. But hopefully I will and I won't be found dead on a beach.

But I'm no longer a virgin, so I guess that's something. But a milestone for me would be if someone loved me and wanted to spend time with me.

I came home and showered, cleaned my butt out and went to bed.

I woke up around 13:50, I was thinking about the PS-Vita and how much I wanted one.

I got up and had breakfast, helped mum carry bags after she was done shopping.

I went out in my pyjamas.

Put on some vine compilations in the background.

Anyone know what "Taste the biscuit" is? If not.
I suggest watching it. It's a nice video. It's on YouTube.

I've been playing Tomodachi Life: Living the Dream. It's been going well, my teachers mii, isn't interested in being friends with me. Damn.

I have a husband on the island. Laios. Hehe.

I wish I could live on a quaint little island and just know everyone there and have a fun time.

I stopped and played ARMS for a bit. I've been trying to beat my score in Random ARMS mode, and I go down the roster and start over. Today was Twintelle and I lost in V-Ball at around 20.

I got up. Patched up some rips in my coats.

I'm hungry and will be eating some buldak noodles now. Off the bed and then it's college tomorrow and some gardening.

How was your day?