Discussion DAE want to ctb because they're worried that in the future they won't be able to?

[nembutaldream]

I was wrongfully held in psychiatric facilities a couple of times because some former friends of mine straight up lied and manipulated me, and now I'm terrified of being wrongfully imprisoned. It would be very hard to ctb in an actual prison or a long term psych ward. Idk what the future holds but sometimes I think it would be better to take an opportunity now while I still have the freedom.

The other consideration would be chronic illnesses or injuries that would prevent one from carrying out any number of methods. I already have illnesses that make some methods less viable.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'd definitely want to CTB before I had to go into a nursing home or if I got to the point where I needed to be reliant on others. I don't want to be old.

It also deeply worries me that I may screw up a first attempt at suicide and debilitate myself somehow from trying again. I feel as if I'd like to get other methods prepared ready as backups. I really can't fail.